Case History:
Linda
Linda was twenty-nine years old when her career of exhibitionism came to an end. She was arrested in her home for lewd conduct. Several of her neighbors had reported her when they discovered she was exhibiting herself to their fifteen-and sixteen-year-old sons in her own home. The boys were friends of Linda's sixteen-year-old daughter, who, according to the record, was involved but not charged. When the facts were known her daughter, Chris, was taken away from her by the state and placed in a home for girls.
I was contacted by her attorney to act as a consultant, in the hope that my information and conclusions would be of some help in her trial. Following are those parts of my various interviews with Linda that I consider germane to our subject, exhibitionism.
Q. Tell me, Linda, just what did you do to get into trouble?
A. Messing around with those young boys, I guess.
Q. What do you mean, messing around?
A. Well ... I had them in the house and...
Q. Yes-go on, Linda. I'm on your side, remember? You can tell me everything.
A. Well, these three boys were friends of my daughter's and I had them in the house....
Q. How old were the boys, Linda?
A. Two of them were sixteen and one was fifteen, I think.
Q. All right, how did you get them into your house, or did your daughter bring them in?
A. She actually brought them in, but I guess I talked her into it.
Q. Did you tell her to bring them in, and was this the first time?
A. They were there, what difference does it make?
Q. Calm down, Linda. Everything is all right.
Why don't you tell me what happened while they were in the house?
A. Well, Chris brought them in, and they were sitting in the front room drinking pop and eating popcorn when I came home from work.
Chris said, "Hi," when I came in the door, and I said, "Hi," in return. I was looking at these three beautiful young guys she had with her. I've always had a thing for young boys, for some reason. Anyway I went to the kitchen and got myself a beer and joined them in the front room.
The boys seemed a little embarrassed, so I started asking them questions. "Do you boys live around here?" They said they did live nearby.
I don't understand why I have to go into all of this.
Q. Linda, your attorney is trying to do the best he knows how to defend you. You are paying him to do a job, and that's what he is trying to do. You are charged with a very serious thing, lewd behavior with minor children, and if I were you I would cooperate. Not a word of what you tell me will go any further than your lawyer, I give you my word!
After talking with her a while longer, I convinced Linda that she could trust me explicitly. I then ask her to continue with her narrative and tell me exactly what took place in her house that fateful day.
"Well, I talked with the boys awhile, and they finally relaxed and started to enjoy themselves. Then I asked them if they would like to see some real wild magazines. They were really eager for that, so I dug out some nudist magazines I had stashed away and gave them to them.
"Chris was wise to what I was doing, but she acted like she had never seen them.
"While they were looking at the books I said I would get some more better ones and went into the bedroom. Once in the bedroom I adjusted the door so it was only open about three inches, turned on all the lights, and started to undress.
"After I was naked I moved a chair to the far side of the room just opposite the door. If anyone stood in the hallway, in front of the door, they could see the chair completely. I then sat on the chair and started to masturbate. I sat with my feet flat on the chair and faced the door-that way if you looked in you could look right up my genitals. I didn't stick my finger into it, I just rubbed my clitoris, on top.
"The stage was set, so I coughed a few time. That was a signal to Chris.
"When Chris heard my cough she told the boys she wondered why I was taking so long and that maybe they should go see what happened. The boys agreed and followed her to the hallway.
"The first thing they saw was the partly opened door, and walking toward it they could see me immediately. Of course, they stopped dead in their tracks when they saw a nude woman playing with herself, through the door.
"I could hear them making comments and chuckling, so I knew they were watching me. For some reason that really turns me on when I know some boys are watching me finger my hole. I started going faster and faster, and in no time I reached an orgasm. I just put my feet down on the floor and sort of collapsed. When I did that I could hear them running back to the front room.
"After calming down a bit I put on a robe and walked through the front room and on into the kitchen. I decided I needed another beer after the exciting experience I just had.
"I took my beer and sat in a chair in front of the boys sitting on the couch, and I was very careless with my robe as I did so. I could see the boys blushing, and looking between their legs F could see bulges they couldn't hide. Knowing they were erected from seeing me, I started to get turned on again!
"I just sat there eating popcorn talking with them for a while, and Chris was very much alive in the conversation. Finally I managed to swing the talk around to a sexual vein. I asked them about their girlfriends and whether they had ever seen a girl without her clothes on. They started to blush again, and I was having a ball watching their nervousness.
"Then I dropped the bombshell-I told them I knew they had peeked in on me when I was in the bedroom! I said, 'Don't be upset. I didn't mind you looking at me. Would you like to see more?'
"They didn't answer, and I thought that any boy would like to look at a naked woman. How wrong I was!
"I stood up and opened my robe, exposing my lush, full body in all its splendor. Their response was unbelievable! They jumped up and ran right out the front door!
"Well, one boy started asking his father about women, and he finally told him about the incident at my house. His father called the other boys' parents, and they all called the police, and here I am!"
Linda was a well proportioned, young-looking twenty-nine-year-old brunette. She came from an upper-middle-class family, and she was well educated and quite sophisticated. Her father was a hardworking manufacturer's representative and he was generous in his support of his family, which consisted of his wife, his daughter, Linda, and his son, Larry, who was one year older than Linda. Linda did quite well in school, graduating from high at the age of seventeen, immediately after which she married. I was later to discover that it was a marriage of necessity rather than love, since she was pregnant at the time.
The next interview I present concerns her earlier sex life and experiences. I have eliminated much of the superfluous information and dialogue, leaving the pertinent facts and incidents.
Linda had a more or less normal sex growth until the age of thirteen. She had started to masturbate at that age and did have an encounter with an older boy prior to the following incident. She describes this incident in this narrative, however.
"I remember the boy who lived in the apartment next to us, when I was thirteen years old. His name was Jeff, and he was fifteen years old. He was a handsome boy, with a deep suntan. His body was well developed, since he enjoyed physical exercise and all the sports. He used to do pushups and things out in the backyard, and I used to watch him. I think I was smitten with puppy love, because I really liked him. He didn't run me off like the other boys; he was just a nice kid.
"He had a friend named Luis, who was half-Mexican. He was as good-looking as Jeff, but in a different way. He was shorter and had a nice olive-colored, smooth skin and black hair. He was as athletic as Jeff; in fact, they played in all the sports together.
"Luis used to come over to Jeff's house every day to play with him. Jeff's mother had passed away and his father would let them do just about anything. Jeff's father didn't get home from work until about five o'clock in the evening, so they had a few hours to mess around.
"This one afternoon I heard them laughing in the bedroom when I walked by the open window. There was some boxes under the window, so I climbed up to peek in on them. I really saw a show!
"They used to wrestle with each other all the time, and that's what they were doing when I looked in the window. The only difference was they were in their undershorts! Just as I looked in Luis said, "OK, down with the shorts!'
"As I watched they pulled off their shorts and were on the bed stark naked. Up to this time I had only had glimpses of my brother's genitals, so this was extremely interesting to me.
"Luis was exceptionally endowed in the physical area that separates the boys from the girls, and I really scrutinized his large organ as it started to grow larger. I remember noticing how big his ball bag was and how it hung down so far. Jeff was built just about the same way.
"Both of their things were getting bigger, and I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Then they started to look at some magazines, and as they did they started pulling up and down on their stiff organs. Then I heard Luis say, 'Let me play with yours and you can play with mine, Jeff.'
"Jeff said, 'Boss,' and they grabbed each other's penises.
"I watched them for a while, and when I saw the way their balls were bouncing up and down with each stroke I started to giggle.
"Luis looked up and saw my rosy face peering in the window, between the half-drawn Venetian blind.
"I remember thinking what strange creatures boys are. I had seen my brother's thing but it just hung down and it was nowhere the size of these. I remembered that I had seen hard ones before, but that was a long time ago. Unconsciously my hand had gone between my legs and started to rub the little button on top of my hole, and it felt so good it made me giggle.
" 'Linda, you shouldn't be watching us,' said Jeff. 'Go away.'
" 'Can't I come in and play with you guys?' I asked. " 'No, go away,' said Luis.
" 'I'll tell on you if you don't let me come in,' I threatened.
"They decided that I meant business, so Jeff jumped out of bed and headed for the door. As soon as he opened it I pushed right in and in so doing I brushed against his erect penis.
"Luis had joined us at the door, and I just stood there staring in wide-eyed fascination at the two beautiful, naked boys.
" 'Come on, let's go back into the bedroom,' Luis said excitedly. We did, and we all jumped into the king-size bed.
"Even at that young age I felt a sort of satisfaction and confidence being alone with these two handsome, naked boys. I began to get a peculiar feeling between my legs.
" 'Come on, Linda, you gotta take your clothes off too,' said Luis. T want to see what you look like.'
"I stood up on the bed and took off my blouse. The boys really stared at my small, cherry-size titties. Their organs stiffened at the sight. Then I pushed my shorts down and stood there in my panties.
" 'Haven't you guys ever seen a naked girl before?' I asked, rubbing my hands over my breasts.
" 'No,' the boys answered in unison.
"This excited me all the more. Then I got an idea.
" 'You guys will have to take off my panties if you want them off,' I said.
"With that they boys grabbed me and threw me down onto the bed. It was great fun, the boys trying to touch my little titties, and I had no difficulty in touching their dicks and balls. In fact, they were unaware I was doing it. Finally Luis was playing with my breasts and I grasped his dick in my hand. Jeff, meanwhile, was pulling off my panties.
"A hot surge pulsed through my body when I realized I was totally nude and that a boy was scrutinizing my pink lips of young womanhood.
"Jeff was enthralled, and he just stared between my thighs. I lifted one leg and then the other and spread my knees far apart, affording Jeff a full view.
"Luis straddled my chest and his balls were flowing between my tits. I reached out and started to fondle his king-size, fifteen-year-old cock and testicles. I was lifting up his ball bag and letting it drop onto my nipples. I had never played with such large balls, and I could feel the heat generated by his stiff, pulsating manhood.
"Taking advantage of our preoccupation, Jeff started exploring. He reached out and touched my rosy lips with the inborn fascination all males have for the female genitals. He separated the lips, and I knew he could see my well-moistened inner lips and passageway.
"I certainly wasn't unaware of Jeff's exploration with his hands and fingers, and I began to feel an urge and sensation that I had never realized in the past. I felt certain things and feelings when I used my finger there but never anything as intense as this. It caused me to squirm and twist around on the bed.
" 'Did you ever see anything like this, Luis?' Jeff asked.
"Luis climbed off my chest and moved down to where Jeff was playing. His reaction was same as Jeff's. Both of them gripped their cocks and started going up and down on their hardness.
" 'Do you guys like what you see?' I asked.
" 'Boy, it's boss!' Luis said excitedly, and Jeff agreed.
"Suddenly I sat up and said, 'Come on, you guys, sit up here at the end of the bed with me so I can look at you, too.' They complied and moved up with me.
" 'Gee, you boys sure have big ones, even bigger than either of my brothers. Can I touch them?' I asked.
"Luis looked at Jeff and said, 'Do you think it would be all right, Jeff?'
" 'I guess so,' Jeff answered. 'I'll let her if you will. I've never had a girl touch mine before!' Luis said he hadn't either.
"While they were talking they were looking at my body and pumping away on their dicks, and I asked, 'Why do you boys do that? Does it feel good?'
"Together they answered, 'Yeah.'
" 'Can girls do it?' asked Luis.
" 'Girls don't have nice things to hold in their hands like boys, you know that! It feels good when we rub our holes, though,' I answered.
" 'How do you do that?' asked Luis.
" 'I'll show you,' I said, feeling important since I was the center of attraction with these boys, and their interest in me was so strong. Until then I always thought that boys had no interest in girls, but I sure found out otherwise! I was having sensual feelings throughout my body that you wouldn't believe. My young sex opening was wet with arousal. I eagerly put my feet on the bed, as I had done when Jeff was down looking at my genitals, and spread my legs apart. Then I put my middle finger on my moist lips and started rubbing up and down, finally pressing my finger in and out of the top of the lips, sliding it over my clitoris.
"When my clitoris was erected I spread my lips open and said, 'See this little thing sticking up? Well that little bump is what feels so good when I rub it. I started massaging it again and the boys were really jacking their things wildly. They were watching me and I was watching them and we were all going to town on ourselves. I think I came very close to my first orgasm in those few moments.
"Suddenly, I broke the spell and the rhythm of our actions when I stopped abruptly and asked, 'Why don't you guys let me play with your things?'
"They stopped and sat there panting for a few seconds; then Luis said, 'OK, go ahead,' and dropped his hand from his rod.
"Now it was my turn to investigate a cock. I moved around to where I was close to his red, engorged instrument and my eyes devoured every detail. Slowly I reached out and touched the heart-shaped head and it jumped on contact. His stomach muscles tightened when I ran my ringers down the length of the thick shaft and over his balls. I cupped his bag of balls in my hand and rolled the balls back and forth in their container. Then I moved my hand up and clasped his cock with it. I can't begin to describe the feel of a big, hot cock that's so hard it seems as if the skin is going to pop around its head.
" 'Boy!' I exclaimed. 'Nothing feels as good as a dick and balls. I wish I had the same equipment to play with! It's so beautiful and smooth, Luis. It's the nicest one I've ever seen!'
" 'You mean you've seen other dicks?' he asked.
" 'Welllll ... I've seen some, but they were smaller,' I replied.
"They were both interested now. The attention was again mine. Luis asked me who I saw.
"I see my seventeen-year-old brother a lot,' I told him. 'He walks around a lot without his clothes on, and he doesn't seem to care if I see him. One time, when I walked into his room, he was standing, naked, with his back to me. I started to leave quick, but he heard me and turned around. "What's the matter, Sis?" he said. "I don't care if you see me. What do you think of this?" He put his hand under his balls and lifted everything up. It was the first good look at a boy's thing I ever had. Another time I caught him playing with it and he even asked me if I wanted to touch it. I did, and it was very exciting to me. I really could look at it then. He has a nice one but it's not nearly as big as yours, Luis, or yours either, Jeff.'
" 'Why don't you jack off both of us, Linda?' asked Jeff.
"I didn't know what he meant and I told him so.
" 'You know, pump your hand up and down on our pricks.'
"So I started masturbating both boys.
"Suddenly Luis started to squirm and twist on the bed. I couldn't figure out what was happening; in fact, I thought I was hurting him, so I stopped.
" 'Please don't ... don't ... stop, Linda, do it!' he panted.
"So I got hold of it again, ignoring Jeff, and started jacking like hell.
" T think I'm going to shoot something out,' he said quickly.
"I didn't know what was going to happen, but I wanted to get a good look so I moved between his legs, never stopping my action on his cock. I put my face close to his hot organ and increased my pumping action, enjoying the way his balls were springing and bouncing.
" T want to see too,' said Jeff, as he reached out and started to fondle Luis's testicles.
"Luis was totally unaware of anything around him; in fact, he appeared to be on the verge of fainting. He just lay on his back, arms flung wide, groaning, panting, and squirming.
"In a short while he started muttering things like, 'Don't stop ... it's driving me nuts ... oh man ... don't ... stop ... it's ... come ... coming.'
"I was working intently and I began to feel the organ pulsating, expanding and contracting, as the blood surged in and out of it. I could feel a sensual excitement travel through my own body as I enjoyed this new experience.
"Then Luis emitted a loud, low groan, and out spurted his sperm!
"The first eruption shot right into my face, and then there were ten or fifteen smaller squirts that followed. I just sat there staring in awe, still gripping the wet penis, his come trickling onto my hand and dripping off my face.
"That scene was very enlightening to a young girl such as myself. I know knew the function of the male penis, as far as sex was concerned. I never forgot that afternoon, and I never will!
"Finally, when I came to my senses, I said, 'I'll get some toilet paper, Luis, and clean up the mess,' and I climbed off the bed. Both boys watched my pink bottom as I walked to the bathroom. I knew it was cute because I'd looked in my mirror at home. I had nice dimples in each cheek that were very pronounced when I walked. When I came back into the room they watched my little tits bounce and vibrate.
"I proceeded to gently wipe the spendings from Luis's penis, balls, and hair. Watching me walking, and my handling of his cock, had caused it to start growing again. It amused me and I was flattered that I could do this.
"Meanwhile Jeff was behind me investigating my rear. That kid should have been a doctor! He spread the cheeks of my ass open so he could see my tiny rectum hole. He poked a finger in it and that made me jump.
" 'Stop that, Jeff!' I said angrily.
" 'I was only looking,' he said, sounding a little hurt.
"After cleaning up the mess I stood up on the bed. Their eyes were all over my body, and their cocks were really on the rise. They were looking at me so intensely I decided to give them a show. I jumped to the floor and started dancing around the room, rubbing my titties and the rest of my body.
"I was beginning to sense the sexual power of a woman as I watched the boys pumping away on their cocks while they watched my movements. It delighted me to know that I could create so much desire in boys.
" 'You sure have a pretty butt, Linda,' Jeff said, so I turned my back to them and bent way over and looked at them from between my legs. I had done this in front of my mirror, so I knew they could see my anus and my open sex hole. I straightened up and turned around. They continued to whip their meat, staring at my pink lips, partly open from excitement, and at the hint of hair above my lips.
" 'Do you guys like me?' I asked coyly.
"They both answered yes, and Jeff told me to get back on the bed. I climbed between them while they continued to jack off.
"They started going all over my body looking at every wrinkle and crevice. Finally they each tried to get their dicks into me, but I squirmed too much, teasing, so they just beat their cocks until they shot, and then I went home.
"Boys that age will always show the interest that these boys showed, and I have never had a mature man show the same wild, fascinated interest. I guess that's why I always pick young ones!"
Q. Did you start to exhibit yourself after that?
A. No, I never really thought too much about it. I had a few other encounters with boys, playing around like I did with Jeff and Luis. Each time I did this, though, I guess the idea that my body could turn a boy on grew stronger, and I enjoyed it more.
Q. Can you remember the first occasion when you purposely exposed your body to a person or persons, with that intent in mind?
A. I don't think I really can. ... Wait a minute, yes I believe I do remember the first time.
Q. Why don't you tell me about, Linda? I consider it a very important piece in the puzzle of your sexual problem. Just relate it to me in your own words.
"Well, I was sixteen at the time. We lived in an apartment on the second floor. The building next door was, ah, about ten feet away. Our bathroom was exactly adjacent to the one next door, I even think the windows, which went just about to the floor, were the same size. Both bathtubs were right in front of the windows. I wonder why they always put bathtubs right in front of the window. Anyway I was taking a bath one night when I heard someone next door running water into their tub. It was a hot summer night and the windows were open, that's how I could hear the water. I heard this noise and out of natural curiosity, I peeked out of the side of the shade.
"What I saw startled me for a second, but then it started to interest me. Right in front of my eyes was a beautiful specimen of young manhood, about sixteen, in his shorts bending over the tub, adjusting the water. I guess he forgot to pull down the shade! There were thin curtains over the window but I could still see him clearly.
"After he got the water adjusted and running he left the room. I don't know what came over me, but something clicked in my mind and I started acting immediately. I wondered what his dick would look like if I got it hard, so I lifted my shade and stood there in the tub waiting for him to come back. Then the idea hit me that me might chicken out if he saw me right away so I stepped out of the tub and turned the light off. I stood out of the tub waiting.
"Sure enough, in a little while he came back, without his shorts on! I couldn't have asked for more. He had a good-looking piece of meat hanging between his hairy legs, and a nice full bag of balls rolling beneath it.
"He bent over the tub and turned the water off and then went over to the toilet. This excited me because I had hardly ever watched a guy urinate. He grabbed his limp dick in his hand and peed a big stream, shook it a bit and then climbed into the tub.
"I know it sounds silly but I did enjoy watching him go to the toilet, it looked so masculine.
"After he was in the tub I decided what I was going to do. I waited until he was settled in the tub, in fact he just sat relaxing for a while, and I turned the light on. My light going on suddenly caught his eye immediately, of course. Without looking toward his window directly I walked over to the mirror on the medicine cabinet and acted like I was looking at my face. I opened the cabinet door a little bit and at the right angle I could see into the other bathroom.
He was looking right at me! The minute I saw that I felt a shock between my legs, and my nipples stiffened right up!
"Still not looking at his window I walked to the tub and climbed in. Now we were sitting side by side ten feet apart! I knew he could see my tits, so I took my washrag and started to soap them. I was getting so hot I could hardly sit still! Finally I put one hand on my pussy and soaped my titties with the other. I had quite a pair of breasts for thirteen. My nipples were the outstanding thing. They are large, and when they get hard they really protrude. Those who have seen them have told me that they are pretty darn sexy.
"I could see his left arm going back and forth but his hand was down in the tub. I didn't need a telegram to tell me what he was doing! I realized that I had heated him up to the point of jacking off, and I thought, what a sexy gal you are, Linda.
"I stood up then, and looking out of the corner of my eye I could see right into his tub. There was his big cock sticking out of the water, and he was really beating it to death!
"I picked up the soap and started to soap my body, from my titties to .my knees, stopping a long time between my legs. I turned around so he could see my butt and then put the soap between the cheeks, and I could feel my cheeks shaking as I pumped the soap in and out. Then I turned around again, sort of at an angle, so he could see most of the front of me, and without the soap started rubbing my pussy.
"I glanced out of the corner of my eye again, and I could see his hand going faster and faster on his swelled member. As I watched him it happened. His cock erupted into the air and he groaned like a dying man. He sure shot a big load!
My nude body had made him demonstrate the beautiful function of the male animal, and I was so hot I sat down, rinsed myself off, got out of the tub, dried, and practically ran to my bed. Once in bed I masturbated until I was weak. I bet I came five times before I stopped and went to sleep."
That incident seems to have been the awakening of Linda's desire to exhibit herself. Her escapades increased from that time on. Her story from this point is, you might say, only typical of the exhibitionistic group to which she belongs, until she involved her daughter in her exploits when the girl was eleven years old.
Linda had managed to keep her daughter clear of any of her sexual endeavors until a certain day when her daughter brought home a fourteen-year-old boy. I will use Linda's transcript to present the incident to you in her own words.
"I was in the kitchen, cleaning up the dinner dishes, when Cris came bursting into the house with her new friend. He was a nice-looking boy named Ian. She introduced us, and they went into the front room to watch television.
"I had been exhibiting myself for quite a few years, prior to that evening; in fact, you could seriously call me a professional exhibitionist. But one thing I always made certain of was that Cris was never involved. Actually, she didn't even know about my actions.
"I had this continual desire to exhibit myself and if I didn't do it for an extended period of time I almost went crazy with desire. I was in that condition when Cris brought this well-built, handsome young man home. He turned me on the moment I saw him. I just about dropped several dishes I was washing, I was so shook up.
Finally something happened inside me and I lost all control, and I abandoned all precaution. Rushing into the bedroom, I stripped myself naked and put on a sort of mini-shift. It was quite thin, and if you had any light behind you, you showed off your body. I then walked back into the living room, very nonchalant, and sat across from the two children. They were drinking lemonade and asked me if I wanted some. I said no, but that gave me an idea, so I got a beer from the fridge. I had been drinking beer all evening, and I guess I wasn't feeling any pain-all I was feeling was a hot box!
"I started talking to Ian about how many girlfriends he had, and that sort of thing, until I finally led up to the sex bit. Cris seemed a little disturbed but, surprisingly, not as much as I would have suspected, so I continued this line of discussion.
"After my second can of beer I brazenly asked him if he had ever seen a naked girl. He blushed a little but didn't seem too upset. Finally I said, 'Why don't you answer me, Ian?'
" 'Well ... yes, I've seen a naked girl,' he answered hesitantly.
He told me it was his little sister, and that made me feel more excited because I was afraid he had been doing things with older girls and that would spoil it for me, a little bit.
"After a while we got down to the nitty gritty. While I was talking to him I had allowed my shift to shift, up my legs, that is. He could see right up my twat, and he was really looking! I spread my legs so he could get a real good look. Then my eyes happened to shift to Cris and I was really startled when I saw that she too had allowed her miniskirt to crawl up to her waist, practically. Poor Ian didn't know which way to look.
"We talked and fooled around like that for about a half hour and I could see the bulge, larger than I expected to see on a fourteen-year-old, in his crotch, and I just stood up and asked him if he would like to see a naked woman!
"He said yes so loud it startled me. I told him to sit still a minute and told Cris to follow me. We went into the bedroom and I started talking to Cris. I told her that I wanted to show her how to handle a boy and also what sex was about. I had peeked in on her in her bedroom and caught her masturbating several times, so I knew she had things on her mind. She was all for it, so I told her to take all of her clothes of and put on a robe. I did the same, and we went back into the living room with Ian.
"After some more conversation, it ended up with Cris and myself taking off the robes and we finally talked Ian into taking his clothes off! What a boy! He had a dick bigger than most men! Anyway we all felt each other's bodies, and then I let Ian screw me, with Cris watching.
"I was very much ashamed about what I had done, but it was done and there wasn't anything I could do about it. From that time on, though, Cris and I worked together. She would get the boys to the house and then we would go to work on them.
"One thing I am sorry for, though, and that is I let one of the boys screw her, a while back. I guess I was so drunk I didn't really realize what was going on. She says she asked me if it was all right and that I told her yes, but I was so busy screwing another boy I just don't remember.
"Anyway, we lived like that for about a year until I got caught, and here I am, at the mercy of the court. I guess I deserve everything that's coming to me. I do feel ashamed and I certainly wish I could have had help before things went this far."
It's obvious that alcohol was one of Linda's major problems but not the problem, by any means. It has always been my contention that the problem is not the drinking, but that people usually drink because of the problem!
Linda's sexual preoccupation with adolescent boys is a digression to early childhood. As I stated earlier in this case, Linda became pregnant and was forced to marry, so love never actually entered into her life. She wasn't the most beautiful girl around; in fact, she tended to be a bit homely. All these factors, and some not mentioned, forced her to seek acceptance in younger boys, since she felt very inadequate as far as mature males were concerned. She had learned at an early age that she could attract a boy by exposing herself, so she reverted to this tactic to satisfy her desire to be wanted.
It is encouraging that she is aware that she has a problem and that something should be done about it, and also that she is remorseful. With proper therapy I am convinced that she can become an acceptable, "normal" acting person in our society.