Chapter 2
Anal E. S. P.
"Oh, I guess I've been anal all my life. Ever since I can remember my mother used to almost beg me-she'd say, 'Peggy, for God's sake, stop playing with that awful stuff!'
"That's why it doesn't bother me to clean up patients who are too sick or dumb or old to use a bathroom or bedpan. I just wipe them up and change the sheets. The smell doesn't bother me. People sweat and spit and pee and shit. It's natural. Nothing natural is bad. I don't think so, anyway.
"I don't honestly get enough anal sex to suit me. I mean, I like it! I could take a good solid ass-fucking three or four times a day and still come back for more.
"Let me tell you how I masturbate. It's what I do most. I've tried those prick-shaped vibrators, and they're fine for about ten seconds, but after that the vibrations overpower the nerves and the sensations get dull and empty. It's overkill. Most of those vibrators vibrate much too strongly. Something like that with a soft, gentle, very light vibration would be fine.
"I like a soft plastic prick, about five inches long--just about the average prick. I got one from a mail-order company. This special plastic is so real feeling when you heat it in a pan of hot water for a few minutes and put a thin coating of K-Y on it, it feels just like a real prick going into me.
"But here's what I do. I get itchy during work and can't wait to get home to my little apartment so I can heat up my plastic prick and get my thrills.
"I lock the door, get undressed, and take a quick shower to clean work-grime and sweat off me. I dry off and stay naked. I don't like to wear anything when I'm home alone.
"I've got a cute little body, even if I do say so myself. I'm five feet one inch tall, and weigh one hundred even. I've got brown eyes and dark blonde hair that I wear up most of the time. I'm really proud of my ass-it's nice and small and rounded. The cheeks are like two creamy melons. (That's what a poetic writer said about them once. I never forgot.) I avoid the sun. I don't like to get tanned. I burn more than tan, anyway, no matter what kind of stuff I use. I like to keep myself all soft and pale and creamy. I use a lot of skin creams all over my body, especially my ass cheeks.
"I love to stand in my bathroom and sort of stick my ass out and use both hands to rub lotion into the skin. Around and around ... slow and easy. It's incredibly sensual for me. I watch myself do it in the mirrors. I have a wall mirror facing the medicine-cabinet mirror, so I can see my hands sliding around on my round little ass.
"I guess most people would never admit something like this about themselves, but I'm not ashamed. Of course, I'm anonymous for this, but that's just to protect my job and to keep from being bothered by a lot of uptight freaks.
"While I'm caressing my ass that way, smoothing in the cream and lotion, I get hot. I just plain get hot. I start easing my fingers down into the split and touching my little ass-hole. That sends shivers through me. And in front, in my pussy, I'm getting wet and oozy. And my clitoris starts to do its little tingling and throbbing.
"I'm breathing faster by then. But I stop there. That's my foreplay, I guess you'd call it. I make masturbation into an art.
"I get my nice plastic prick from its tissue wrappings in my bureau drawer, and I run hot water in the kitchen into a pan and start the soak.
"I get the tube of K-Y and I put a drop on my finger and I work it nice and easy into my ass-hole, getting it all slippery and ready.
"I've got a soft little glow in my ass-hole by then because I take about five minutes-working my fingertip in little circles around the opening, and then gradually pushing it in and out and in and out, just the tip of the finger. I keep my fingernails very short and well buffed, of course.
"By then, after that fingering, I'm really ready for my prick. I get it from the pan and dry it off. It's warm all the way through, just perfect.
"I put a drop of K-Y on the head and smear it all around, and down the shaft ... leaving about an inch to hold on to that's dry and non-slippery.
"Then I'm ready. I get down on my knees on a pillow beside my bed, and I lean forward with my head and shoulders resting on the bed.
"I slip the head of my warm, slippery prick into my split and start nudging my ass-hole with it. I wriggle my ass, reach under to my pussy with my other hand, and start touching my clitoris.
"I get strong shocks of pleasure right away. Small earthquakes of sensation go through me. I start to rub my clitoris and press my prick more and more firmly against my ass-hole.
"My ass-hole is used to giving up. It gives way and spreads apart and lets the head in. It gives little spasms at first, then settles down around the shaft.
"That's when my fun really begins. I start screwing myself in the ass with that prick ... and oh, it slides in and out so nice and easy, and it feels so good! I twist it and sort of corkscrew it in and out, every which way, but slow, slow ... to get all the sensation, the sweet glow that it gives me. And at the same time I finger my clitoris faster, and I get a different, more intense kind of pleasure ... and I come!
"It hits me so strong, that first orgasm! I shiver and go loose and hot and I gasp and I fuck my ass faster!
"Then it's just a soft glow, all melty feeling, in my belly and thighs and ass. I slow down and sigh and keep on and I feel another orgasm beginning to gather in my body, like a storm building up, and when the electrical tension reaches a certain point-wham! A bolt of pure pleasure is discharged and I'm in heaven again, gasping and fucking my ass-hole like mad, and fingering like mad....
"I can keep that up, orgasm after orgasm, until I have about five. That takes about a half hour. But after five comes like that I get weak-actually weak-all washed out. I get all trembling in my belly and knees and arms. I have to stop.
"But after an hour or so I can do it all over again if I want to. Sometimes I do, if I'm especially hot that night. It goes in cycles according to my period. Some nights, just before my period comes on, I get so itchy I do that three times in an evening.
"But it's still masturbation. And I'm a people person. I basically would much rather have a real man with a real prick fuck me in the ass while either he or I rub off my clitoris.
"There's nothing in the world like feeling a man fuck you in the ass faster and faster, harder and harder, till he comes and shoots in you there, while you finger your clitoris and come with him. Lord, what a combination! It just devastates me.
"I'm also unusual in that I'm positive I have E.S.P. I have something in the way of mental telepathy. I can't explain what happens to me any other way.
"The men I meet-the men who approach me-almost always turn out to be ass-men. They always want to feel me there or kiss me there or mostly fuck me there.
"I think I broadcast on a special mental wavelength, and only ass-men pick it up and respond. I've asked them why they decided to approach me and they say they're not sure, just something about me, aside from my cute little round ass, of course.
"I'm currently having an affair with a doctor. George. He's an ass-man, of course. He's married and has four children, and he doesn't ass-fuck his wife, ever. He has this element in his sexual nature, though, and I'm his outlet. Wow, am I!
"George is a big man-six feet two and overweight. He's over two hundred and twenty. You can imagine how he towers over poor little me.
"He's terribly strong, too, and just a little bit selfish and ruthless.
"I met him at work. He has several patients there. I guess I was broadcasting on the ass wavelength that night because he came around into the nurses' station-I was the only aide on duty and the LVN was passing out her medicines-and he started joking with me and touching me a little ... and then he boldly put his hand down on my ass. And rubbed in little circles.
"It was asking a question. He didn't say a word about what his hand was doing. He kept on talking about the charts of his patients.
"But I answered by letting him do it and I even stuck my ass out and showed I liked it by wiggling a bit. I looked up and smiled. He's a handsome, powerful man.
"He didn't waste any time. He said, gruffly, 'You like back-door lovemaking?'
"I said, and I flushed, because I couldn't look away from his brown eyes-he just held me-I said, 'Yes ... I do.' I sort of breathed it.
"He kept on rubbing my ass, and I started to get hot. I wondered how big a prick he had.
"George gave me a hot look and said, 'I'll be right back.' He went down the hall.
"When he returned a minute later, he took my hand and led me down the south hallway and took me into the manager's office. He closed the door and we were alone and it was dark.
"He hunched over and kissed me with lots of hot tongue. His hands, both big hands, were on my ass, rubbing and working up my white uniform till he could get his hands under it and still stay on my ass-rubbing so nice. And then his hands were on my white nylon panties, warm and strong, his fingers spread wide to cup each half of my ass, each cheek.
"He slid his mouth off my mouth and kissed the side of my neck. His hands were cupping and caressing my buttocks and pulling my pussy up against his pants.
"He had my uniform bunched up around my waist, held there by his arms as he massaged my ass. My pussy was covered only by my panties, a thin layer of nylon, and I could feel the really big, hard bulge of his prick.
"I clung to him and rubbed my pussy against him there. My vulva lips were wet and my panties were wet. My clitoris was getting very tingly.
"I was hot. But I was worried. I whispered, 'I have to get back ... Miss Y-'ll miss me.'
"He held me tighter. 'No you don't. I made arrangements with her.'
"I was kind of amazed. 'She knows we're in here?'
"He said yes. I don't know if he bribed her or not. I guess he did. Or he had some way of making her look the other way.
"George said we had at least a half hour. He pushed his hands inside my panties, onto my ass cheeks. He pushed my panties down ... to the level of my crotch.
"I let him. I loved his fondling of my ass. His fingers were skating into my split, deeper and deeper.
"I acted bold-I slipped a little to the side and got my hand on his prick. It was a monster! I shivered.
"I unzipped his fly and got my hand inside his pants and wormed my hand further, into his briefs, into the gap in front, and I got my hand on that big, thick prick of his. It was a shock, feeling a prick that big. He's a big man and I guess naturally endowed ... or overendowed. George has the biggest prick I've ever seen, and the biggest one
I've ever let fuck me in the ass. It was really huge!
"George whispered, 'You want that, Peggy?'
"I was in a turmoil. His hands were working so beautifully on my ass, and his fingers were starting to probe at my anus. But I couldn't get my hand all the way around his thickness, and as I worked my hand up that shaft, I found a big, knob-like glans. I knew it wouldn't be easy taking a thing that huge. It would reach way up into my colon, right up into my guts.
"I was afraid and yet I did want to be fucked by him. I was tremendously attracted to his strength and dominance and body ... yes, that awfully big prick was a temptation and a dread.
"I knew I'd let him go ahead. And I knew it would probably hurt me. I said yes, I wanted it.
"He took me to the big Leatherette-covered sofa against the wall. He said, 'I want some sixty-nine first.' He wasn't asking, he was telling. He pulled out his huge prick and laid himself on the sofa. The cushions crinkled under his weight.
"I stepped out of my panties. I didn't mind sixty-nine. I just didn't think I could do much of a suck job for him.
"George guided me the way he wanted me. He pulled me onto him. I knelt so I straddled his head.
"He got his hands on my ass and rubbed and fondled and guided my pussy lower and lower to his waiting mouth.
"I had my hands wrapped around his monster prick. It's a good thing it's as long as it is, or I couldn't have reached it with my mouth ... him being six feet two, and me only five one.
"I felt him licking my pussy lips, and settling my vulva down onto his mouth. His hands were always on my ass cheeks, caressing and fondling, easing his thumbs into my split, teasing my ass-hole, making me squirm a little.
"I started licking that big glans of his. I tried getting my mouth down over it. I had to stretch my mouth as wide as I could to take the head. That was all I could manage. My mouth was full. I could barely use my tongue.
"But George was using his tongue in me wildly! He told me later very few women could suck him well, because he was so big. Once, he said, he had a Negress with a very wide, big mouth who had gone down on him and sucked him off with immense skill and enthusiasm, but he couldn't quite hack a close relationship with her, even though she had a great ass and also loved to be ass-fucked.
"I had a series of small orgasms from his tonguing me, and rubbing my ass. He had a fingertip into my anus by then and was driving me itchy-crazy with a soft ass-glow from doing that to me. I couldn't help squirming around on his mouth a lot.
"I took my mouth off his big glans and started masturbating him slowly, using both hands.
"George pushed my pussy away from his mouth and said, 'That's enough of this. Get up.'
"I was glowing in my ass and pussy. I got off him and stood beside the sofa. He got off, too, and I could see a little better in the darkness, from the light that came in under the door from the hall. George's huge prick poked out of his pants ... wow, did it scare me.
"He told me to kneel down and rest my head on my arms on a sofa cushion. I pulled a cushion off to the floor and did what he wanted. My ass was up in the air ... and I felt vulnerable as hell. My anus was itchy and my pussy was drippy. All I could think of was that huge prick of his.
"He was breathing fast, and so was I. His hands stroked over my ass, lovingly. He said, 'You've got such a lovely ass...." He rubbed the head of his prick into my split. It was tantalizing and scary. He worked it up and down. He covered the glans with spit and made the long ass-groove wet and slippery.
"I reached under to my pussy and got two fingers wet with my juice. I smeared my ass-hole as best I could. George knew what I was doing.
"Then the time came. He got a little closer. He got the head of his prick right on my anus. He slipped his left arm in under my hips. His right hand held his prick in position.
"He had me. He started to pull my ass back onto his prick, and to push into me.
"My anus opened up under the pressure, but his glans was so big! I was stretched-the strain turned into pain. I was biting my lips. But thenahhh-the glans popped into my ass. It was like a big gulp. My anus spasmed around that big thickness. It tried to close and couldn't.
"There's a special kind of helplessness and defenselessness in being ass-fucked by a big, strong man.
"George was wise and considerate. He knew what a shock his huge cock was for my ass. He waited for my anus to get used to being stretched so wide. Then he started fucking me ... oh, so slowly at first ... little moves into me, just a half inch or so, in and out, as if we had all night. It was soon delightful to me. I could hardly wait for him to work deeper and deeper. The pain was gone, faded. The anal spasms were gone. There was pleasure.
"He gradually increased the depth of his moves, until he was really fucking. I was gasping as he sawed deeper and deeper. The thrust of his prick was incredible ... so much, so deep! An enormous blunt object surging up into my colon.
"The pleasure was in being possessed and in possessing such a huge prick. The glow was as much psychological as physical.
"I sluiced my fingers around in my pussy. I pushed fingers up into my vagina and felt the deep slide of his prick in my rectum.
"George was enjoying it very much. His breathing was loud. So was mine. A hot red bubble of pleasure was building in my guts and loins, making me shake and making me wriggle my ass and push back against his thrusts....
"George was plunging more and more length into my ass. I felt the head of his huge prick penetrating further and further into my colon. I felt a wild and weird kind of pressure. My anus was a ring of golden sensation. I was feverishly rubbing my clitoris. I shook and panted as an orgasm rippled through me.
"George's breathing was getting hoarse. He whispered, 'What an ass! What an ass!' He was fucking me faster, and harder, and deeper and deeper!
"I quivered through my orgasm and was almost immediately into the beginnings of another one. The soft melting sensations I usually have after a come were over very quickly.
"George was plunging all the way into my ass! He smacked my cheeks with his thighs. He pulled my ass tight to his loins. He sucked deep lungfuls of air. He was into me to the hilt! I felt engorged. My whole belly-my guts-were full of prick! My large intestine was swollen with prick! The colon and intestine spasmed too! A weird sensation-not painful especially, just weird! It felt like a giant turd was coming, going through me ... was passed and then invaded my ass again. Over and over.
"I fingered my clitoris and went through a moaning, quivering orgasm as George slammed his monster prick into me-all into me!-faster and harder. He was jarring me with his thrusts! I was in heaven!
"I felt him start to come. I knew because of his erratic, panting breathing. He grunted and actually sobbed. He cried, 'Oh, Jesus!'
"I responded, too. I was almost blinded by another orgasm that hit like lightning. My whole in-sides seemed to twist and turn under the impacts of his last powerful, shuddering thrusts. I knew he was spurting in me, mixing his semen with my churned shit.
"George pressed his loins tight to my ass. His giant prick lay totally buried in my colon. I was moaning with him, undulating against his loins, my belly flexing. I crouched, ass high, my ass totally used, my face pressed against the cushion, my fingers ravishing my pussy as his throbbing prick emptied itself of his last few drops of semen and began gradually to soften and shrink.
"The glow of my intense pleasure softened and melted my guts and flowed into my thighs and lower belly. I relaxed and sighed. I whispered, 'Oh, that was so good.
Peggy's anal sexual development, her fixation on fecal matter, and her quite obvious connected psychological problems, represent a direct regression to the anal-sadistic stage of childhood development. A regression which, if not treated, will eventually lead to even more serious psychopath-ological instability.
This anal-sadistic stage of development which Peggy has regressed to is a normal one for the child, coming right after the oral phase of development. During the development of anal sensuality as a child, Peggy was expected, for the first time, to relinquish a part of her freedom, in that she was expected to cooperate with her mother's demand that she use the toilet for the evacuation of feces. The primary aim of the developing anal sensuality is the enjoyment of the pleasurable sensation of excretion. Later on, the stimulation of the anal tissues through the retention of the fecal mass may have become an even more intense pleasure source.
There is a direct connection between anal and sadistic drives at this stage, which may be attributed to two factors. First, the object of the anal-sadistic activity is the feces themselves, and their "pinching-off' is regarded as a sadistic act. Subsequently in her psychosexual development Peggy begins treating people as she had previously treated the feces. The sense of social power which evolved from her learning sphincter control constituted the second sadistic element. In training for cleanliness Peggy asserted her power over her mother by giving up, or refusing to give up, her feces.
The first anal strivings are autoerotic. Pleasurable elimination (and, at different times, pleasurable retention) of the feces does not require the outside help of an object or person. At this stage of development defecation is invested with omnipotence, and the feces, which represent the agent of such pleasure, become a libidinal object, so to speak, by virtue of their narcissistic evaluation. Although they have become external, they have "ego quality," for they represent a part of what was once Peggy's own body. Hence, there is a tendency to re-introject what was once eliminated in order to restore narcissistic equilibrium. Thus, the feces become an ambivalently "loved" object. They are "loved" and retained or reintrojected, on the one hand, and they are hated and "pinched off' on the other.
Certain pleasurable anal sensations are associated with the mother's ministrations, such as diaper changes, which Peggy unconsciously remembers. This maternal care, in combination with the conflicts which surround toilet training, subsequently altered the direction of Peggy's object strivings. However, as mentioned above, Peggy treats people in much the same manner in which she treated her feces as a child.
The compulsive neatness which is typical of persons who have regressed to this pregenital stage of psychosexual development is an expression of their wish to dominate. They exert power over things and people and force them into a rigid and pedantic system, typical of the hierarchal structure of a nursing staff. Concomitantly, Peggy's feelings are characterized by the ambivalence referred to earlier, along with a tendency to control and retain her current love-object choice, together with a desire to expel and destroy it. Drs. John E. Mack and Elvin V. Semrad, in their section of classical psychoanalysis in the Comprehensive Textbook of Psychiatry, explained this.
The connection between anal eroticism and the physiological basis for ambivalence derives from the fact that during this stage in his development the child treats the object, that is, the feces, in a contradictory manner. He alternately expels the matter from his body and retains it as a loved object.
Although some progress is made toward finding a love object during the pregenital and oral-sadistic phases of development, for the most part a child such as Peggy develops libidinal activity which is autoerotic in nature. That is, the sexual impulses are directed toward her own body and discharged through a combination of anal sexual activity and masturbation.
The fundamental task which Peggy faced in attempting to find a satisfactory love object belonged in the phallic or genital period of development, at which time the pattern for later object choices was set down, for it was in this phase that Peggy discovered the anatomical differences between the sexes. Since Peggy actually never progressed completely out of the anal-sadistic stage, retaining anal erotic desires into the genital stage of development, it was only natural that her later decisions involving love-object choices centered around sexual stimulation and satisfaction through anal activity. The sexual and love-object choice events associated with the genital period set the stage for the developmental predisposition to later psychoneuroses, in this case the obsessive regression to the anal-sadistic stage of emotional and psychosexual development.
"Last year, when I was working in another convalescent home as an aide, I let myself be seduced by the charge nurse, a male L.V.N., on the night shift.
"His name was Malcolm G--. He was short and stocky and very tense, a very nervous man. He was always busy. He couldn't relax.
"Malcolm-I'll call him Mai-I think he was mostly a homosexual. He had a swishy walk, and flighty little gestures when he talked, and a way of talking that was definitely gay. But he seemed strongly attracted to me, or to my ass. He was always making references to my 'rear' and always patting it and hinting that it appealed to his 'baser' instincts.
"One night I was in a room changing a bed after an old man had died in it. The body was in the cool room in the basement.
"Mai came in and started fooling around while I tried to tuck in the sheets. He reached in under my uniform and pinched my ass.
"I whirled around and said, 'Don't do that unless you mean it.' I was laughing, and he was grinning. We indulged in a lot of horseplay. We'd been working together for several months. The night shift is a very private time, usually. A minimum staff, and mostly the patients are asleep.
"Mai had been patting and pinching my fanny for weeks. I had an idea he was strongly ass-oriented. He never tried to kiss me or touch my breasts. Always my ass.
"Anyway, that night he said, 'I'll tell you what, Peggy girl, you take down those panties and I'll show you how I mean it.'
"I said, 'Front or back?' I started to pull up my uniform skirt. I was daring him. I was smiling.
"He said, 'I'm not interested in your female equipment. Just show me your nice, naked rump.'
"So I did. I flipped up the back of my skirt and bent forward as I skinned down my panties. I put my hands on my knees and wiggled my bare ass at him. I looked over my shoulder to see what he would do.
"Mai was staring. His face was stiff and his eyes were funny. He surprised me. He went down to his knees and started fondling my cheeks, and kissing them. And licking them.
"That excited me. I loved it. My skin on my ass is sensitive, just like my breasts. I couldn't keep from really wriggling my ass from pleasure.
"Mai was shameless. He started licking into my split. I'm a very clean girl, so I wasn't reluctant to have him smell me or see me there. I trembled when his tongue licked closer and closer to my anus. His thumbs held my split open and he kissed further and further in ... until at last his tongue licked wetly over my anus.
"I was breathing fast and so was he. Mai was almost gasping. His fingers were clutching my cheeks as he pressed his face tight against my ass, right into the split, and his tongue started poking delightfully at my puckered little hole. It sent shivers through me.
"He stopped long enough to ask me, 'Do you like that?'
"I said, 'Do I!' I was getting all hot and bothered.
"He went back to tongue-poking at my anus, and my hole started to respond. It spasmed a bit and the tip of his tongue-he sort of made a stiff tube of his tongue-the tip poked into my hole!
"I gasped. A thrill went through me. He kept up that action. His tongue was getting into my anus easily. I was loosening. Wow, what a sensation.
"I peered down between my legs at his pants front and saw that he had a hard on. Tongue-fucking my ass turned him on!
"It sure turns me on! I love it when a man does it, but few do. Mostly men are only interested in fucking with their prick.
"But Mai ... oh, Mai! His tongue licked and poked so delightfully. I was itchy and glowing and squirming my ass. I slid my right hand under my skirt to my pussy. I gasped again as I touched my wet, slippery, throbbing clitoris. My head was hanging down ... I was wiggling my ass against his face and mouth ... and I was slithering my finger deliciously over my clitoris.
"I came! Oh, wow, did I ever come! It was all hot and shivery and strong! I nearly fainted. I nearly fell over! Mai's darting tongue going in and out of my anus was incredibly exciting! I couldn't keep my ass still. I didn't want to. I was panting and quivering and wriggling in my orgasm ... and I saw him reach down with one hand and unzip his fly. His prick popped out. It was juicy at the tip. It looked normal sized. He wasn't circumcised. He wrapped his hand around it and started to beat off while he tongued my ass.
"I felt selfish and I wanted to help him, to give him pleasure myself. I said, 'Want me to do that for you?'
"Mai stopped tonguing and jacking off. He hunched down and peered through my legs at my face. He grinned. His mouth was wet from his saliva. He wiped his mouth with his hand. He said, 'Sure, but I don't want to stop rimming your ass.'
"I said, 'I think if we got on the bed ... in the sixty-nine position ... with me on top....'
"He frowned as he visualized it. He smiled. 'You can sit on my face.'
"I guess that appealed to him a lot. We got up on the hospital bed. He wasn't embarrassed or ashamed in the least. I liked him for that. He laid flat on his back and I tucked in my skirts and straddled his head. His eyes were sparkling. He said, 'Umm, let me eat some more of this lovely ass!'
"I giggled and said, 'More lovely ass, coming down...." I lowered my ass. He used his hands to guide me and to open my split wide for his face and mouth.
. "I was afraid I was too heavy for him that way, but I guess I wasn't. I was actually laying most of my weight on his chest.
"The problem was I couldn't reach easily to stroke my clitoris. I said, 'Let's try it on our sides.'
"So we did. It was perfect. He rested the side of his neck on my thigh, like it was a pillow, and my other thigh was like a scissor-lock on his neck. I could have choked him.
"I was face to face with his prick. I held it with my right hand and rested my head on my left arm. I started jacking him off, and I was pointing his prick right at my face as I did it. It was exciting and shivery to know that when he came he'd squirt into my eyes and onto my nose and mouth and chin....
"I wasn't turned off by come, but if he squirted all over my face it would be a sticky mess. So I worked my head closer to his loins and took the end of his prick into my mouth.
"I don't really enjoy sucking a prick, but I don't dislike it, either. It's just that I'm not oral. I'm anal all the way. But even that's funny, because I get no kick from kissing and tonguing a man's ass. I'm passively anal.
"Mai was getting his tongue working in and out of my anus again, giving me that beautiful glowing tickling sensation. I was aware that he didn't want to fuck me in the ass, only tongue me. That was okay. His tongue was tremendously exciting.
"I sucked him and pumped his prick at the same time. Then I said to him, Will you tickle my clitoris, please?'
"He worked a hand around one of my thighs and got a finger into my pussy ... and then right on my swollen, tingling clitoris.
"He knew anatomy. Mai was drilling my anus with his tongue, getting at least an inch of tubed tongue into my excited little hole with a wonderful fluttering, stabbing movement. And at the same time he was running his fingertip over my throbbing clitoris, sending strong pleasure thrills through me.
"I sucked and pumped faster on his prick. I was going to come again! The powerful building of sensory pressure was almost ready to break like a wave and wash over and through me.
"The faster I sucked and stroked his prick, the more wild he tongued my ass! Suddenly his hips jolted forward and my mouth was stuffed with his prick. I knew it was his time. He made a whimpering sound against my ass. The surging breath from his nose tickled my split. His tongue went crazy in my ass-hole.
"I stroked his prick as fast as I could. I used my tongue as I sucked on the end of his prick, and on as much of his prick as I could when he shoved it deep and butted my head back.
"I went almost blind as a lightning bolt of pleasure whipped through me. Another one! I shivered and trembled. My ass squirmed against his face. The sensation of his tongue plunging in my anus was more intense than my exploding clitoris! My thighs tightened on Mai's neck.
"His prick gushed semen into my mouth. He shot five or six times.... I had to swallow the stuff. I couldn't disentangle myself. I didn't want to. I sucked and pumped and swallowed and gasped and moaned as my pleasure swept through my nerve system.
"When it was over for both of us, we lay like that-in sixty-nine-for a few minutes. He kissed my ass affectionately, but our lust was gone. I let his prick slip limply from my mouth.
"We got off the bed, made some jokes, straightened our uniforms, and he left to do his job.
"I had to put another clean sheet on the bed.
"We got together like that, Mai and me, three times, in empty rooms. It was wonderful.
"But just when we were going off together that last time, Albina F-, the other aide on our floor, a mean old black bitch, walked in on us and gave out a scream that woke half the building.
"Well, she reported us the next day to the manager and he fired us both. We were lucky he gave us each a letter of reference with just the bare minimum of nice things about us.
"Mai came over to my apartment a couple times, but he got awfully possessive and jealous of my other lovers. We had a fight about it, and didn't see each other after that.
"I can't be a one-man woman. I like to be ass-fucked too much. And at the same time I like to live by myself.
"I took a chance one time-I risked a one-shot with a patient.
"He wasn't a regular patient. He was forty-six years old and he was in the convalescent hospital to dry out after a binge. He was a big executive in one of the big aerospace companies. His name was Donald E-
"He had the only private room in the place. I was on the night shift and the chart said he had to have an alcohol rub at nine.
"I went into his room and found him jacking off under the sheet. He stopped when he heard me, but I saw what he had been doing.
"I carried my tray in and put it on the medication table next to his bed. I said, 'Don't let me stop you. It isn't against the rules.' I smiled.
"He had nice gray hair, thin, and a moustache. His body was pudgy. He wore tinted glasses. He said, 'I'd rather you did it for me.'
"I said, 'I would if it was on the chart. Get your doctor to prescribe a penile rub and no problem. All it says now is an alcohol rub. Rub, not drink.'
"He said damn, smiled, and turned over onto his belly when I asked him to. I pulled the sheet down and started in.
"He was pudgy, but undernourished. We were giving him all kinds of vitamins and special foods.
"I rubbed his neck, shoulders, back, and then started in on his buttocks. He had a round, fleshy ass on him-it was a little like mine. I said so and he laughed.
"I enjoyed massaging his ass. I spent a lot of time on it. Rubbing and kneading and ... actually, at the end, fondling and caressing ... letting my thumbs ride down into his split a little.
"He was enjoying it-even squirming. He said, 'You've given me a stiff on. You enjoy rubbing my rump, don't you?'
"I said, 'Maybe.' I kept on.
" 'That's your bag, is it?'
" 'Maybe.'
"He turned over quick and showed me his erection. His prick was short and stubby, like a pink post. He said, 'I've got fifty dollars that says you'll suck me off and ream my ass with your finger while I do the same to you.'
"I hesitated. I might have done it anyway. The fifty was the clincher. On an aide's salary fifty dollars is a week's income. I told him his money was right.
"He took the money from his wallet in the drawer and I stepped out of my panties. I put the fifty dollars in my bra and hopped onto his bed.
"We got into the sixty-nine position right away.
He didn't show any desire to kiss me ... at least not on the mouth.
"He wanted me on top. My thighs enclosed his head. He wheezed a little and pulled me back and adjusted me to his mouth. I felt his mouth fitting itself to my pussy, and then his tongue licking into my pussy lips, very skilled! He knew just how to do it to me in that position. And at the same time he curled his arm around my hips and slid his hand onto my ass and grooved his middle finger right down into my split-and into my anus.
"That made me squirm my pussy down tighter on his open mouth. And his wild tongue fluttered around in my pussy, around and around on my clitoris.
"And I was busy, too. I was at first staring down at his prick. There was a drop of secretion at the urethra opening. As he got his mouth going on my pussy, I dove my mouth down onto his prick. I filled my mouth with it. It was fun to clamp tight on it and whip my tongue around and around over the head while he did the same to my clitoris.
"I pulled his knees up so I could reach under and poke a finger into his anus, as he wanted. When I skated my fingertip over his hole he writhed under me. His prick got a lot harder in my mouth.
"He slid his tongue into my vagina and tongue-fucked me and finger-fucked my anus. I was itchy and squirmy with the sensations. The pleasure made me finger-fuck him faster and deeper! And suck him even harder. My finger sank into his anus all the way, clear to the second knuckle and even further. He was moaning and gasping for air as he tongued me. His breath was harsh and tickling in my crotch.
"I felt his doughy belly tense under my chest. I was moving my head up and down like a pump, taking his prick way back to my throat. I can do that if the contact is only for a split second, before the gag reflex has a chance to cut in. I was taking it all. His curly pubic hair was tickling my nose during those mouth plunges.
"I was getting that hot bubble in my loins from his licking and fingering of my special zones. I started to quiver ... and so did he!
"We went off almost at the same time. It was glorious to have him thrashing under me and shooting spurt after spurt of semen into my mouth while I was in that special golden haze of urgent sensation. My belly jumped and my legs tightened on his head and I gasped and gurgled around his prick.
"He moaned and sucked air under my crotch. But his wild, skilled tongue lapped on my clitoris till I thought I'd explode! And we both reamed each other's ass with our fingers. It was good! It was very good! We just melted into each other. I left my finger in his anus for a few minutes. Then he made a little push at me and got off him. I went into his bathroom and washed my hands and rinsed my mouth.
"It only took-oh, maybe seven or eight minutes all told, not counting the alcohol rub.
"Donald asked me to buy him a bottle of vodka and bring it in to him the next day. He gave me twenty dollars more to pay for the booze.
"So I did it. It's his life. And my life is mine. We'll each go to hell in our own way, I guess.
"He checked out the day after I brought him his bottle-and went on another nonstop toot, I guess.
"I was lucky I didn't get myself fired because of him. The head nurse asked me about how he got that bottle. But Donald had had a lot of visitors and I acted very innocent....
"I have a boyfriend besides my doctor who ass-fucks me at work. George pays off the charge nurse each time. She pretends she doesn't notice I'm gone for half an hour or so each time he comes in to 'see about his patients' late at night.
"But my boyfriend is Frank L--. He's a plumber. Boy, does he plumb me! We met when he was called in when the convalescent home's hot water heater blew and flooded the kitchen.
"It was my ESP at work again. He noticed me immediately when he and his partner came in. It was like I was a magnet the way his eyes found me and we looked at each other.
"It was a long job for them, an emergency that took most of the night. I went in to watch them work when I could. I made them coffee. There aren't any cooks on duty at night. They come in at five A.M.
"Frank kept looking at me! And I kept trying to be near him, and I waggled my tail at him, too.
"When they were finished, he talked to me for a minute. He has hot eyes. His look, up close, made me feel chills up and down my spine. We made a date.
"He took me to lunch the next day, because our work schedules were so different. We talked deep with our eyes and hinted at things and grinned at each other and made a date for my nearest day off.
"Well, to make a long story short, we ended up, after a restaurant supper, in my apartment. And we got down to business right away.
"Frank reached for me and I went right into his arms. He pulled me over on top on him. We were lying on the sofa.
"I felt a long prick, like a hard snake, against my belly. I was wearing hot pants and he wasn't wearing any underwear! I could feel his prick very distinctly.
"He said, 'You've got bedroom eyes.' He put his hands on my back and slowly moved them down onto my ass. He fondled my cheeks through my corduroy hot pants.
"I squirmed on him. I said, 'I like what you're doing, very much.'
"He said, 'I'm an ass man. Very-few girls respond to that kind of loving.' He was asking-testing-hoping.
"I said, 'That makes me special, I guess. Because I love that kind of loving.' I kissed him on the lips.
"Frank's arms tightened around me. He didn't use his tongue. He isn't that kind, not very oral. But, oh, is he anal!
"He said, very husky and turned on, 'Stand up for a minute.'
"I did. He sat up and I got an idea from the bulge in his pants how he was hung. Wow! Frank was excited. He pulled me closer. His hands were on my hips. He looked up at me and his eyes had an anguished kind of expression, with hope. He said, 'You really mean it?'
"I nodded. I said boldly, 'Fuck me in the ass and find out, why don't you?'
"He almost wriggled with happiness. He shivered. 'I will, by God, I will!' He started to fumble with my hot pants.
"I helped him. In a minute I was naked and helping him with his clothes. Ummm, when his pants went down and I got my first look at his long, thin prick ... I got wetter than ever.
"I got down on my knees and handled it, right in front of my face. I moved the skin back and forth and kissed the head.
"It was like a long, pink bone, slightly curved, and it throbbed strongly in my hand. I guess I am a little oral, too. I couldn't resist taking the head into my mouth and sucking it. In fact, I closed my eyes and started to slide it far into my mouth. It wasn't too thick.
"Frank was embarrassed by my doing that, though. He stopped me. He said, 'I like that, but I want to fuck you, you know where!'
"I nodded. We went to the bed after he got all undressed. Frank is muscular, with thick hairy legs and a big hairy chest and strong arms from pulling and hauling on pipes and wrenches all day. His hair is thinning out, though. But I love the power in him, and his lovely, long, thin prick. There's no discomfort at all in taking it. It's a delight, because his glans isn't blunt or fat-it's tapering, a narrow pink arrow with a perfect, rounded tip.
"He arranged me the way he liked it best-me on my hands and knees, not necessarily with my head and shoulders low to make my ass stick up and out, though I like to sink down in front like that-it gives me a crazy feeling of being an animal, sometimes.
"Frank doesn't believe in a lot of preliminaries. That first time he slipped his finger down into my split and felt my anus and gently poked his finger into me.
"Frank-likes to get to the fucking right away, but contrary to what you might think, seeing his build and muscles, he's very gentle and tender as a lover. He's in no hurry at all once he gets in. And that's what I love-savoring the sensations during a slow, delicious ass-fuck. So does Frank. He's never in a big hurry to pump away and get that orgasm. The doing is as enjoyable as the getting.
"Anyway, he put a lot of spit in on my anus and some on his prick, and just-eased it into me. There was no pain at all. A little friction and rubbing for lack of lubrication, but it got better as he slowly fucked me. His shaft got wet and slick from my inner wetness.
"Oh, wow, can he get into me! It's deceptive, because he isn't thick. He reached way up into my colon-on into the large intestine.... I felt a weird presence there, in my guts. I loved it. My heart was pounding.
"Frank was breathing fast and deep, even though he was sliding his prick in and out of my ass so slow it was excruciatingly sensual. The lining of my rectum tingled and glowed.
"I put my finger into my pussy and touched my clitoris. An almost electric shock of pleasure surged through me. I gasped. My rectum spasmed on his glans at just the right instant.
"Frank sobbed with lust and arousal and delight. He whispered, 'Jesus, Peggy, you're the greatest I've ever had!'
"And I panted, 'And you're the greatest I've ever had!'
"He held my hips with both hands and, gradually, slid his prick in and out faster and faster. The faster he fucked the more I felt, all up and down my spine, in my guts-in my ass!
"I was shivering and squirming like crazy. I was slithering my finger over my clitoris and coming every minute!
"I tried to time my last come with his. He was running that prick into me like a piston. My ass was so warm and melty! He got so far up into my guts, it took my breath away! I was dizzy.
"Then Frank went off-and he grunted and couched and sort of roared! God, he loved it. I could feel his prick swell up and jump as he shot his semen into my rectum and intestine.
"I went off with him, with my face pressed down into the bedspread, my whole body shaking, my finger racing over my clitoris....
"But Frank is good for only once or twice a night per visit, and he visits only once or twice a week.
"I make do with my dildo and George. I enjoy myself shamelessly. I'm not going to change my sex life for anyone. Anybody who's shocked at what I do and how I do it is a prig. A stupid prig, at that!"
It is apparent from the subject's narrative that her anal-retentive character is so strong as to reject any offer of change. Her sexuality is bordering on the area of perversion, if it is not within that area already. And it is, of course, her rejection of genital-genital sexual activity in favor of anal intercourse exclusively that characterizes her as a pervert, or near-pervert, psychologically speaking. Prognosis is indefinite, but it is leaning toward pessimism, as far as Peggy's ability or willingness to broaden her base of sexual activity is concerned.