Case History 2
SUBJECT: Nancy D. AGE: Fifteen
INTERVIEW ONE
Nancy D. was a young girl who had been sent to me by a kind and understanding social worker. Several authorities had recommended that Nancy be put in a home for wayward girls, where they could keep her out of any more trouble. But the social worker felt that there was still hope for the youngster. She knew of my work, gave me a call to explain the situation and to persuade me to help. I agreed to give it a try.
It seemed that young Nancy had had a very unhappy home life. Her father had left the house when she had been an infant, and it seemed as if her mother in some way had had an undesirable influence on her. In what way, I was not sure, but I intended to find out in the course of the interview.
Whatever that undesirable influence had been, it had resulted in Nancy being arrested by a police woman on a morals charge. Young Nancy had been found in a sexual encounter with a ten-year-old girl at a movie theatre.
When the social worker ushered her into my office, I found that Nancy did not at all fit my expectation of her. Rather than the mean-looking, rough, heavily made-up juvenile delinquent I had been expecting, Nancy appeared to be a sweet, innocent young girl. Her pale, pretty face, highlighted by two large, sad eyes, her small breasts, and the pink frock she wore made her look even younger than her fifteen years. Looks, however, can be deceiving. Nancy shed her innocent demeanor the very minute that the social worker left.
"Look, shrink, I may as well tell you. This is a drag. That's how I feel, and if I get my way, which I always do, that's how you're going to feel too. I'm only here because I want to stay out of that jail they want to throw me in. Yeah, yeah, I know they call it a home. But a spade's a spade, and that mother-fucking place is a jail!
And don't ask me about why I got arrested. I know that you already know, and I'm not going to talk about it. So I was making some little brat suck my twat. So what! I eat pussy, why shouldn't she! Little ten-year-old cunt! If she hadn't screamed, I wouldn't be in this mess!
Let's see, don't tell me. I know, you want me to start at the beginning. Ain't that what you shrinks always say. Hah! For me, there never was any beginning. I've been getting screwed my whole life in one way or another. Look at how they're trying to screw me now! Just for having some little girl kiss my pussy. Big deal!
You know what really pisses me off? That they sent me to a man shrink. I mean, if they had to sent me to some quack doctor, they could have at least chosen a woman doctor. Then maybe I could have gotten her to suck my cunt!
But shit! What can I do with you? Why do I even have to put up with you? You know what, you want me to tell you something?
I hate men. That's right. I hate them. All of them. Who the fuck needs them? The only good thing they can do is run out on you, that's all.
Take my father. What a son of a bitch. Oh, I don't remember him that much. I was only six the last time I saw him. But what a bastard he was! The things that he used to do to my mother were awful. Sometimes she sits me down and tells me about him. I can't believe what I hear!
She told me that the first thing my old man used to do when he got home from work every night was to carry her to the bedroom and rape her. Every fucking night!
God! Does that sound repulsive! Can you imagine having to feel some guy's prick ramming you every night? It almost makes me sick! It's repulsive!
You know, I don't think there's anything in the world uglier than a cock. They're so fucking big and pink and fleshy, and they have those ugly veins sticking out of them.
It makes me want to puke just thinking about it!
Anyway, after a few years of pulling this shit on my mother, my father got up and left. Good! Am I glad! That's the best thing that ever happened to me!
Actually, he didn't just leave. No sir, not that bastard! He even wanted to stay! But my mother got smart. She was tired of putting up with that kind of shit. All he ever wanted her to do was to lie down and spread her legs so that he could shove that big ugly cock of his into her twat.
She doesn't like men any more than I do. In fact, she hates them! She couldn't stand getting fucked by my old man. So she threw him out of the house. And I mean threw him out.
He came home one night and wanted to give her a hump. She waited until he got all his clothes off, and then she pulled out a belt. She had this long, black leather belt with a metal tip on the end of it. She still has it, in fact.
Well, as soon as my father gets naked, she starts lashing him with this belt, whipping his bare ass with it! She kept whipping him till he had to run out of the house. Then she started throwing all of his shit out the window. Hah!
That son of a bitch never came back.
Boy, that's one of my favorite stories. My mom tells me about it all the time, and we both have a good time laughing about it! I wish I could have seen it, I wish I could have seen my mother hitting my father with that strap!
Anyway, we never saw him again. Good riddance.
But you know, he's not the only reason I hate men. Actually, I only started hating men a little while ago. About two years ago, since I was still thirteen. I guess up to then I was too stupid to know any better.
Well, I had this boyfriend. Jack. Now I call him Jerky Jack.
Actually, Jack was kind of cute. He was only a year older than me, so he still had a real young face. In fact, he was kind of pretty. Almost like a girl.
That must be why I think he was cute. Only girls are cute-looking.
Well, Jerky Jack was in my eighth grade. That was right around the time when all the other girls started going steady with the guys, and started to make out and stuff like that.
But what do they know? They're a bunch of creeps anyway. Dumb girls!
But then I guess that I was pretty dumb then too. I mean, I wanted to be like them, if you can believe that. I wanted to have a boyfriend too.
But what did the boys think of me? Those fuckers, all of them, a bunch of fuckers. They didn't like me! They said my tits weren't big enough!
Well, I know my boobs aren't gigantic or anything, but so what! I like them and I know some other women who like them, so who gives a damn what the boys say?
But at the time, I felt bad about it. So I put on a padded bra. That's right, I used to wear a padded bra. Well, I'm too smart for that now. Now I only wear a shirt over myself, and I let my tits hang loose.
Well, everyone at school could tell right off that I was wearing a padded bra. They all started teasing me, those fuckers!
But Jack came up to me and told me not to worry, that I looked fine to him whether I wore the thing or not. He told me that he had a crush on me.
Well, I thought he was trying to be nice to me. I thought he was sweet.
Of course, now I know better. Now I know that all he was trying to do was to get into my pants. He just wanted to fuck my cunt.
Isn't that all men are interested in anyway?
Well, Jack and I started going steady. We used to go out to the movies on Saturday afternoons, and sometimes we'd go to the park or on walks. The usual kid-stuff bullshit. Of course, like I told you, I was pretty dumb back then. I thought I was in love with him.
You know, I can still remember how I felt about him? To tell you the truth, I can hardly believe I was so dumb. I remember thinking that nothing in the world mattered except for Jack.
Of course, I never told my mother about him. That would have been it. She would never have let me even start going out with him if she'd known about Jack.
Looking back on it, I wish I had said something. Just think of all the embarrassment that could have saved me!
But I didn't tell her. In a way, though, it was better for me to find out for myself just how rotten men really are.
Well, I remember one day Jack and I were over at his house, listening to records. We were up in his room, and his parents weren't home. I remember that day like it was yesterday.
God! It was awful!
We're up in his room, see, all alone, and we start making out. Well, that's nothing much. We used to make out in the movies all the time and nothing ever happened after that. Oh, maybe he'd feel up my tits, but so what? Feeling up tits is nothing.
But up until that day in his room, I never let him touch my pussy or finger-fuck me or anything else.
Well, some Beatles record was on, and Jack and I are sitting on the floor. He has him around me, but up until then we're just sitting there. Then he bends his head over and starts to press his lips against my mouth. He had real tender lips, soft, like a woman's. They weren't bad, actually.
So Jack and I start making out. He sticks his tongue into my mouth and starts to touch it to my tongue. His mouth was all wet and gooey.
Then he starts feeling my tits. I remember, we'd been swimming in his pool that day, and all I was wearing was a bikini. So Jack sticks his hand under my top and starts to squeeze my little nipples. I remember how stiff they got. He'd felt me up before, but he never got any b-t before that day. I remember how good it felt to have someone squeeze my bare tits, even if it was a guy.
I felt all shivery and started to moan. I kissed Jack harder.
Then he unties my bikini top and takes it off. Boy, you should have seen that fuckers eyes light up when he saw my mounds! Even if they aren't big, they're real pretty. That's what my mom tells me all the time.
Well, me and Jack started to roll around on the floor. All he's got on his his bathing suit, so my tits are rubbing into his chest. He was getting awfully horny.
Then he climbs on top of me, right between my legs. I could feel the big hard-on he had under his bathing suit. He started to rub his hard bulge against my bikini bottoms, right against my crotch.
Well, I'm a little ashamed to admit this, but I started getting horny. I guess that's because I'd never been really horny before, and it felt so good to feel my cunt getting hot that I didn't care who it was!
So Jack is lying on top of me, humping his bulge against my pussy.
"Nancy," he says, "let's do this without any clothes on!"
Like a real dumb girl, I say sure. So we take off our bathing suits.
Wow! I couldn't believe what my cunt was like! It was real warm, and drippy with come. You know how cunts get, I imagine. But you don't know how it feels to a woman! Only a woman really knows!
Well, Jack had this little peter. He shoved it right up my twat! I remember feeling it break my hymen. It hurt a lot. I should have known right then and there that it was a mistake to fuck men.
But it felt good, too, to have Jack's hard cock sliding up and down my pussy. It wasn't so much that it was a cock. What I liked best was that it was long and hard.
Actually, I like a nice big rubber dildo much better than a cock. A cock's got a man attached to it, but a woman can use a dildo. Dildos are out of sight!
Well, we only fucked for a little while. Jack came into me right away. Shit, he's like most men. He doesn't know how to treat a woman, and neither do they. They don't know how to love a cunt, how to lick it or suck on a clit.
Needless to say, I didn't come.
When I went home that day, I could tell right off that my mother was suspicious. I don't know how she knew. I think she had some kind of a sixth sense when it comes to nosing out when men have been fucking around. Just like she could tell with my dad.
Well, whatever made her suspicious, she got me as soon as I got home and dragged me into the bathroom. She made me take off my bikini and sit down on the toilet. Then she stuck her fingers up my cunt and started poking around. When she pulled her fingers out, there was blood and come on them, and right away she knew what I'd done.
"Young lady, do you realize what you've done!" she yelled at me.
She told me she was going to teach me a lesson I'd better not forget. Then she dragged me up to my room.
That's the night I learned how rotten and evil men are!"
I realized that my patient and I were right at the point in her development where whatever traumatic experience she'd suffered had occurred. I had the definite feeling that what took place with her mother that evening held the clue to young Nancy's obvious problem, her unbelievable and total hatred for men.
I wanted to devote my full attention to what she had to tell me and, since I had several other patients waiting, I asked her to please come back tomorrow.
"If they make me!" was her defiant answer, but nonetheless I was confident that the poor girl would be back.
INTERVIEW TWO
Just as I had expected, the next day Nancy arrived on time for her appointment, duly escorted by her dutiful social worker. Once again I marvelled at how such an unfortunate, cynical young girl could look so innocent and sweet. It was a mystery to me, and I was anxious to solve it and thus help the poor thing adjust to a normal life. So I recapped what she had told me the day before, ending with her account of how her mother was about to 'teach her a lesson.' I asked her to take up from there. Nancy began to speak.
"Shit, you're a nosy son of a bitch, aren't you? You know, I bet you get your rocks off by listening to other people's problems. Well suppose I don't want to tell you? Suppose I just sit here all day and make faces at you?
Why should I tell you anything? You're a man, and all men are evil! That's what my mother taught me that night, and I'll never forget it!
But I will tell you. I don't give a shit what you think of me!
Anyway, she dragged me up to my room and threw me down on my bed. Then she went out, locking the door. She left me alone in there for a long while. I was plenty scared, too scared to even get up and put my nightie on. All I could do was lay on the bed, naked, and cry.
I really loved my mother! I knew how much I'd hurt her by fucking Jack, and I felt very bad about it!
I knew my mom was going to punish me, but I was glad. I deserved to be punished! I had done a terrible thing, letting that little fucker stick his cock up my cunt!
Well, my mom walked in and I couldn't even believe it was her at first. She was dressed in high-heeled black boots that came up to her thighs. She had on a tight-fitting pair of leather panties, and a leather bra that was real tight and had holes cut for her tits. In one hand she had a whip, and in the other hand she had a long coil of rope!
She had the meanest look on her face! She looked like she wanted to kill me!
And I couldn't blame her, either. I'd been so bad that day, I was going to deserve whatever she was about to do to me.
"You're not my daughter, behaving like that!" she screamed at me. "You're nothing but a little two-bit slut! You're your father's daughter, you're a sex maniac, just like him! Why don't I call him up and then you can fuck your no-good father!"
Wow! I couldn't believe it, she was so mad! It was like she hated me! I couldn't stand it. I wanted to do anything to make her not hate me anymore!
"Oh, Mama, please, please don't hate me like that! I'm your little girl! I love you, I hate Daddy! Oh, Mama, I know I've been bad, please, punish me for being a bad girl!" I begged her.
"You bet I'm going to punish you!" she yelled.
Well, she really meant it! Boy, did she punish me!
And you know what? I'm glad she did. Otherwise, I never would have been able to face her ever again.
Well, Mama took the rope and tied it around my wrists and ankles and strapped me down on the bed. You know, with my arms off to the side and my legs pulled apart. Spread-eagled.
I was just lying there on the bed, completely naked. Lying down flat like that made my tits look even smaller than they were, and I hardly had any hair covering my pussy.
Mama looked at me kind of funny. She didn't look so mean anymore, though she was still plenty mad. But there was something else in her eyes. She looked excited!
Well, I'll tell you, it got me kind of excited to. My nipples started to get hard and I could feel my pussy get all warm and tingly. I felt it starting to get wet, too.
What I mean is, I was getting horny. That's right. I was getting horny for my mother! And what's so wrong with that? I mean, we loved each other, didn't we!?
I wanted my mama to make love to my wet pussy!
But first she had to punish me for being such a bad girl and fucking that Jerky Jack! She had to teach me a lesson about how rotten men were, how all they wanted from you was a piece of ass. They didn't care about me the way my mother did! She was going to beat some sense into me!
She looked down me lying there, all tied up naked on my bed. "You little wicked slut, I'll teach you to fuck men!" She held up her hand with the whip in it and then snapped her arm down. The long leather whip lashed me on my tits.
Shit, did that hurt! It stung really bad. She whipped me right across the nipples, and I really felt it!
It was painful, but I deserved it!
She whipped me again and again. She brought that lash down on my tits and on my tummy and even over my cunny. It really hurt me, I'll tell you.
"Remember, you little slut, if you hadn't been fucking around with men, none of this would ever have happened to you!" she told me.
She kept whipping me. Oooh, it hurt! Those red long red marks from the lashes all over me!
It was really painful, but I tried not to cry because I knew I was getting punished. I almost wanted her to stop, but I knew I better not!
But she was really mad at me! She wouldn't stop whipping me, and it hurt me so much. I couldn't stand it anymore!
"Oh, Mama, please don't! It hurts so much!" I cried to her.
"It better hurt, you slut!" she yelled. "But I never would have had to do this is it wasn't for men! It's the men who are making me do this!"
And I knew she was right. She was doing it for my own good, doing it so that I would know enough to stay away from men!
But I kept crying for her not to hurt me so much, and finally she stopped hitting me with that whip! My body was all sore and red. I had the shivers. I felt like pins and needles were sticking me all over. My cunt and boobs felt all hot and tingly.
"You like cocks, don't you, you little slut!? " Mama said to me.
"Oh, no, Mama.. . . " I tried to tell her, but she got real mad at me for talking and she hit me with the whip again.
"Don't interrupt me, slut! I know you like cocks! I know you let some disgusting man stick his cock into your slutty cunt today!" she told me.
Then she said something that made me really scared.
"Do you know what a cock can do to you? Do you know how much one of those cocks can hurt a girl? Well, I'm going to show you!"
Well, she got up and left the room for a while again. But when she came back in, instead of a whip, in each hand she held a big long, thick dildo. One was pink, and looked just like a cock. The other one was black, and it had little pointy things sticking out of the shaft.
"All right, you bitchy little girl," my mother said to me, "now I'm going to show you what a man can do to you!"
I was terrified. I wanted to get up and run away, but I couldn't because of the way I was tied down. I tried to pull free, but those ropes held me down on the bed.
My mother knelt between my legs and shoved that big pink fuck-stick right up my hole, as far as it could go!
Owww! That sure as hell hurt. I mean, I was still almost a virgin. My cunny was still tight as hell, and even though it was all lubricated from all my cunt juices that big dildo hurt. After all, that big fuck-stick filled up my whole pussy! It pressed against my skin inside of me, and it reached all the way to the end of my cunt.
I started to cry from the pain of having that artificial cock up my hole. But my mother yelled at me.
"Oh, if you think that hurts, wait till you feel this!"
God! It was horrible! She took that long black dildo with the little stickers on it and put it right under my asshole. Then she pushed really hard on it, and shoved it right up my slit! Those rubber sticker pricked into my ass walls and I could really feel them! That rubber stick filled up my whole ass crack!
"Remember, you slut!" my mother told me, "This is what it feels like when men fuck you with their cocks!"
Then she started to ram those big dildos up and down my two holes. She was shoving them in and out as fast as she could. She was pushing them into me real hard and fast, pushing them both in at the same time, so that
I felt like my whole body was being prodded and filled with those big, disgusting male cocks! I hated it! I hated the way men could fuck you, the way my mother was showing me!
I hate men! I hate them! I hate them!
I was crying real loud. I tried to get away, but those ropes and dildos were just pinning me down helplessly on the bed.
Then my mother pushed those poles all the way up my cunt and asshole and just left them in there. They filled all of my tight holes, and it really hurt. Then my mother got the whip, and as I lay there with the fuck-sticks in me, she started to whip me again.
But I deserved it! I know I did! And it was the perfect punishment too. Whipping me while those two cock were in me! It taught me a real lesson! It taught me how rotten men and their goddamn cocks can be!
Finally, she stopped whipping me and she even pulled the cocks out of my holes. My skin, inside and outside, was blazing hot, like it was one fire. I. was burning up, I was in so much pain. My tits, my ass and my pussy were all so sore.
My mother looked down at me. I must have looked like a mess. My skin was all red from being whipped, and my pussy was soaking all over the sheets.
"Well, did you learn your lesson, young lady?" she asked.
"Oh, yes, Mama," I told her. "I'll never fuck a man again, never!"
Then, something funny happened. Something really great! It was so beautiful, I'll never forget it!
My mother smiled and started to take her leather clothes off. She stepped out of the boots and pulled off the panties. She even took off the leather bra and boy, did her tits look wonderful. Big, and round and white, with big red cherry nipples!
"Oh, my poor little Nancy," she said, starting to cry, "did that big cock hurt my baby's sweet pussy? Mama will make it better!"
Then Mama untied me. I sat up and we hugged, real tight. She rubbed her big boobs against my little ones. It felt good.
Then she kissed me. She opened up her mouth and stuck her tongue in my mouth, and twirled it around. It was sweet and juicy. She kissed me hard, and I knew right then and there that my mommy wasn't mad at me anymore. I felt all better again.
Then she pushed me back down on the bed and told me that she was going to show me the best way to make love. Two women! Only women knew how to please one another, she said. Only women have cunts. What does a man, who only has that big, ugly, painful cock-what the hell does he know about pussy?
So my mother bent her head down over my pussy and began to lick it. It was still pretty sore from having that rubber cock in there, and when she kissed and tongued my pussy, it felt so good. Mmmmmmm!! I can still remember how far-out it felt to have her tongue wiggle up my hole and lap at my come-juice.
Then she started to flick her tongue at my clitoris! Wow! Was that wild! It was so far out!
My whole body started to tremble -and shake. My cunt started feeling all shivery and hot. It tingled like anything! My whole body got all flushed and quivery. Then, this big, like, explosion just happened to me! I felt all swirling and funny inside! I felt like I'd live forever!
That was my first orgasm. I couldn't believe how good my mother had made me feel, especially since just a little while before that those cocks had hurt me so much.
Well, I was so happy, I felt so good that I wanted to show my mother how much I loved her. So I crawled around and put my head up to her cunt. It was all wet and runny, and it tasted so good. Mmmmm! It was sweet and sticky, like taffy. It was delicious.
I stuck my tongue up her cunt and twirled it around her clit. She was getting all out and gooey in her pussy. She started to moan. Then, her thighs started to bang around my head. She was coming!
I felt so good then!
Well, from then on, I never had to do anything with boys. Oh, sometimes my mother would get suspicious, and even though I'd tell her I wasn't with any guys or anything like that, she'd punish me. Just to warm me, just in case I was a bad girl again.
She tied me up in ropes or in leather straps. Sometimes she'd even gag me. Then she'd whip me, and shove a dildo up my ass. To remind me of how much a man could hurt me if I let him fuck me.
But, afterwards, when I'd been taught a lesson, my mom would always untie me and we'd make love the right way, the womanly way. Eating pussies and sucking tits. She even showed me the right way to use a dildo, soft-like, not rough like a man did with his cock.
We had a good life for a couple of years. Sometimes I'd bring home a girlfriend, and my mother would teach them about men, and about how women can make love so much better.
But then they had to catch me with that ten-year-old brat. Shit, I was just trying to teach her what my mother taught me. That cocks are evil, but that women really knew how to treat a cunt!"