Introduction
"The next afternoon a very strange thing happened to me. I went to the hill after finishing my chores. It was an extremely hot day and I wanted to swim in the river. I took off my clothes on the top of the hill and ran down naked, until I came to the bottom. Then I ran into the water-it was very cold-and flipped over and over, refreshing myself. When I walked out of the water onto the river bank I was startled to see a woman sitting there watching me.
"I covered my nakedness with one hand and shielded my eyes from the sun to see who it was. I had never seen her before, but she was quite good looking and about twenty-five or thirty years old. She was sitting with her legs drawn up and her naked pussy was visible to me.
"I stared in wonder. Who was she? What was she doing there? She put her legs down and leaned back. Her white blouse shined in the sunlight and I could see the dark spots where her nipples touched the material underneath.
"Do not cover yourself! You are a very beautiful boy. I enjoy looking at you!" she called to me.
"I was shocked, but I listened to her. I moved my hands from my penis and stood naked in front of her. My body was still dripping wet as I walked toward her.
"I am visiting friends about a mile up the river. I went for a walk and saw you bathing here. I am Maria. Come here, don't be afraid."
"I walked to within a few feet of her. I brushed some of the water from my hair and said, "I am Antonio. We live just over the hill."
"You are very exciting for a woman to look at, Antonio. How old are you?"
"Almost thirteen."
"She couldn't believe it. "You are kidding me! I would swear you are at least sixteen! You have a cock bigger than my husband's!"
"I looked down at my penis. It was hanging full in front of me. I didn't know what to say or do. But I didn't have to wonder for long. She reached up and took my cock in her hand and held it tight.
"My cock became hard almost instantly. Holding on to it, she squeezed it until it began to hurt. Then she let go and caressed my balls with her fingers. I loved the feeling, and I moved my body closer, spreading my legs a bit so she could get between them. Then she found my asshole with her fingertip and rubbed it gently. My cock stood straight out in front of me.
"Then she lay on the ground and put her legs up. She pulled her dress to her waist and exposed her hairy cunt before me. It was a beautiful sight and I instinctively grabbed my cock as I knelt down between her legs, looking at it, feeling very excited.
"Antonio, when I lift my legs into the air, I want you to put your cockhead on my anus, understand?"
"I nodded. I would do anything she wanted.
"But first, come here and let me suck on you for a minute."
"I moved quickly and knelt down next to her face. She opened her sensual dark lips and fitted them around the head of my cock. I held her hair in my hands as she moved her head up and down on my shaft. The feeling was better than when Frederico had done it and the way she played with my heavy balls while she did it caused even more sensations of pleasure in my young body.
"Finally, just when I realized I was getting ready to shoot, she pulled her head away and told me to go to her bottom. I got up and moved between her legs again, kneeling there with my wet cock in one hand. She lifted her legs high and pulled her feet over her face. Her pussy and asshole were spread before me as I moved the head of my cock down and braced myself with one hand.
"I placed the head of my cock against the pink opening of her anus and she gasped. "Antonio, push till the head goes in just a little. Then make it come, make it shoot! I want to feel your hot young cream in my hole and all over my ass!"
"Her words excited me more than anything ever had. I pressed the tip of my cock into her ass and to my surprise the muscle gave way and it entered without any problem. Then I moved my hand up and down the shaft. It was so very strange, not seeing the head of my cock, but masturbating on it at the same time. Her shouts of ecstasy were echoed by the valley.
"In a minute I filled her with my semen. I pumped squirt after squirt into her and watched as it seeped out around the top of my cock and ran down her asshole. She brought one hand down and rubbed my come all over her pussy and her tummy. Her face was flushed and happy. And I could see a trickle of clear fluid coming out of her pussy.
"As the last spurt of come shot from my cock, I knew I couldn't stand it any longer. The stones in the ground were digging into my knees and my body was trembling. I had a great desire to fuck her, to shove my cock all the way up her ass. I had never fucked anything or anyone before and I was desperate to know what it felt like.
"So I did. I took my hand away and shoved my hips forward. Maria let out a scream which could almost have caused the aqueduct to collapse! I let my body fall to hers and her feet wrapped around my back. My cock slid in because of the lubrication of my semen and another surge shot through my body. I was getting harder again and I felt even more excited.
"Fuck me! Hard! Fuck my asshole, little big boy!" She shouted and clawed at my naked back. I pumped my ass hard, shoving my long cock in and out of her wet asshole. In a few moments I felt my pressure rising again and I let loose with a powerful orgasm that filled her once again. My cock went soft, and my mind was spinning. I finally pulled out of her and rolled over on the ground.
"We were silent for a few moments and then she sat up and straightened her dress. Antonio, you must have lied to me about your age. No boy of thirteen can do what you just did. Thank you, beautiful Antonio."
"I asked her how long she would be in the area. She said till the day after tomorrow.
"Then I could see you tomorrow, yes?" I asked with anticipation.
"Yes, surely. Here, tomorrow afternoon." She stood up.
"Yes, Maria, I will be here." I stood up also. She bent over and kissed me on the forehead and started up the river. I watched her until she was out of sight. I resisted the temptation to masturbate then, for I was still very excited. But I knew I would have to save myself for the next day. I jumped in the river, then ran up the hill and got dressed and went home ...
"It was difficult to return the next day because Rita wanted me to help her clean the barn, and I pretended to be feeling terrible, telling her I would do it the next day. She believed me and I took off early in the afternoon for the river. Maria met me there and we took off our clothes and played in the water until we were so excited we couldn't stand it any longer. We stood in the hot sun on the river bank and held each other tightly.
"I wanted to do the same thing we did the day before; I wanted to put my cock up her asshole. I had thought about it all night. I woke often, finding it hard to sleep, and played with myself, touching my cock and asshole, which sent shivers up my spine. It seemed very natural for me to fuck her ass again. I didn't even think about her pussy.
"Suck on my nipples," Maria said to me, pushing my head down to her breasts. They were hard and I pulled them into my lips and licked them with my tongue. She was very pleased and she returned the favor by sinking to her knees in front of me and taking my hard cock into her mouth. She sucked on it for a minute as I stood with my hands on my hips, with my legs spread in the sandy soil. The sun beat down and I was in heaven.
"She moved her head off my cock and started licking my balls. I shuddered as I watched her lovely face under my long thick cock, lapping my testicles. She sucked them into her mouth and swirled them with her tongue, and then she licked my thigh and brought her hands up to my ass cheeks.
"Turn around, Antonio," she ordered. I wondered what she was going to do. I turned around so my ass faced her. She kissed it and let her tongue slide down between the cheeks.
"Now bend over slowly," she said, and I did. "Oh, you are so hairy in between!" she exclaimed happily. Then, when I was facing the ground, she kissed me directly on the opening to my anus and I thought I would faint! The sensation was incredible! She licked and sucked and buried her head between the cheeks of my ass. She spread them with her hands and then moved her fingers down between my legs and began pulling on my cock. I nearly came, but held back for what was to follow.
"I want to fuck you," I said as I stood up. She smiled and lay back on the ground, naked, spreading her shapely legs. I knelt between them. But she did not pull her legs up as the day before.
"I know," I said, "why don't you turn over and I'll put it in from behind!"
"Antonio, I want to have you fuck me normally! In my cunt!"
"I thought about it for a moment and felt at once disappointed and afraid. I don't know why, I just did. I tried to put my cock in her pussy but I found that my erection had fallen down to such a point that I couldn't. She begged for it, but I just couldn't do it.
"All right, we will try the other. I want your beautiful hard cock in me anyplace I can get it!" And then she lifted her legs and I saw her asshole, hot and gleaming in the sunlight. I put my cock to the opening and it got hard as a rock immediately. I shoved with all my might and entered her. We fucked there on the ground till I came."
The understanding of the Oedipus complex is of paramount importance to us for an understanding of the problems which confront the neurotic as well as the normal individual. This complex, the common lot of civilized mankind, was the discovery of psychoanalysis. Freud, in his search for the secrets which beset the neurotic, and the desire to help free them from aberration, so that they could take an active and constructive part in society, found it necessary to trace the childhood experiences of these affected individuals.
Certain techniques were innovated in order to accomplish this purpose. First, from his studies with Charcot and Bernheim, Freud found that, with the application of a technique known as hypnosis, the individual was able to relate certain traumatic experiences which seemingly he had long forgotten. Originally, Freud thought that, by having these individuals abreact (relive) the aberrative histories of their life with the full emotions they experienced at the original time, somehow the dammed-up emotional energy would free itself, thereby curing the individual.
But the catharsis theory for the cure of mental illness was found to be premature. Freud discovered that the cure only lasted as long as the patient believed in him. If, for some reason or other, the patient would lose faith in the analyst, the symptoms would reappear. This faith and the subsequent hypothetical cure were found to be the result of suggestion.
It is to Freud's credit that he noticed the large part played by suggestion in the cathartic method of therapy and sought to obviate it. He found that this suggestive phenomenon resembled falling in love, and it was in conjunction with this that he first recognized the phenomenon now known as transference.
In this love transference, the patient saw in his analyst the return of some important figure out of his past, and consequently transferred onto his analyst the feelings which related to this individual. In the positive aspect of the transference, the patient transferred to the analyst the affectionate feelings out of his childhood that related to his situation with his father and mother. Consequently, there appeared the aim of winning the love of the analyst, which included that of a sexual nature. It was found that, while attempting to win the analyst's love, the patient would cure his own symptoms. Since these cures were designed to please the analyst, their effects lasted only as long-as the love transference remained active.
Besides the discovery of the transference and its relation to the phenomenon of hypnosis, new means were discovered to extract the repressed material. Originally, the cathartic method of hypnosis and abreaction gave way to that of concentration, whereby the patient closed his eyes and reported to the analyst the first picture or thought in association with a question.
Next, in modification of the latter, the pressure technique was developed. If the patient replied in the negative to a question, Freud suggested that, after he placed his hands on the patient's forehead, the correct answer would appear as the first thought. This thought was then to be communicated to the analyst without a question of its validity. Freud thought that this method was invaluable, except when there was no association or when the resistance was too strong. Further analysis proved necessary before the association could be revealed. One could discriminate between these two possibilities by noticing the patient's facial expressions.
Then came free association which is still used today. Here, the associations to ideas are allowed to arise spontaneously without conscious restraint or selective criticism.
All of these methods were developed after hypnotism was discarded in order to help free the patient from the suggestions of the physician.
Although hypnosis was eliminated, the suggestive effects of the transference remained. It is inevitable that the patient falls in love with the therapist. But its suggestive consequences are overcome by explaining to the patient the nature of the love transference, and how it contains all the infantile desires. Therefore, the task of analysis has become that of making the transference conscious. Now, instead of the patient reproducing the transference in action, he recollects it in memory. With this development, therapy was realized with a minimum of suggestion.
As another development to the study of the mind, it was found that the experiences related by the patient in hypnosis or in free association proved to be fantasies. In other words, these aberrative experiences which the patient thought were responsible for the outbreak of neurosis were really only fantasies which had very little relevance to anything the patient had ever experienced in reality.
These fantasies are known as the primal scenes. Among these stories, which occur continually in the neurotic's imagination, are the observation of parental intercourse or seduction by an adult. Commenting on this phenomenon, Freud wrote in Introductory Lectures on Psychoanalysis:
All this seems to lead to but one impression, that childhood experiences of this kind are in some way necessarily required by the neurosis, that they belong to its unvarying inventory. If they can be found in real events, well and good; but if reality had not supplied them they will be evolved out of hints and elaborated by phantasy. The effect is the same, and even today we have not succeeded in tracing any variation in the results according as phantasy or reality plays the greater part in these experiences. Here again is one of those complemental series so often referred to: it is certainly the strangest of all those we have so far encountered. Whence comes the necessity for these phantasies and the material for them? There can be no doubt about the instinctual sources; but how is it to be explained that the same phantasies are always formed with the same content? I have an answer to this which I know will seem to you daring. I believe that these primal phantasies are a phylogenic possession. In them the individual ... stretches out ... to the experiences of past ages.
In other words, these phantasies possess a psychical reality in contrast to material reality, but in the world of neurosis "psychical reality is the determining factor." As with dreams, these phantasies were found to revolve around the fulfillment of wishes.
These wishes portray a past that has long been forgotten, a past that existed when our parents were the most important and necessary beings in our lives. At this time we depended upon them for sustenance and shelter, and without them, or someone like them to fulfill these objectives, we would have surely succumbed to the forces of nature.
These primal phantasies were found to reinstate that period of helplessness in our lives, and they exhibited a content similar to the play Oedipus by Sophocles.
Oedipus, son of Laius, King of Thebes, and his queen Jocasta, was to have died as an infant because an oracle had warned Laius that his son would murder him. Oedipus was rescued and grew up with alien royalty. Oedipus soon doubted his origin and consulted an oracle. He was warned to avoid his home for he was destined to murder his father and marry his mother. In fear, he left the court where he grew up and, on the road, he met King Laius and killed him. He next came to Thebes and, after solving the riddle of the Sphinx, was made king by the Thebans out of gratitude. He married Jocasta, their queen, who in fact was his real mother. After she bore him two sons and two daughters, a plague broke out. The Thebans consulted the oracle and brought back the message that the plague would cease when Laius's murderer was driven from Thebes.
The god commands us to expel from the land of Thebes. An old defilement we are sheltering. It is a deathly thing, beyond cure.
(Oedipus, Sophocles)
The progress of the play now reveals how the oracle was fulfilled and how Oedipus, in guilt and appalled by the grossness of his act, blinds himself.
His fate may just as well have been ours, because it is the impulse in all of us to direct our first sexual impulses to our mother and our first hatred towards our father. Our dreams, which repeat our first childhood conflicts, prove this to us. Jocasta, warning Oedipus not to concern himself with such matters, says,
Why should anyone in this world be afraid, Since Fate rules us and nothing can before seen? A man should live only for the present day. Have no more fear of sleeping with your mother! How many men in dreams, have lain with their mother! No reasonable man is troubled with such things.
(Oedipus, Sophocles)
Like Oedipus, we live in ignorance of the wishes which most stir our souls. Those wishes which are most repugnant to morality and, consequently, give rise to the strongest guilt, have been forced upon each of us by our very nature.
Here in this land ... search reveals Things that escape an inattentive man.
(Oedipus, Sophocles)
Another tragic drama, Shakespeare's Hamlet, has its roots in the same soil as the Oedipus legend. Hamlet accepts the challenge offered by his father's ghost to seek revenge on his uncle, who killed his father and married his mother. The play is built upon Hamlet's hesitations over fulfilling this task. Why was Hamlet so incapable of taking this action? We see him on two occasions taking human life. First, in an outburst of temper, he runs his sword through Polonius, eavesdropping behind a curtain, and second, with premeditation, he sends two courtiers to the death they had been planning for him. Hamlet is able to do anything except take revenge on the man who did away with his father and took that father's place with his mother-the man who realized the repressed wishes of Hamlet's own childhood. Thus, the loathing which should drive him to revenge is replaced by self-reproaches and by scruples of conscience, reminding him that he is no better than the sinner he is to punish.
Freud found that these primal scenes exhibited a psychical structure similar to the structure of the greatest literature of Western man. It is this triangle of events depicted in the above examples which constitutes the Oedipus complex. The female counterpart to the Oedipus situation is called the Elektra complex.
It should be understood that, in both components of the Oedipus complex, male and female, the first love object is the mother. By renouncing the mother for the father, the girl enters into the situation. With the boy, the mother is retained as a prototype for all future lovers.
From both of these examples we see that there are two aspects of the Oedipus complex: the yearning to return to the mother and the guilt felt because of this desire. Oedipus's blinding and Hamlet's scruples of conscience are both manifestations of this guilt.
From where does this guilt arise? Freud provides us with an answer in The Ego and the Id:
At a very early age, the little boy develops an object-cathexis for his mother, which originally related to the mother's breast and is the prototype of an object-choice on the anaclitic model; the boy deals with his father by identifying himself with him. For a while these two relationships proceed side by side, until the boy's sexual wishes in regard to his mother become more intense and his father is perceived as an obstacle; from this the Oedipus complex arises.
It is the identification with the father which produced the inhibition, barring the way back to the mother. And the more we yearn for this transgression, the more guilt we have to deal with. It is precisely this guilt which produces the symptoms which constitute the neurosis. Thus, it is our yearning to return to the mother (incest) and the guilt over this wish (castration complex) which produces the conflict upon which the neurosis is constructed. It is the negative side of the Oedipus complex which causes the terror, transforming the wish for incest into its opposite-the horror of incest.
There are a number of experiences in a boy's life which prepare him to identify the loss of the most valuable part of his anatomy, namely his penis, with the inhibition against incest. Possibly, the child's attendant will threatens him with castration because of masturbation activities. Or the loss of his mother's breast which he initially considered part of his own body. Or, the daily demand to part with the contents of his bowels. But this still does not break down his resistance; he is still unwilling to believe in the possibility of castration. The perception which finally breaks this resistance down is initiated as the observation of a being so similar to himself, possibly his sister, who does not possess a penis at all. The perception of this, coupled with the belief that the penis plays a part in sexual relations-which he may not have firsthand knowledge of but nevertheless evidences by the feelings in this organ-causes him to fear castration as a punishment for incest. As a result, his ego turns away from the oedipal strivings. Originally, this threat of castration came from the external environment, but once the father is identified with, his prohibitions become part of a boy's mental makeup. The terror associated with incest and castration has then become internalized. This internalization of dread has positive results, since it leads into exogamous relations.
In the following five chapters, we will be tracing the development and ramifications of the Oedipus complex as it appears in the life of the neurotic and deviant individuals.
For this study, one point should be kept in mind: the word complex denotes unconsciousness. The Oedipus complex is an unconscious situation, since it was repressed because of its incompatibility with the conscious mind. Just because we are unaware of it, however, does not mean that the unconscious mind does not affect our lives.
Anal-erotics are those individuals who have renounced the union of the genitals and who replace the genitals of their sexual partners with the anal region of the body. Doing this, they disregard the lack of suitable organic arrangements as well as any impediment offered by feelings of disgust. We find from them that the excretory functions, which are regarded as improper because of toilet training, retain the ability to attract the whole of their sexual interest.
Whenever we confront a sexual aberration of this nature, investigation almost always reveals some experience in the nature of a fixation in childhood. Originally, the child's attitude to his anal canal is associated with the pleasurable feelings it yields him. In fact, to the excreta itself, he feels no disgust; they are his first gift to the people he esteems, until he is forced by his upbringing to exchange these pleasures for social respectability.
But what is it that causes this fixation to the pleasures of childhood which leads to the abandonment of the reproductive function? The answer is always concerned with the way in which the Oedipus complex is resolved.