Chapter 5
The Three-Way Female With Sadomasochistic and Pedophilic Desires to Nymphomaniac Degree
As the reader will undoubtedly notice (if not already), most three-way females are also responsive to many other variations in sexual behavior. Some may be more responsive in an anal manner than orally. When there is a very definite indication of other aberrations involved to a rather high degree (and of neurotic or psychotic quality), I think it is important that we see how these interrelate to the three-way response and observe whether or not the spectrum of anomalies may not emanate from basically the same environ mental backgrounds.
In the case of Lorna, I have found one of the best examples for study. She is an admitted nymphomaniac, pedophiliac and bisexual. The elements of sadomasochism are also quite clear, and her pedophilic desires are bisexual in that she likes both attractive young boys and. young girls (including her own daughter).
Lorna is sex personified, a voluptuously endowed twenty-eight-year-old divorcee living in a large Eastern city. She has been through several nervous breakdowns, has attempted suicide, and has been confined to mental institutions on several occasions. Despite her mental problems, she is one of the most popular and active swingers in her area and is considered by many to be "unusually sexy and desirable." She is, indeed, an attractive woman with a sexually appealing body and face, very full-figured.
The behavior of this woman is often erratic. In revealing to me her entire life story, I found that she continues to seek desperately the very ultimate in sexual pleasure by concentrating on one particular type of sex act (and usually one partner or group of partners) until she tires of it, realizes it will not "cure" her insatiable desires, then moves off to try different practices with different people.
This very enticing brunette literally lives for sex, and she makes no pretense about the fact that she has always tried to seduce her analyst when undergoing psychotherapy, male or female. Lorna purses her lips to a provocative roundness and even moans and sighs as she recalls some of her more bizarre experiences.
To attract attention to her beautiful legs, she often wears miniskirts with regular stockings and a garter belt, providing a very popular "sexy" view of the upper portion of her naked thighs. Her postures too are quite provocative and deliberate. She often wears no panties so that by movements of her legs she may expose to someone sitting across from her, the dark triangle of pubic hair and the "pouting" labia of her moist vulva.
When I asked Lorna specifically about three-way response, she told me of a very recent episode in her life, and one which is quite revealing and promising for psychobehavioral study. Here are her precise words:
"Let me see ... I'll have to collect my thoughts and tell you first that I was two-way responsive for the longest time and loved to suck a man's cock, until I was introduced into anal penetration, which at present I enjoy tremendously....
"I met Johnny by way of an ad I had put in a swinger magazine. His real age is seventeen, somewhat on the submissive side, his greatest pleasure is to lick my ass, especially my anus, over and over again. The sensations this gives me are just great! My excitement grows by the second as he licks and sucks me there.
"He spreads my cheeks as far apart as they will go and forces his tongue in my little hole in a way no other man ever did. When he introduced his young cock into my rectum, my thoughts of his tongue prevailed, and I could feel that hard, hard prick go all the way up my ass. His enormous amount of energy and move power thrilled me no end. At the time I masturbate and we climax together. The feel of his hot come shooting into my rectum and then oozing out down my thighs while I'm coming at the same time is great! I go wild with the sensations. I want three or four cocks like his ... and then I get to feeling guilty about being untrue to him, which is crazy for me! I've been fucked by everything, including animals, and I masturbate myself around the apartment all day.
"Sometimes Johnny sort of takes turns and eats my cunt and then anus, going from one place to the other, while I sort of kneel over his face. That feels so damn good! I can almost feel him doing it right now while I m talking about it. Sometimes I spread my cunt directly over his mouth and press my ass down real hard on his face, almost until Johnny gasps for breath. I yell at him to suck harder and put his tongue in deeper. He does anything I ask him.
"Johnny and I both like it when I gently bite his penis and when I suck with long, drawing motions rolling my tongue over the head of his tool. I love when Johnny watches this in the mirror. I like to squeeze and roll his balls in my hand like kneading them while I'm sucking his big hard. I like to put my finger way up into his anus and suck him at the same time. I'm so good at that it's hard for him to take too much, and he's so young, I can keep it in my mouth for three orgasms and swallow it down while I'm still sucking.
"I really love that precious cock he has banging between his legs. I try sucking him from all angles, sometimes getting all twisted up and crazy....
"I really love sucking and receive tremendous pleasure nursing on cock. I like licking also. An hour or more of kissing and sucking Johnny's tool never tires me out. The more I suck, the more my own excitement grows. His moans and sighs add to my pleasure too.
"I get on my knees and Johnny likes it so his cock and balls covers my face, and also lets it swing back and forth like a pendulum until he gets up speed and makes it so that his cock is getting harder and slapping my face. The sound drives me wild and he teases me by preventing my eager lips to grab and suck his cock; until I finally grab hold and take the entire tool to suck to draw out that sweet hot juice. Sometimes I hurt him by sucking too hard. I just want to bite it off.
"Most times my cunt is at his mercy. It eagerly awaits to be penetrated He screws me fast and digs in very deep!
"I love rough play on my big breasts. I like when Johnny holds each of my nipples in his hands and pulls hard, as to sort of milk them while he fucks me at the same time. Johnny is so wild and keeps up a hard so long for a kid. I love real young kids, but most of them won't stay hard ... When I go by a school playground and see them out in gym shorts-the boys and the girls-I just. imagine all of us naked together in a big fucking and sucking orgy.
"When Johnny mounts me, I yell to him to, 'Ride it, cowboy!' and to 'Come on home!' I grab him by his hair. The harder I pull, the faster he moves. I receive tremendous pleasure from those wild movements of his.
"As you know each different man excels in certain areas. Johnny is basically a good licker. He loves to lick and I love to be licked, no holds barred. In fact I keep a sort of catalog. I file a man ... under what he's great in. Depending on the particular mood I'm in, I can easily contact a good finger man, a tongue artist, a rammer ... any kind. Isn't that great!
"Some nights I just don't feel like fucking so I might call Mortie. He's about in his early sixties. Having a hard time getting it up, he became proficient as a tongue man and eats me up no end, while he as well as myself enjoy every second of it. Mortie has a sweet tooth, a love for jams, jellies, chocolate and other candies. He pushes a candy bar or some jam up into my ass or cunt, and I love the way he sucks it out. He likes to get jelly or jam and smear it all over my cunt and into my cunt and around my pubic hairs. He goes after it until there s not a bit left. Oh, how I love that feeling!
"I suck him off very good too. He loves to be sucked and have my finger up his asshole at the same time. I really push it way up, but he doesn't care. He loves it....
"I personally want to be used more by black men. I have this real fascination to be fucked in all three holes by real good black fuckers. I'd love to meet an African maybe, someone from a tribe in darkest Africa. This has been a more or less secret wish of mine. I keep looking. Many new people at different parties. The black men in my thoughts have enormous, well hung tools, and their thick brown lips could drive my cunt crazy, I'm sure....
"Johnny comes from a real nice home and he's spoiled. He gets anything he wants from his folks just for the asking. He's quiet and shy, very moody and a deep thinker. He has no homo interests and as far as I know, I'm the first girl he ever even kissed. (But I'm a fantastic teacher, and he learns fast.)
"I can get most anything I want from him. (And believe me I do when I want to.) I sort of love him and hate him at the same time.
"Actually I receive three completely different sensations from each entrance. I happen to love to suck. I sort of graduated from thumb sucking to prick sucking. I feel like I'm at my mother's breast, sucking harder and harder for my milk. I receive tremendous pleasures from sucking on a cock. My lips seem to tingle all over and my cunt gets wetter and wetter. When he's about to come I feel like exploding myself because I know I'm responsible for drawing out all that hot juice. The expression on his face, the way he grinds his teeth together, add to my excitement.
"I sort of get lost in another world while I'm sucking on him. (Sometimes I wish he would never come so I could continue for a much longer time.) I never get tired and even like to fall asleep with my hands around his prick and the head between my lips. It's my bottle and I love it. (Many men have said I was the best they ever had when it comes to sucking prick!) I'm good at it, and I know it too!
The sensations I get from being screwed in the rear are of an entirely different nature. I sort of feel like I'm being raped. I'm in such a position where I can't move and he has all the power over me.
"I'm usually bending over the bed or on my hands, which I like best, and knees. It gives me the feeling of being all exposed, so wide open. The greatest sensation I get is just before he is about to stick it in. I can't wait! Just the thought that he is going to rape my ass drives me wild!
"Sometimes he greases his finger and puts it in and out before he enters me with his prick. I can feel my asshole sucking back at his finger, kind of wanting to draw it in deeper and deeper.
"I usually put up a protest and beg him not to put his big hard prick in that little hole, but actually I want him to very much. He spreads my ass so damn far apart I think it's going to split in half. I fight his first thrust, but he slaps my ass until I relax, and then I can feel the head of his cock at my anus.
"I back up into that stiff dick and he goes wild with the tightness of my asshole. It hurts a little, but I don't mind at all. I can feel his prick all the way up in my rectum. I just want to feel his hot juice shoot up into me, then to trickle down over my cunt and thighs. He frigs me just before he's about to shoot and that sensation is indescribable!
"Regular-fucking I love, especially when I'm on top and I can do all the movements. I like to be the master and have the power. Unless a man can give me real deep penetration and has an extraordinary tool, it doesn't thrill me. I dig extenders and dildoes too.
"Johnny wasn't the fast man to attempt to screw me in my asshole. It was tried before, but never accomplished. He just turns me on all over for some reason, and now the acts aren't complete with me without someone sticking his prick up my ass. I had a pretty exciting experience with the full use, on my part, using a bull whip, dog collar and leather straps....
"Johnny is good and true, but I see a different person almost every day at another time. I have fabulous parties at my place too that go on and on until I don't know what day it is sometimes. Last week, we really had a wild fucking time and took some photos. Here's one of the bull whip up my cunt and Johnny in my ass, and I'm sucking Montie's cock.
"It's hard to get Johnny interested in parties or even a threesome, and if I could always have somebody as good as Johnny to take care of my three holes as well as he can, I'd say to hell with swinging and all this. But Johnny will leave me sooner or later. They all do. I could be happy if I could find one man like Johnny who would take care of me all the time...."
COMMENT: Much of Lorna's motivation is transparent and obvious to her too, if we are to judge by her eager willingness to talk about herself and what she says. Yet, like the child that she is, the immature preadolescent, she lacks the desire for real help or "change." She uses the therapist as a father confessor and nothing else.
Lorna is correct in judging her desire for sucking. She did indeed graduate from the infantile pleasures of sucking a nipple, to thumb sucking, and then to sucking other females' nipples and fellatio and cunnilingus. Unfortunately, her another was a very domineering woman who ruled over her children with a heavy hand. The father was given to irrational outbursts of temper. The domestic scene was one of turmoil, seething hates and constant harangue.
I think that Lorna's mother was probably afraid to show her own daughter affection and love. Lorna keeps seeking the "nipple" to suck on. But she finds it usually in symbolic form in the places that were absolutely taboo so far as her noncommunicative and fanatically moralistic parents were concerned.
This conflict between right and wrong claws at Lorna's sensitive emotions, "tear" her apart mentally until she throws in the towel and embarks nympho-maniacally into the depraved forms of overindulgence, both as a form of escape-pleasure and a. means of "fighting back."
Lorna illustrates both extremes of the sadomasochistic spectrum. She enjoys the "power" she exerts over this seventeen-year-old youth, yet she also gains needed feelings and sensations of being overpowered herself, "taken" or "used" by him in pedicatio mulierum.
There is much bragging on her part about being such a good teacher and fellatrice, while she also boasts of being able to call up her "tongue man" or any of a number of other partners for whatever type relation fits her mood.
While Johnny is still mentally and physically an adolescent, he is also quite apparently a very deeply disturbed individual, a young man who has found and exploited the sexual weaknesses of an older woman. While she is using him and his youthful capabilities of potency and recovery and receiving gifts from him, Johnny too is taking from Lorna.
This woman-knows that he will grow eventually tired of her and leave her. She knows, if she will only explore her own mind a little more seriously, that she is seeking the impossible-a young man with a perpetual hard-on who will service her anytime she wants it, in any orifice she desires, a man who will really offer her true love and affection, and a man who will provide well for both her and her eight-year-old daughter financially.
Her goal is the same as the impossible dream of the middle-aged married man who would like to suddenly find himself swimming in the midst of a dozen or more of the most delectable and passionate naked Playboy Bunnies, all of them panting to make him happy.
Subconsciously, Lorna realizes that her goal is impossible. She does not even really want to find this ideal man. If she did, what else would she have to live for? The search for sex in ever more extreme forms and volume, the thrill of new partners, the fantasies of hedonistic saturnalias are the only things for which she lives.
We are dealing, in the case of Lorna, with a female who has been in and out of mental institutions since she was twelve. The incarcerations and therapy do not seem to have worked. But at twenty-eight, she still has the advantage of relative youth in her favor. While there is no hope for a quick "change" or "cure," a program of institutionalization, medication and therapy supervised by competent specialists in' the mental health field, there is no reason that I can see why Lorna cannot eventually look forward to living a relatively normal and reasonably comfortable life.
In comparing Lorna to Marie (the prostitute) the only difference seems to be that Lorna is more outwardly unstable and, because of a certain confused sense of morality, would never think of directly charging for sex. She is not a whore, she keeps telling herself, but only a girl who likes to swing.
Only her psychoanalyst knows for sure.