Chapter 7
Emphasis on Masochistic Anal-Eroticism in the Bi-Sexual Three-Way Female
"Carl and I love French and Greek arts; we find that these forms synchronize perfectly with orthodox lovemaking [genital intercourse]. I have had extensive experiences in mutual anal stimulations during my Lesbian days, but Carl was the one who really broke my anus in, to the point where I can enjoy rectal and anal orgasms regularly. I also have masochistic desires, and this fits in perfectly with Carl, who loves to perform sadistic acts on my body in moderation. We are not SM [sadomasochistic] or bondage nuts."
These are the words of Celia, a beautiful and even sultrily sexy brunette, who is thirty-two years old, the mother of two, college educated, and married to Carl, a university professor and worldwide lecturer of some renown. This unusual couple could be described as highly sophisticated swingers who participate in group sex and threesomes, as well as routine wife-swapping.
Both Carl and Celia also have separate sexual affairs of their own (many of Celia's are Lesbian), and they sometimes spend an entire weekend in very detailed and easygoing, so to speak, sexual experiments of their own.
Carl, the sadistically inclined husband who has almost single-handedly cultivated his lovely wife's bizarre proclivities to the absolute extremes, is otherwise quiet and restrained. He will not talk of the activities or describe them, yet readily corroborates the almost incredible story that Celia unfolds.
Conversely, Celia talks of her strange sex life and unorthodox desires as if she feels forced to do so. In seeking a consultant, she undoubtedly wanted more than anything else to consciously or subconsciously purge herself. It is entirely within the masochistic make-up of her twisted personality that she secretly delights in humiliating herself even more by admitting to the many extremes of her practices and desires.
Of her early life and possible contributory factors, this tall and full-bodied beauty had very little to say, although I queried her at great length.
"I don't know whether bowel training or anal fingering as a child has anything directly to do with my great passion for ass fucking or not," Celia told me in the basic and earthy manner of expression with which I was to become very familiar. "My desire for it first developed during my Lesbian years when we used to do a lot of mutual stimulations. My experience in sex started out as a Lesbian. I was initiated during my high school years and it lasted through university and graduate school. I met Carl in graduate school where be was a lecturer and he was the first man to fuck me or do anything sexual with me. It was the first time we had sex that I craved so desperately to suck his hard cock. I had sucked so many girls' breasts and preferred the small kind that I could suck entirely within my mouth for some length of time. The cock was better suited for this.
"I could not exist without Carl now, but I do have deep sexual interests in women-so this makes me a bisexual. This is where my girlfriend from college comes in. She is French, but her rich parents sent he, to college here as they were going to emigrate an( become citizens. Paulette is a little older than I and has never been married. She lives like a princess in a large house of her own with three or four servants She inherited several million dollars when she became twenty-five. She engages in very unusual sex threesomes with Carl and I. My husband is very much heterosexual....
"I love to assume the dog position and have him fuck my anus and vagina alternately, then as I approach climax, have him concentrate his penis in my rectum, moving it smoothly up and down the whole length of my anal canal ... or, hell, I'll call it asshole We talk that way when we're passionate ... in long strong strokes while massaging my clit and vaginal canal with his hands.
"Paulette and I normally use our lips, tongue and fingers in each other for mutual stimulation. We have also tried beer bottles, sausages, cucumbers, unpeeled bananas and other items in both openings. I like for Carl to take photographs of me with my ankles and hands tied behind me so I am utterly helpless as he puts these things in my asshole.
"I am masochistic definitely. And I do feel attract ed to sadistic men; they pull me toward them some how, and they always seem to be able to spot me and make advances or propositions in the bookstores, or airplanes, trains ... taxi drivers too. In the lingerie departments in the big stores, I have been approached by such men several times. I become very much aroused, although I do not say a word and just walk away. I relate these experiences to Carl right away, and try to get him all heated up so he will treat me roughly.
"Although Paulette became aware of her anal and oral potentials through early Lesbian acts, as I did, she has never been a slave to a man like Carl or enjoyed sex with a man at all unless it was necessary to get to a female she wanted. I think she does allow herself to enjoy sex with Carl. As I said, he is a very unusual man and he turned me from a Lesbian into a bisexual very shrewdly.
"When first breaking in my anus to cock fucking and other devices, Carl was lecturing for a year in Korea. We used to go to the mineral bath spas quite a lot where they have Roman type bath pools right next to private rooms. The pools are private also and you do not have to worry about being seen. Carl used to give me a lot of enema syringes to get me used to having foreign things in my anal canal. Later, he started using vaginal douches which have thicker nozzles. He also used everything that went in my rectum, in exciting me vaginally too. I would sometimes lay down sucking his cock for hours, as he tried various things in my asshole and gave me fiery orgasms. I would he down perpendicular from him, with my head in his lap, and he could easily reach down to the left where my buttocks were.
"Water from the sunken pools would constantly be overflowing the pool floor toward the drain. When Carl drew blood as he occasionally did in my training' period, I would cringe with a very hot feeling as I saw the red flow to the drain. I was delightfully scared. My masochism at work. He would sometimes ram both thumbs into my anus and make. me crawl around the floor barking like a dog as he beat my buttocks....
"Several times Carl used a soccer ball air pump in my rectum. He made me keep thick ceramic and ebonite bars inside my ass all day and all night long. Over a period of time, he really expanded and loosened up my asshole for easier penetration.
"One night, when he was messing around inside my rectum with the ebonite bar, I experienced my first deep orgasm inside my rectum and at the anus. It felt as if my whole lower body was being carried away in wave after wave of intense orgasm. Later that night, he got his cock into my anus and stroked long and strong until I experienced anal orgasm once more. He kept his penis inside my anus, ramming it in up to his balls so that the head was pushing against my rectal walls, and made me rotate and buck and roll my sore buttocks, his bands helping me by holding around my waist. I thought his long, hard cock would rip my anus apart, but soon I could feel another wave of pleasure coming. His, head was hitting me all over my rectum as he came. That was the first time I felt his strong flood of sperm hitting my rectum walls deep inside, and it made me delirious!
"After that 'rape' of my ass., Carl applied Vaseline and cold cream regularly each time he penetrated my anus. Now, he does not need to use lubrication at all just anticipating stimulation there with his lips, tongue, fingers and penis, makes my anal muscles relax....
"It is heaven to feel the head of his penis breaking apart my anus, holding it open, pushing farther in, withdrawing a little, then pushing in deeper. He repeats this until it pushes through the entire length of my rectum, continuing with the long, strong strokes deep inside me. With Carl, it takes about twenty-five good strokes for my first anal orgasm. With a different man the first time, I often orgasm when the head first enters my rectum and then pulls back. After that, I enjoy a series of orgasms as long as the strokes continue....
"I get intensely excited in a swinging group or threesome when I watch Carl sucking and fucking other women. It drives me wild! I love this most as a non-participating observer, especially if Carl and the girl are screaming with passion and fucking in long strokes and bucks of their bodies. I think this is because I am jealous ... masochistic.
"Before Carl and I go into action, we take a shower together and have much sucking and love-play. I receive vaginal douches and anal ones and so does Paulette too, if she is there. I like to kneel in front and suck his clean, wet cock as the water splashes all over my head from the shower jets. If the water is cool or cold, there is an extra sensation in having such a warm and swelling mass in my mouth to suck on.
"The other day, Carl had a threesome with a couple from Canada. Carl and the husband both inserted their cocks in the wife's vagina at the same time. The wife was on top of the husband, Carl got down on top of her from behind, and all three orgasmed at the same time. She also enjoyed cocks in her anus and mouth or cunt and mouth at the same time. She swallows all come deliciously, as I do.
"I like to lick women very much, and I love to lick a very blonde woman all over if her skin is very, very white. I enjoy the feel of their pubic hair on my tongue (as I do a man's also). I have licked and sucked Korean, Japanese, European and American women. I do not like the personality of a dyke Lesbian, or her masculine ways, but I do love to suck a woman with an. abnormally long clitoris. Paulette's will stick out of her cunt a little less than an inch if I suck it hard and long. I am very much an oralist too, and I have sucked as many as nine cocks in one evening and swallowed all the discharges. But I must suck a redhead's cunt before I die."
After more specific questioning about her masochistic enjoyment of different sexual variations, Celia finally confessed to me much about her "highly unorthodox fantasies," as well as humiliating situations that she had actually experienced. It was obvious by her speech and choice of words that she became quite aroused over telling of these events, while at the same time feeling self-conscious and a bit guilty.
"I can come," she stated, "when Carl uses the belt on my buttocks, vagina and anus, but I have never really been slapped too hard. I've always wondered what it would be like to be manhandled to orgasm the nearest thing to being raped! The fantasy of being raped does stimulate me and will force me to masturbate with my fingers and other devices if alone. I have enjoyed in the past being bitten on my thighs, buttock cheeks, and around my cunt lips and ass....
"I'm not too keen on psychological humiliation, but I love to be forced to strip naked in front of people, physically examined by many hands and fingers and lips and tongues, ordered to assume various revealing positions, told to finger my own cunt and asshole, things like that ... while people are watching (masochistic exhibitionism]. A lot of-this is psychological too, I know. One male friend wants to leave me tied up and helpless at a party with everyone ignoring me as I am forced to almost go mad watching all the sex around me, unable even to touch myself.
"I know I love being fucked, whipped, humiliated in front of people, tormented in my vagina and anus with something blunt. Once at a party with Carl and a German couple, I got mad because the man rammed his penis in my mouth and kept it in as deep as he could and pushed his hips against my face and came. I couldn't even suck it or receive the sperm up in my mouth so I could roll it around and taste it. I was so angry I yelled at him, "Fuck you, goddamn kraut! You're lousy!' Carl was on the couch with his wife all this time. The man then slapped me around and pushed me down and wrestled with me. I liked being slapped around I was mad at him, but I loved his brute force, roughing me up.
"When I'm being laid, I like to use words like; 'Fuck me, hurt me, slap me, kill me, bite me' ... and so forth. I don't know why, but it makes everything more passionate....
"I love all kinds of oral sex, but it is not as good as ass fucking. I like to keep Carl's half limp cock inside my mouth after he shoots. Using my fingers inside his asshole, I can make him jerk his penis erect in spasms. It gives me an exhilarating sensation to feel his cock get bigger and bigger inside my mouth. Carl's sperm smells and tastes like young, fresh pine cones. But if he is deep inside my mouth, it misses most of the taste buds and that sensation is all but lost. Only the smell comes up from my throat. I can very definitely become so thrilled at sucking a cock that I orgasm without any touch at my cunt....
"My anal orgasms are quite genuine. They are much more intense and separate from vaginal orgasms. In fact, when they do come together ... oooh! There is nothing like it. Carl likes to alternate between my anus and vagina, I told you, and when I can come in both places, it is just too wonderful! The dog position is the best for this. I usually ask Carl to ejaculate inside my asshole as I come there. He then uses his fingers or inserts a dildo to make me come simultaneously in my vagina. Sometimes, I prefer to have him come in my cunt while using a dildo or thrusting both of his thumbs deep in my ass. I love being tormented at my anus. Carl likes to spread my rear opening apart with his thumb and fingers, and then insert his tongue deep and excite the swollen walls there....
"Paulette and I had a glorious time together the last time Carl was in Japan for six months. We made side trips to all the big Asian cities. The two of us met a European diplomat at a reception in Manila, and he took a seriously liking to me immediately, and I returned his looks because I knew he was a man who could be very cruel and appeal to my masochistic nature.
"It was just too bad that Paulette was angry with me. She was paying for our trip and she made me promise before leaving Japan that we would only engage in Lesbian activities. But we were tricked into a threesome once in Taiwan and twice in Singapore, so she was already quite mad at me. But I could not get rid of this man, and so both of us ended up in his apartment penthouse around ten that night.
"After some drinks, he told me to take my clothes off, then get down on the floor on all fours, which I did. He brought out a bottle of Vaseline and rubbed it all over my vagina and anus, between the cheeks of my buttocks, then with his fingers started pushing some of it into my rectum. He was very rough about it, but I enjoyed this immensely, especially the feel of his fingers working so forcefully. He went to the kitchen and then returned with a small baseball bat and a long broom handle (it was just the stick with the broom part sawed off). He knelt down behind me, and shoved the bat (the top part where-it is bulging) 'into my vagina, and it went in without much trouble at all.
"I then felt something pushing up my anus and when I looked around, I saw him inserting the long broom handle into my asshole. It went in smoothly along my rectal canal and I enjoyed it and moaned with delight. The tip of the handle kept going deeper and deeper into my rectum until it was stopped by my intestines at the place the doctor calls the sigmoid flexure (I have many orgasms when my doctor uses a proctoscope or sigmoidoscope in my ass).
"I crumpled over and just about lost my breath, but I rather enjoyed the experience of being ravaged so deeply inside my body. He then stood up and holding the end of the bat handle, he started to push and ram violently and told me to crawl on the floor. He began twisting the bat and the broom handle and shoving like mad, and I thought I would pass out. I started to crawl, thinking he would let up on the ramming and pushing, but he kept following me and using both the bat and broom handle fiercely inside me. I finally begged him to take it out of my rectum, but he refused. Paulette, who was watching, also protested, but could not stop him. He made me crawl around the room till I finally made it back to where I was at first.
"He then got down on his knees and started pushing both the bat handle and broomstick upward with great strength, telling me to spread both my hands and knees and walk, around again like a dog. He kept shoving the handle up and down my rectum and every time rd stop he would push it in deep and make me hurt so that I would have to do as he said. He made me stand up, lean over the sofa, put one leg over the back of the couch, then drag my body all along the back, then down to the floor on all fours, all the while he was shoving and twisting the bat and handle.
It was when he made me get on top of the sofa that I had my first orgasm, and I could see that my agonized screams of pleasure-pain made him very happy. I reached my second orgasm when he made me drag my body on my stomach along the back of the long couch down onto the floor again. Later, he made me he down on my back on the couch with one leg over the back, and he held the bat inside my vagina as he used the handle roughly in my anus.
"I tried to reach up to take the handle out of my ass, but he pushed me down with his legs and threw me a cushion and told me to hug it tightly. I finally cried out to him not to ram it so roughly into my intestines, but to move it up and down my rectum strongly. He would draw the broom handle completely out, then start ramming it in again. So, I asked him to draw it completely out every five strokes, and to keep twisting the handle to his left. That way I knew I could concentrate my nerves more efficiently for quicker orgasms. He kept this up for about fifteen minutes and I could feel the liquid oozing and finally pouring out of my cunt. I finally had one of the most wonderful and strong orgasms I had ever known.
"He then took the bat and handle out, and placed a cushion under my buttocks, then called Paulette over to his side and made her strip. He grabbed her right in her vagina and pulled her over to him as he mounted me and rammed his cock into my sore cunt. He grabbed my legs and made me lock them up around his hips and told me to start pumping as he embraced Paulette's buttocks and buried his head between her legs and started sucking her. I heard her come, but he was still pumping away in me. She protested slightly when he inserted his fingers in her anus and continued to suck her. He then came in me and I kept my legs clamped around him and moved my hips as he sucked her to her second climax. I wasn't able to came.
"Later he fixed us some more drinks, then he made me get down on all fours on the couch and he started to screw me in my vagina and asshole alternately. He finally came inside me at the same time I did. I told him to ram his fingers up my anus as he was in my vagina. just before he drove us back to our hotel, he sucked the frustrated cunt of Paulette again. In the car, he said it was the first time that he had ever used a woman so brutally in both her anus and cunt,. but that he had wanted to for a long time, and saw the desire in my eyes."
After this detailed description of her threesome with Paulette and the diplomat, I asked Celia to concentrate more on her past, her childhood and family attitudes and relations. She insisted that she grew up "average and normally," but I insisted that she used these tortures and humiliations as a way of purging herself of some terrible guilt feeling that she did not recognize.
"In my case," Celia insisted rather defiantly, "I do not have any psychological hang-ups. Others may be purging themselves of your horrible guilt, but not I. I just love the feel of physical pain on and in my body. The psychological thrill is when I watch Carl fucking and having all kinds of sex with another woman ... or women, and when I am humiliated and forced to do very unorthodox things in sex. My pleasures also include being tied up in various helpless positions so that my cunt and ass are fully exposed and I can offer no resistance, but only anticipate what will happen; being whipped and belted, especially on the small of my back, the buttocks, the inner thighs, and on the cunt and clit and anus. Believe me, there is nothing else to it. I am oversexed and I like to be mistreated. I think it is that simple...."
COMMENT: It is quite interesting to note the other elements that are often associated with both sadomasochism and anal eroticism, which are also present in Celia's case. She is a meticulous and neat housekeeper and mother, for one thing, and has a mania for orderliness and cleanliness.
Returning to her final statement, there is, of course, a lot more to Celia's condition than simply an inborn sensitivity and desire for masochistic anal activities. Yet the problem may not hinge on as deep rooted a base as with many others.
Her Lesbian activities began in school. They were the first interpersonal sexual acts and she responded to them quite readily, a situation that many females fall into much more unwittingly than males fall into homosexual practices, because of the more close intimacies and endearments that girls share.
It could be that her Lesbian experiences in late teen years precipitated, in a way, the entire pattern of her adult behavior. If guilt feelings did result from these earlier encounters, she could have looked for and found the man who would purge the "sin" from her, so to speak, by being sadistic with females in sex relations. Recall her statements about the fact that men could spot her masochistic proclivities by merely looking her in the eyes.
Much of the blame may lie with Carl. Celia was neurotic, masochistic and had been made aware of her broad sexual potential at the same time he met her. A man with a dominant personality and a twisted mind can almost mold the life of a susceptible individual like Celia.
It is evident in the little bit Celia related, that Carl immediately exploited her two 'weaknesses"-analeroticism and masochism. He went the limit and did it in a systematic way that could almost be termed diabolical. The roots of masochism were already present. So, from this point, he ventured to modes of punishment that went far beyond the more symbolic passiveness of the receptor role in pederasty.
Group sex and humiliation were then introduced. Furthermore, Carl allowed Celia to continue her Lesbian relationship with Paulette. In this way, considering that her early Lesbian experience may be one of the causes of her need for punishment, the condition was constantly refueled, the need for more punishment was ever present. The masochistic-anal complex was fed continually, the need for more diversions and new forms of punishment increased.
While some early childhood or infantile fixation at the anal level may have set up the proclivities, there seems to be a distinct possibility that Celia could have turned into a very sexually "normal" woman if she had never met Paulette or Carl.
In all of my practice, I have never encountered a three-way female who so completely illustrates the inherent relationship between sadomasochism and sodomy, or pedicatio mulierum.
Of course, there are two sides to almost everything, and a study of this couple from Carl's truly felt viewpoint would be an invaluable research project into the sadistic-anal complex of the actively algolagnic anal-conscious male. Yet, as is often the case, we are forced to look at this relationship only through the eyes of the passive partner,, who must purge herself by both glorying in the recitations of her pleasure-pain experiences and sometimes amplifying the humiliations she is made to suffer, yet welcomes so eagerly.
Celia's case most certainly is the best example I know of in which a single emphasis is so intense in the trio of sensitivities of the three-way female.