Case History 3
Subject: Carmen D. Age: Fourteen
INTERVIEW ONE
Carmen is dark, with long black hair and a pert smile. She is extremely charming, and extremely worried. For approximately two years, since she was twelve, Carmen has been having a lesbian affair with an older girl, Marie who is eighteen.
Carmen is at the age when she should become interested in boys and young men, and her fears that she will not, led her to a near breakdown, at which time she was referred to the clinic. The story of Carmen's liaison follows in her own words.
Well doctor, it's kind of funny. I love Marie. I think. Anyway, I cant think about a life without her. My folks don't know, of course. They woudn't understand if they did know.
I met Marie when I was twelve. She was sixteen and one of the most popular girls on the block. She had beautiful long hair and a great smile that seemed to light up the room when she flashed her teeth.
I was really a dumb little kid then. And Marie was pretty experienced. She had beenuh, brought out, I guess you'd say.
Marie was baby-sitting with me and my little brother. My mother was gone for the evening and Marie was going to sleep over. And that started it.
Juan, my brother, was in bed, and Marie and me were watching television. I don't remember what was on, but I guess it really doesn't matter. It's . . . uh, hard for me to talk about this.
So, anyway, I had noticed that Marie was looking at me funny. She had been talking and telling jokes and we'd had a wonderful time, and then it was time for bed.
The lights were off and I was in bed with my little nightie on. Marie slipped in beside me in her bra and panties. We lay there talking for a moment, and then she got down to the nitty gritty.
"Do you have a boy friend, Carmen?" Marie asked. She had a little accent, I remember. Her and my mother talked in Spanish. But I wanted to talk English. I'd told her that, and we did it all the time.
I giggled. "No," I said. "But I like Jimmy Juarez."
"Why do you like him, Carmen? Boys are really awful. They only want one thing." She moved closer in the bed and put her arm around me. It felt nice. And I didn't object. I liked it. I snuggled down next to her. I could feel her big fat breasts against my side. They were kind of hard, 'cause they were covered with her bra.
"Oh," I said, I didn't have any idea what she meant about boys. But I was really digging the feelings that were coming over me. My boobies were still small, and only beginning to develop. But the tips must have been very hard. I felt delicious.
Marie kissed the side of my face. Now, she had kissed me before, but this time it was a different kind of kiss. It wasn't a sisterly kiss at all. There was something else happening. I could feel it even though I wasn't sure what it was.
Marie kissed me. I could feel her soft lips on my cheek. "Do you like it when I kiss you?" she asked.
"Uh-huh," I said. "I like it a lot." My voice seemed small, and I was having trouble getting my breath.
"Then why don't you kiss me?" she said. I turned my face and started to kiss her cheek. But she tricked me. She moved her face and I was suddenly kissing her soft lips. They were parted and I could feel her tongue probing between them. Real quickly, I pulled back and away from her.
"What is wrong, little one?" she said softly. Her accent seemed to get stronger. "Do you not like to kiss?" She nuzzled the side of my neck, and put her other arm around me. I was pulled even closer. I could feel the ripe tits through my nightie.
"I like it," I said. My voice was real small.
"Then let me show you how to do it," she said. I turned my face toward her and was met by those thick lips. They were thick and full and tasted slightly of lipstick. I puckered up and she kissed me.
"No," she laughed. "Not so tight. Do not hold your lips closed and tight. Part them. Use your tongue against mine."
I loosened my lips, and I felt her tongue pushing in between them. I opened my mouth slightly, and suddenly Marie pulled me close to her. I could feel her entire body against me, the broad hips, the soft thighs, the big, soft breasts. I gave up then. I was really excited. I could feel the excitement centering on my crotch. But I still wasn't too sure what was happening.
Marie started undressing me. She was talking low in her throat in a tone of voice I'd never heard before.
"You are so sweet, so pretty. You have such a nice little ass. Such nice hips. And you are going to have beautiful breasts, big and full and warm, like your mother's."
I didn't know what was happening. I didn't know why she was saying all those things. Why she was saying how fragile I was, how beautiful, how young and innocent.
I was really wondering what was going on. Marie let go of me and sat up. She shoved all the covers off our bodies and sat there looking at me. She reached behind herself and unhooked her bra. It came tumbling off, and fell across my middle.
I looked at her boobs. They were huge. They seemed to hang on her chest like they were persons of their own. They were high and proud. And the area around the thick nipple was about the size of a half dollar, dark and brown. I caught my breath. It was the first time I had ever seen another woman's breasts naked.
As she looked at me, Marie raised her hands to her tits. She started to massage and tease the tit, and I saw that the little nubs were growing into full hardness. Then she reached down and began to unbutton the top of my nightie. I let her. I was so excited that I could hardly lay still. I wasn't sure what was happening, but I liked it.
Button after button came loose, and I was suddenly naked from the waist up. I didn't have on a bra. I didn't really need one very badly then. I do now, though.
Marie was looking down at me, her breasts seeming to point right at my crotch. "You have a beautiful body, little one," she said. She reached down and began to massage my tits, the same way she'd done to herself. I thought my breasts were on fire.
"Ooooohhhhh," I moaned, "what are you doing?" I asked.
Marie laughed. "That feels wonderful, doesn't it?" she said.
"Yes," I moaned again.
"Do the same for me," Marie said. I reached up and she leaned her naked breasts over me. I felt those hard nubs against my fingers and I did the same thing she was doing to me. I flicked my fingers back and forth over the tits. They responded, feeling so hot and ripe. I was so excited that I could hardly breathe.
Then, Marie moved her hands again. She reached down, and pulled at the bottoms to my nightie. I just lay there. She was stripping me naked, and I was letting her. I could hardly wait!
"Raise your beautiful hips, such wonderful, broad hips, such a full, wide, strong ass."
I hardly heard the words. I was so excited that I hardly remembers my own name. And by then, I was naked.
Marie looked down at me and smiled. "You are beautiful naked. A perfect little girl angel. A beautiful sweetness. More beautiful than I have ever seen."
Her hands moved down and she gripped my legs between the knees. Gently she parted my thighs and made me spread myself wide and open.
"That is the way," Marie whispered softly. "Always open your lovely legs for me. Open them so that I may see your beautiful pussy." She began to run her hands up the insides of my thighs, rubbing the smooth skin, bringing her thumbs into such closeness to my pussy that I thought I would die, and then, pulling them away again. I was panting.
Then, she pulled her hands away and jumped off the bed. Her panties came down, and I saw her dark, sixteen year old sex. It was covered with hair. But it was a lot like mine. I was so surprised over that. I don't know why I should have been. It seems pretty obvious that it would be the same as mine.
I stared at her hairy pussy. "That's my twat, my cunt. Can you say those words, Carmen, little Carmen?" She crawled back on the bed, staying on her knees so that her crotch was above me.
"Twat," I said. "Cunt." The words felt strange on my twelve year old lips.
My legs were still spread wide. I felt the open air on my twat, and then Marie looked at my cunt. "Such a pretty little cunt," she said. She moved her hand and traced the finger around the thick, hairless lips. "No hair yet. Such a beautiful little cunt." Her fingers continued her exploration.
I moaned and my hips rose up fast all by themselves. Up, up to meet her hand. Marie laughed. "See how the little bitch raises her twat. You are a find my little one. We are going to have a wonderful time."
Marie moved and crawled in between my naked, spread legs. Her hands began moving around at my crotch. She tickled and rubbed between my legs, rubbing my clit and pressing one long, thin finger into my hole. I moaned and writhed around on the bed. I loved it. I wanted her to do it more-MORE!
Marie's voice was coming from low in her throat. As she probed at my cunt, she leaned forward until her big breasts were hanging over my face. I looked up to see those ripe melons hanging down. The right tit brushed my lips, and two of her fingers entered my pussy.
"Suck my tit," Marie crooned. "Suck it, little one. That will bring me pleasure. Much pleasure."
I closed my eyes and opened my mouth. The hot, hard tit entered and I felt like I was coming home. I felt her fingers twisting and pulling at my twat, and I felt her begin to rub at my clit, harder and harder. These sensations were all so strange, so strange. I had never even masturbated before, so it was all new-new and wonderful.
I spread my legs as wide as they would go, and Marie seemed to go wild. Suddenly the hot tit was gone from my mouth, and she was kissing me, kissing me all over, on the face, the lips, the tits. She sucked each one for a second, making me hotter than ever.
Then she was kissing my belly. "Ah," she moaned. "So sweet and clean. No hair. Beautiful little pussy." She kissed her way down until she was kissing and licking at my cunt. I could feel her tongue tracing its wet way around the lips of my twat. I felt her licking between the folds, tasting and teasing the little clit; something that was really driving me wild.
We were both wet with sweat by this time. But who cared? I raised my hips up to her lips, feeling her tongue probing at my cunt. I could feel her licking the folds and the inner lining. In the meantime, her hands had come up, and she was pulling at my little boobs again.
I don't know how long it went on. I was really crazy by the time she looked up. I must have come. All I know is that the sensations were incredible, and that time and time again, I moaned deeply and raised my hips to her mouth.
And then she was above me again, and I was looking at those great breasts. They were beautiful. Lightly skinned with dark aureoles and hard nipples. I could see one delicate vein that ran under the fragile skin.
Marie looked at me. There was a wildness in her eyes that made me breathe harder. "Have you ever done this to yourself?" she asked. I could feel her fingers parting the folds of my cunt and probing inside.
"No," I said. It was hard to talk.
Marie smiled. "Then it is time you did, and often. I will show you something that you will like." Marie said this as she jumped off the bed, and I watched her heavy, firm ass as she went into the living room. When she came back she was carrying a big black long thing. It was shaped like a bullet.
"This will make you feel very good," Marie said. She crawled back onto the bed and in between my wide spread legs. I noticed that she was dragging her big purse with her. She dropped the purse and looked down at my twat. I had been fingering myself while she was gone. I was wet and ripe now.
"This will hurt a little at first," she said. "But then it will be heaven. Just grit your teeth, and you will know real pleasure for the first time."
I closed my eyes, and felt her doing something to my clit. It got more and more exciting as she manipulated the thing. And then I felt something at my little cunt lips. I raised my head and looked down. She had the tip of the black thing lodged between my cunt lips. It looked all shiny, like it was slick or something. I didn't know what.
Marie looked at me and grinned. "We are going to fill your belly with fun," she said. That was a funny thing to say. But she was right. I watched as she pressed that black thing forward, and I felt it entering my hole. It felt fantastic at least it did until suddenly, it seemed to be in as far as it would go.
"Now it will hurt for a moment," she said. I shut my eyes, and I felt a terrific pressure, and it did hurt. Something awful. But then, something seemed to give and I was open, open forever. I looked again and the black thing was sliding even farther into my belly.
"Ooooooohhhhh," I moaned. Marie looked up at me and smiled. Then she clicked something on the black thing and it started vibrating. I thought I was going to die. The buzzing sensation seemed to fill my body. It did things to me that I had never dreamed could be done. How had my pussy been missing that all my life? How could my twat have been empty for so long?
Marie reached down into her purse. She pulled out something that looked to be almost the same as the thing in my twat. She pressed mine forward until just the end of the eight inch thing was outside my body, and then she lay down beside me. I watched as she switched on the new one in her own hand. It was a lot longer. And she inserted it into her twat.
The sensations in my pussy were so intense that I was really almost out of my mind. There was no hint of pain now. My entire body seemed to vibrate in tune with that big vibrator. And as I watched Marie insert her own into her own twat, I knew that she was experiencing the same thing, the same wonderful thing.
When the vibrator was almost hidden in her cunt, Marie opened her arms and pulled me into them. She leaned forward and once again I kissed her thick lips, with their little taste of lipstick. I felt her soft boobs against my own immature ones, and the vibrators seemed to be crooning a song in our cunts. It was a really wonderful beginning.
INTERVIEW TWO
Well, I don't know where to start now. Shall I start off where I stopped last time, or should I go on? I don't know. I guess I pretty much covered the first time.
So, mother never did find out. She liked Marie and all she knew was that Marie had become like a bigger sister to me. I will never forget the first time. Well, it happened like this.
We were at Marie's house this time. She was alone most of the time. Her father was dead and she lived with her mother and older brother. They were gone most of the time so I used to meet her there after school, and we'd have sex and what have you.
We had been going together for most of the year. It had been six months of great sex. Vibrators and frigging each other's cunts. I was a cuntlapper by that time. And I was only thirteen years old now. Well, Marie decided that it was time for another experience for me.
When I got to her place after school, there was a boy with her. Chico was about eighteen, tall and dark skinned. His body was broad shouldered, and it looked like he might be one of those weight lifter guys. I wondered why he was there, and was a little scared when I saw him. Marie was fast to explain.
Marie came forward and put her arm around my waist. She pulled me over to where Chico was sitting. "This is my little doll," she told Chico. He laughed and looked at me. He was a very handsome man. It almost came as a surprise when Marie turned me toward her and kissed me deeply. I looked over and saw that Chico was rubbing his hands between his legs, which he had spread out wide.
Marie put her arms tight around me and ran her hands down to my ass. And I heard Chico chuckle. I looked at him and saw that he had his hands in his pants, and they were moving around. It was really weird.
"Let's lay down," Marie said softly. "Chico wants to meet you and watch us together. Won't that be nice?"
I didn't know if it would be nice or not, but there was something exciting about letting this man see what we did together. No man had ever seen me naked before. I really didn't know what to expect.
We moved to the bed. As soon as we got there, Marie started to undress me and it was only seconds before I crawled into the bed, my ass sticking up into the air. I looked at Chico. He'd moved a chair next to the bed, and he was pulling his pants off. I looked at Marie. She was stripping too. I figured she knew what she was doing, so I lay down and spread my legs, beginning to finger myself a little, like Marie had taught me to do.
Chico had his pants off. And his ass was toward me. I could hardly look away. I'd never seen a man naked before. It was going to be my first time. I wondered what was going to happen. He turned and I saw him. His thing was big and long. It was not too fat. Kind of a graceful thickness for the length. It was built like he was, tall and athletic.
Chico sat in his chair, and his hand stroked his thing. Marie crawled into the bed, her breasts hanging down. I reached for them, as she put her arms around me, and kissed me deeply. Then she pulled back and smiled.
"Look at Chico," she said quietly. "See, his dick is so long and pretty, don't you think so?"
I looked at him. I wasn't sure it was pretty.
But it sure was interesting. "It's called a prick. Can you say that, my little angel-a prick?"
"Prick!" I said, "Prick."
"That's right." Marie seemed delighted. She made me scoot down on the bed then. Chico moved his chair until it was at the foot of the bed. Marie made me spread my legs real wide so that Chico could look right at my pussy. Then she had me play with myself.
"Come on, baby. Play with your twat. Show Chico how much you like to do it."
I spread the folds of my sex, and Chico leaned forward. His hand moved on his prick. Yeah, prick! His hands moved on his prick and Marie began to massage and play with my tits as I played with myself.
"Get the fingers in," Marie told me. "Get the fingers in nice and deep, until you come, and feel Chico watching you. Hell get such pleasure from watching you. Wont you, Chico?" she asked him.
Chico nodded. He was a man of few words. I was getting all sexed up now. There was something so exciting about spreading my legs and fingering my cunt and letting this man watch while wonderful Marie played with my tits. She leaned over and I sucked one of the ripe breasts into my mouth as I played. Chico moaned his appreciation for the action.
Marie reached over to the side of the bed and pulled something out of a drawer. She leaned up and looked down at me. "We're going to try something different today. Something I know you'll like." She showed me what she had in her hand. It looked like Chico's prick. It was about the same size. And it looked just like the man's cock.
"This is a dildo," Marie said. "It's like Chico's prick. See, look at his cock."
I looked at Chico, who grinned at me, and used his fingers to hold the bottom of his prick. I looked at it and then compared it with the dildo. They were almost identical.
Marie handed me the prick. "Use this on yourself," she said. "Just like the vibrator, you know." I was so hot that I would have done anything. And I loved having Chico watch me. I held the dildo in my cunt lips and began to push it forward. That's when Chico got into the act. He slipped from his chair and knelt on the bed. His big cock hung from his hairy belly, out over my cunt. It was shining on the end. I didn't know then, that men leak. I know now, though.
He took my hand away from the dildo and began to work it into me himself. I moaned and put my arms around Marie. I felt those comfortable breasts come against my body while that strange man pressed that big dildo up into my body.
I was writhing all over. I could hardly lay still, as I felt my cunt filling with that prick-thing. "That's it, baby. It's bigger than the vibrator, isn't it? A lot bigger. You'll start to love it in a second."
I was already loving it. I moaned my appreciation, and I grabbed hold of Chico's wrist where he was beginning to work the dildo up and down, sliding it in and out of my dripping twat. Marie's hands were on my tits, using the motion that she knew drove me up the wall. And then I felt the big dildo being pulled out.
"No," I cried. "I want it, please." I felt empty. I wanted that thing up my cunt. Needed it up there.
Marie crooned to me. "It's O.K., little angel," she said. "He's going to put something much better up in there." I closed my eyes and silently cried. I felt so empty, and then, I felt the dildo at the entrance of my body. At least I thought it was the dildo. Quickly I looked down, and saw that I was wrong. It wasn't the dildo. It was Chico.
His cock was poised at the entrance to my body. "Reach down and feel his prick as it goes in," Marie whispered. I didn't have to be told twice. I wrapped my fingers around Ms wet prick, and he began to slide it into my body. I was really out of my mind as I felt that hot flesh sliding into my cunt.
Marie whispered again. "Reach under, feel his balls, feel his good nuts. Can you say balls, can you, my angel?"
"Balls," I whispered, as I gathered the big egg shaped things into my hand. "Balls."
Chico grunted and his cock moved faster. I looked again. His prick was halfway into my belly. I was really out of my mind. I was feeling filled to the brim. And the heat from his prick was fantastic.
"Chico is going to fuck you," Marie whispered. "Fuck, fuck, fuck."
"Fuck," I said. "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck."
Marie kissed my mouth and I felt her wet tongue sliding into my mouth even as I felt Chico's wet prick sliding into my belly, and then he was in. I felt his balls banging against my ass. I felt his fingers as he began to manipulate my clit. I could feel his hairy belly against me. I opened my mouth wide and kissed Marie wet and deep as Chico started fucking. I felt him pulling out of me, then pushing in again, in and out. His turgid dong pushed into my belly. I could feel the thick shaft rubbing against my little cunt lips as he fucked in and out. Remember, I was still just a thirteen year old kid. My cunt was amazingly large for someone my age. But it was still small. I felt impossibly stretched.
Chico was grunting. I felt him grip my ass and pull me up to meet his thrusts. I was instinctively fucking with him and matching his rhythm. I was good at it from the first.
"She is a good fuck," Chico said, as he continued to groan and thrust into my rising and falling belly. "She is a damn good fuck."
Marie crooned and we kissed wetly. "Of course she is. She is a wonderful fuck. Just as I knew she would be. How do you like that hot prick angel. Isn't it nice?"
I nodded. I was so out of my mind I thought I would die. Chico stabbed into me again and again. I could feel the sweat off his body as we rolled together, and then finally, he groaned, and shuddered, and his cock rammed itself home. I raised my legs and clasped them around his back, holding him in tightly, and he seemed to get bigger and bigger, and then he groaned one last long grunt, and collapsed onto me.
I felt his cock pumping and pumping. I could feel him inside me, and Marie was still squeezing my breasts. It had been an incredible first fuck for me.
So, the problem is that now that I'm turned on to men, I want to try them some more. But, since that one time, Marie won't let me. She says that she just wanted to get me fucked so I'd know how much better it was with her.
I still love her. Tell me what to do.
COMMENT:
Carmen admits to her very real lesbian desires. But she has desires just as real to experience sex with men.
Carmen is a true bi-sexual. One of the few we have found at this clinic. She can get her satisfaction from both sexes. Carmen is well on .the way to accepting this situation and making a fine adjustment.