Chapter 2
It is easy to understand why a person does what he does when we know his past history. The incidents which color his conduct are strung together and the emotional links are exposed that form a chain-of-conduct This is especially true in the second case history of a beautiful, young woman who had developed a "sucking compulsion".
Children usually begin to achieve sexual maturity in their teens. These changes are accompanied by sexual feelings which often upset the adolescent. Usually, as a child, he could trust his physical, feelings as the body demanded. However, when adolescent sexual urges hit him he finds himself caught up in a web of strong sensual desire, but chained to the rules of the adult society governing adolescent sexuality.
Confusion and frustration set in when his parents often refuse to offer him a guideline to establishing his sexual identity. Propelled by all the sex propaganda in our sex-satiated society he is driven to express himself sexually at his first possible chance.
When there is so much hypocrisy and contradiction concerning an acceptable moral standard for youth sex he is often forced to find his own answers and often this involves sexual outlets that are not satisfactory.
Joyce was in the fifth grade when a man approached her on the way home from school. The man had been drinking and came at her, frightening her so greatly she ran into an alley. He pursued her. When she was cornered he proceeded to unzip his pants and take out his penis. She was petrified with fear. He held it out and told her to suck it. He lit a match before her eyes. With fear flashing through her she finally consented to suck on him.
He held her head firmly until he had unloaded his hot sperm in her young mouth. She collapsed and the man ran away. When some school mates found her she was hysterical.
Her parents managed to get her to reveal all that had happened but they were unable to locate the molester who had tortured her young mind.
Her parents warned her about going near strange men and through their own anger planted in her a fear of all men.
When she began developing physically she had a fully endowed sexual appeal at fifteen. Her 36-24-36 measurements caught the eyes of the boys who couldn't help notice her. All this was normal, but, Joyce had never been able to erase her single fellatio encounter as a child. Now she was possessed with an obsession to look at the male genitals.
A neighbor who lived next door became the object of her fascination. Harry had kidded with her a lot about sex and she played shy and hard-to-get. But he'd turned her on and she was anxious to see his genitals and do for him what she'd done for that drunken molester in the dark alley so many years before.
One night she looked across her bedroom window and upstairs she could see Harry undressing. Watching him in fascination she wished for the moment when he'd strip bare naked so she could see his penis. She explained it this way:
I don't understand it myself. But I was hung-up on the male genitals. I had to see the penis again. Perhaps it was some dark memory lurking in the corner of my mind from that horrible first encounter. I don't know. But I did want to see Harry's penis so much.
Finally he pulled off his shorts and I saw his peter hanging there. I wanted to suck him right then and there. It drove me out of my mind. Night after night I began watching for him to undress. When he'd sleep in his shorts I was disappointed because I couldn't look at his cock.
One day I thought of a way to make contact.
"Harry," I called out, when he was starting off for school. "Wait up for me."
I was glad he smiled at me. "Sure, come on."
As we walked to school I suggested we might do our homework together. He scratched his head, kind of surprised I'd suggest we get together. He wasn't real handsome or anything but he did have a big prick and that was what was pulling me to him.
This worked alright until we went to the drive-in show together. When he tried kissing me my hand reached down for his prick. I felt him pull away. I guess I scared him. I pressed my lips tighter to his and slipped my tongue in his mouth and began Frenching. This got him so hot he let me put my hand back on his cock and he moved closer. Slowly I unzipped him and pulled it out. I stroked it and instantly he was rigid. When I got him nice and hard I pulled my mouth away from his and bent over his cock. He didn't protest. I licked the head of it softly and then slowly inched it inside my mouth. I licked with swift up and down movements. I knew he'd beg for it before long. Sure enough he was panting for it.
"Oh, do it to me," he begged. "Do it. Do it." I slipped my mouth over his cock and began sucking him off.
"Suck me ... oh, suck me," he groaned. I was really enjoying myself. Memories of that first cock I sucked flashed before me. I wanted his hot cream.
Harry kept pushing it in and finally he shot me his load. I loved the delicious salty taste of it. In my excitement I pulled out his balls and licked on them too. He was really turned on. He pulled me up to him again and kissed me over and over.
"I love you. I love you," he whimpered.
You know I think he meant it. I really do. And at that time I think I was in love with Harry.
"Will you suck me off again?" he begged.
I went back to his prick and it was still rigid, hard, anxious. Bending over I put my mouth over his cock and sucked eagerly.
"Suck it, suck it, suck it off," he begged. Again I went up and down, letting him thrust his penis to the back of my throat. For a moment I thought I'd gag on his cock but I dug it. My pussy tickled. I reached down and began diddling. He saw me. He pushed my hand aside, and slipped his hand inside my pussy and diddled me with his finger. I loved it. I sucked faster on his prick and he shot his load again. This time his cum wasn't as thick as the first time but he still had plenty of hot jissum in his balls. His hand action on my pussy brought me to climax. I shot my wad.
"Ohhhh, God, I love it," I gasped. He was really happy over our finding each other.
"I love you, Harry ... we had beautiful sex. Kids can fuck too."
"You better believe it," he laughed. "How about you and me Saturday night?"
Saturday night came and Harry and I went to a deserted park and found a big tree that almost covered us from view.
"Let's undress," he pleaded.
"What if somebody comes here?" I demanded.
"Nobody will ever find us here. I want to see you." Seeing how horny anxious he was, I agreed. When my titties fell out of my bra he just stared. I'll never forget his eyes.
"Can I lick 'em?"
"Why not?" I giggled. He bent over and licked on them like a new-born baby. I loved the feel of his hot tongue.
He had gotten so turned on with my titties he hadn't finished stripping and I was dying to look at his pecker.
"Don't get so turned on you forget to undress," I laughed. He looked down at his pants and shook his head. He undid his belt, unzipped and pulled off his pants.
"Pull my shorts down," he asked.
I pulled them down and his peter jumped up.
"Wow!" I exclaimed.
"You sure do dig cocks," he chuckled. "I'm glad you dig mine."
"Pull my panties off," I told him. He gladly reached over and stripped me. Looking at my pussy in awe, he bent over and licked my pussy lips.
"Mmmmmm, good," I laughed, "Let me eat you now."
"I'm horny to stick it up your cunt," he insisted.
"No," I almost shrieked at him. I don't know why I got so angry. Maybe it was fear of my parents finding out. Maybe it was that awful fear of having a baby when you don't want one. Whatever it was I refused him.
"Okay, okay," he calmed me. "Quiet down. Somebody else is probably screwing under one of these trees. This is known as Pussy Park."
"I'm sorry," I said, tears starting to come to my eyes.
"Nothing to be sorry about," he said softly. "You eat my cock and I'll eat your pussy. Is that a deal?"
"That's a deal," I smiled quietly. He angled his body till his mouth met my pussy. His hot tongue licked gently away at my pussy-lips and I bent over till I lined up with his joy stick.
Gripping the big cock in my hand gave me a feeling of power, of joy I never knew before. I stroked it till he got even harder. I ran my hand inside his thighs. Licking his balls excited him even more.
"Damnit, suck me," he laughed. "I'll go off with your tongue exciting me like that. Now, put your mouth around it so you can eat me when I shoot my wad."
I hastily wrapped my mouth around his hard dick. He rammed it anxiously down my throat as his tongue slipped in my pussy and began licking.
"Ohhhhhh, I dig that," I gasped. "I dig it."
"Get your mouth back over my rod," he panted.
Again I plunged his pecker into my mouth and went on sucking.
"Suck, suck me off," he commanded. His mouth returned to my pussy and he licked hungrily all around it.
When his tongue stabbed up my cunt I got wild sensations I never knew existed.
"Ohhhhh, keep that up," I begged.
"Will you get your mouth back on my dick?" he pleaded. "I'm almost there."
Slipping my mouth swiftly back on his continuously thrusting cock, I kept eating away at his pecker. Our tempo began matching each other's thrusts. I threw my pussy in his face with the matching force of his cock thrusting down my throat. Synchronized sucking.
Then he shot his hot lava down my throat.
"Ohhhhhh," he groaned. "Suck my cock. Suck it." His mouth went back to my gushing pussy and he licked eagerly as I gave him a good load too.
When we finished eating each other, he said, "On target."
"What?" I laughed.
"You know ... mutual orgasm."
"You know a lot about sex, don't you?"
"I've watched my dad and mom screwing," he chuckled.
"Do they do this?"
"Sure," he laughed. "They like to sixty-nine."
"Sixty-nine?"
"Yes, that's what they call it when they go down on each other and they try to make it at the same time."
"You're a nice kid to watch your folks fuck."
"How else you gonna' learn? Dad sure as hell won't tell me and I'm not going to say, 'Mother, may I?'"
We got dressed and got out of there. After that we made it all the time. I still didn't dig the idea of him ramming his cock up my cunt so we continued sucking each other.
When he turned eighteen he went to junior college. I knew I wouldn't see so much of him because he drove clear to the other side of town. This frightened me. I wanted him for my own lover and with all the women in college screwing up a storm I didn't know how I could hang onto him.
He came back to see me after a couple weeks in college and we were both a little past eighteen.
"How would you like to go to a party?" he asked slyly.
"Sure," I nodded, anxious to have any association with him.
"It's an unusual kind of party," he hedged.
"Unusual?"
"Well, yes, I mean ... "
"Don't beat around the bush," I told him flatly. "They're showing kids who screw each other right on the covers of big magazines. I know what goes on in colleges."
"Yes," he smiled. "It does involve screwing."
He didn't explain anymore because I told him he didn't have to. Anyway, a week later on a Saturday night he picked me up and drove me over to the fraternity house where he was living. He parked the car and asked me one more time, "Are you sure you want to go through with this?"
"Of course, I'm sure," I told him.
When I got inside the fraternity house I saw banners hanging all over the place. The shades were all drawn and the young men were drinking. Harry handed me a glass.
"I don't drink," I told him.
"Tonight you drink," he insisted. I gulped the awful tasting stuff down and it made me feel all warm inside. I asked for another and he quickly gave it to me. Four drinks later everything was a little blurry around the edges, but, I was totally uninhibited and when I was ushered into the huge old living room of the frat house and saw all the boys bare ass naked I didn't get upset.
"Better take off your clothes," Harry said, starting to strip himself. So, I just began undressing, thinking nothing of it. The drinks had dulled any sense of embarrassment. I began taking quick glances at the boys and I never saw so many hard dicks in my life. My eyes moved slowly to study them. I took in their slim athletic bodies, broad chests, muscular legs and thighs. Finally my eyes rested on their penises.
The fraternity initiation ceremonies began with the pledges pushing apples across the floor with their noses. Watching their muscular bodies strain as they pushed the apples was hilarious. To keep them moving the frat members would whip their bare buttocks with small whips.
All kinds of physical exercises in the raw were demanded. And then Harry stepped forward and the boys listened eagerly to what he had to say.
"Boys," he began, "tonight we're going to have a special treat. We got a nice chick here to entertain us, each one of us."
The boys applauded and looked in my direction.
"Joyce gives the best blow jobs in town. She's the original purple pecker eater."
The boys broke up laughing.
"I'm first." Again the boys laughed loud and long. I eagerly walked over to Harry and dropped to my knees. It had been so long since I'd sucked him off I couldn't wait.
They closed in on us and watched. I didn't care. Let them have their kicks. I knew where I was getting mine. I reached for Harry's pecker and gripped it firmly.
"Ohhhh, that's nice," Harry smiled. "Now suck it." Putting my lips to its head I kissed it gently.
"She loves you Harry. She kissed you," one big blonde fellow chided him.
"She loves my cock!" he laughed. "Get busy baby and eat my prick."
Gripping my head with his hands he pulled me toward his cock. I took him in my mouth and sucked on him smoothly.
"That's real nice," he smiled. "Real nice. Now, suck it hard and good."
With swift sucking movements I lapped at his pecker. "Eat it. Eat it up." he demanded. I lovingly licked him, gently teasing, tugging at his big balls.
Jabbing it down my throat, I felt the full force of his joy stick. It hit the back of my throat as he slid it swiftly in and out.
The boys egged me on so much I got turned on till I got too rough with his dong.
"Take it easy," he pleaded. "Take it easy."
Pouring his pecker down my throat was driving me wild. I loved the audience. I vibrated to the thought of getting to suck on all their dongs.
"Suck me. Ohhhhh, baby, suck, suck, suck. Suck that prick."
He was getting turned on too. With wild thrusts he jabbed his pecker down my throat.
"Oh, Joyce, suck, suck, suck it off," he groaned. "Faster, faster ... ohhhhhhh, ahhhhh, I'm coming. Eat it. Eat it. Eat it up."
I ate his prick. He gave me a good load of creamy cum. Now I was hungry for the other cocks in the fraternity. A muscular, black man walked over and held out his pecker.
"Can you take ten inches?" he smiled.
"I like them long," I laughed.
"Wrap your mouth around it sweetheart and suck," he grinned. I looked at the size of his balls. They excited me. Surely they'd hold a fantastic load of thick cum. Stroking his long dick made him shake with passion.
"Don't torture me," he panted, "eat my prick, baby, eat it up."
I took just the crown of it in my mouth and sucked on it slowly.
"That's it baby, nice and smooth. Your tongue's got a nice touch. Keep that up."
I could see his black body streaming with sweat as he heated up while he shoved it to me. Throwing his head back and rolling his eyes he gripped me firmly and guided my head over his dick, "Okay, lover, you're gonna' get fucked like you never been fucked before. Get on my black pecker and suck. Suck it ... suck it off."
The boys picked up his chant.
"Suck, suck, suck that black dick," they chanted, laughing, chuckling, teasing.
Their voices, their laughter, their peckers pointing stiffly at me excited me all the more.
"Ohhhhhh, baby, suck ... suck, suck," he said in a strange, rhythmic beat.
It reached clear down my throat so far I thought I'd gag. I reached under his ass and shoved one finger between his crack.
"Ohhhh, that's nice," he said, parting his legs. With his ass cheeks open I could shove one finger up his asshole and guide his thrust. When my finger screwed his ass he guided his thrusts to match my finger-fucking movements.
"MMMMMmmm." he panted, "Suck, suck ... ohhhhh, I'm coming."
In one convulsive spasm his long black prick shot its creamy hot load down my throat. I shoved my finger farther up his ass as he tightened his buttocks to force all his juices down my throat.
"You like it, huh ... cum tastes good from a black cock too, don't it baby?" he chuckled, pumping it to me.
The boys broke up laughing when he pulled his black relaxed snake out of my mouth.
"How long is that?" Harry laughed.
"Ten inches," he insisted.
"Whew," I gasped. "And you unloaded ten gallons in my mouth."
The blond fellow wanted me next.
"Okay, take this for size," he said, "nine hard inches." I pulled his pecker to my mouth, licked its crown where one drop of crystal cum glistened.
"You taste sweet," I smiled.
"Sure I do, now just suck on it and I'll give you a nice warm meal."
Pushing it in he slid it in and out so the boys could admire his long dick. I let him slide it smoothly back and forth, tugging on his nuts to turn him on. When he got so hot he had to fuck off, he gripped my head and held me.
"Okay cocksucker, suck," he said, his breath coming in short panting gasps. "Eat my pecker. Eat it up."
With a few swift jabs down my throat he unleashed his hot fluids. Making sure I ate his cum, he continued holding my head in place.
"Keep sucking. There's still more in there," he said as his balls kept repeating spurts of sperm.
He did taste delicious and I patted his behind in thanks as he pulled his pecker out and he patted my head gently.
A rather shy slim kid stood there with his dong pointing at me, but, he didn't make a move. When I reached for his pecker his body vibrated with anticipation.
"Suck?" I asked him.
"Yes," he nodded.
Harry chided him. "Look, if you want your dick sucked you gotta' ask for it. Go ahead, tell her to suck your cock off. You're a man. Act like one. Be proud of your pecker. When a chick is hung-up on cock ask her to suck it for you."
In a soft voice he commanded, "Suck me."
The boys broke up. "Tell her loud."
"Suck my prick," he blurted. I gulped his cock in my mouth and swiftly began sucking him. His instincts took over. Plunging it down my throat he turned on.
"Ohhhhh, I like that," he gasped. "Suck my cock. Ohhhh, that's it, cocksucker ... eat it ... suck me off."
Jabbing my finger up his ass I took his cock down my throat and he pumped it to me with more passion than all the others. No doubt I was the first one to blow him. His fingers stroked through my hair as he held me tight, his pecker rammed its way down my throat and soon I felt his juices splashing.
"I'm coming," he gasped in surprise and pleasure. "I'm shooting my load. Suck it now. Suck it. Suck it."
The boys were turned on watching a virgin get his.
And then the pricks became a blur. I couldn't remember one from the other. The boys kept lining up to have me eat their dicks. Some were so turned on it didn't take but a thrust or two to get their rocks off.
"Ohhhhhhhhh boy, I dig that suck," one husky stud gasped as he jabbed it so far down my throat I thought I'd collapse. How much longer would this go on. When he had finished the black man who'd given me his ten inches in my mouth wanted to try it up my ass.
"How'd you like to try it for size?" he laughed.
"Get on your hands and knees," the blonde fellow demanded.
I put my hands out and spread my butt. The black fellow got down there and gripped my buttocks with his hands.
"Ohhhhh, this looks nice," he laughed. "Mmmm, let's ram it home."
He jabbed that black dagger in and I let out such a howl he pulled it out.
"You trying to kill me?" I snapped.
"Fuck your ass," he said tightly.
"Put something on it to make it slide," I demanded.
"Okay, okay ... anybody got any vaseline," he laughed. Harry quickly hunted for a jar of vaseline. He greased my ass and rubbed it around the head of his prick.
"Just don't slide it all in," I begged him. "It'll come out my mouth if you do."
I got in position again. He stroked my ass playfully before he tried pushing his rod up my ass.
"Relax," he whispered. "Say fellows put some nice fuckin' music on. Something to get her machine warmed up."
I felt his fingers gently part my buttocks and slowly he slid his well-greased black dick up my asshole. This time it didn't hurt. The music seemed to help. He found it slowly gliding past the small opening.
"I'm in there now," he whispered. "Yeah ... I'm in."
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," he said, gripping my ass-cheeks. I thrust my buttocks up to meet his advancing thrust. All of a sudden I felt him driving it to the hilt.
"Ohhhh God, that hurts," I groaned.
"Take it easy," Harry warned him.
"I'm almost there," he panted. "Let me get my rocks off up her ass."
"Ohhhh, that's nice. Keep that creamy white ass pumping baby. Ohhh, that's beautiful. Come on. Come on fucker, fuck it."
There was no way out but to bang it back to him.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," he said, his hands squeezing my buttocks till the pinching hurt.
"Look at him ride her ass," the blonde kid laughed. "I get seconds."
"I'm there. Ohhhhh, that's nice, tighten your ass sweet baby, get all that nice hot juice outta' my dick."
Squeezing his prick in my tight ass pumped his remaining juices out and my ass was a slippery slide of cum.
Pulling it out swiftly hurt like the devil.
"Take it easy," I gasped.
"I'm next," the blonde kid said, mounting me. "Ohhhh, that goes in easy."
"You can thank me for that," the black muscular kid chuckled.
He got it in easy and began ramming. His pecker slid smoothly in my slick ass.
"Grab it," he said, tapping my buttocks. "That's how it's done baby. Throw your ass back. Ohhh, that's fucking."
He rammed it in hard and it didn't take him long to shoot his wad.
"I never screwed her ass," Harry exclaimed excitedly. "Let me fuck her next."
It wasn't long until the thrusting penis shot its load. I squeezed it hard just like I did for the other kid. He liked that.
"Beautiful ... oh, beautiful, baby. Your nice tight asshole is a fantastic fuck."
When he slid out Harry moved in. "Raise it up for me," he said softly.
Gently he eased his penis up my asshole. Ramming it swiftly in and out he reached over to grip my breasts in his hands.
"That's beautiful," I gasped. "I like it. Keep playing with my titties. Ohhhhh, I dig that."
"You've got a nice asshole Harry, why don't you let me fuck you?"
"Hell, no."
Harry went on jabbing his pecker up my ass. His breath was coming shorter now. "Ohhhhhh, ohhhhh, that's it. I'm there. Ohhhhh. Keep it up."
His fingers tightened on my nipples as he jabbed it up there unrelentingly.
"Screw it," I groaned. "Screw it."
Ass-fucking was turning me on. "Ohhhhh, baby, you're wild," Harry gasped, "keep throwing your ass up to me."
Driving his pecker in to the hilt, he exploded.
"Oh, God, I'm coming ... I'm coming," he gasped, gripping my breasts still tighter and continuing to pour his hot sperm-load up my ass. Churning it around, I squeezed the love-juice out of his pulsating pecker.
"She's a wild fucking animal," Harry broke up laughing. The boys lined up. Swiftly they each sent their throbbing rods up my asshole.
Each boy exploded inside me. The leader of the fraternity got a crazy idea for the initiates.
"Now, wouldn't it be nice for you new guys to eat her ass out."
"You wouldn't make me do that," the blonde athletic kid protested. "Ohhhh, God, I'm not going to eat her ass out."
"I'll give you a choice," he chuckled, "Just to show my heart is in the right place. You either eat her ass out or our black buddy with the ten inch dick jabs it up your asshole."
"What a choice!"
"Make up your mind in thirty seconds."
"I can take it up my asshole easier than eat every guy's come."
"Your choice," he laughed.
Getting down on his hands and knees he looked back in horror as the black man got behind his blonde upturned asshole and began parting his buttocks.
"Grease you're damned prick," he demanded.
"Ohhh, I thought this was going to be something special, no grease."
"Grease it," the frat leader laughed. "Give him every damned advantage."
Flipping the Vaseline jar to him, he hastily spread the lubrication around the blonde asshole. Covering the crown of his black penis with the vaseline he then proceeded to stab his butt with the cock.
"Oh, God, you're going to cut me in half," he complained as the huge black tool slid past his tight virgin-anal ring. The black kid was enjoying the exciting feel of his tight asshole.
"You got a nice tight ass," the black kid smiled.
"Damnit, it should be. Nobody ever shoved his damned prick up it before. That's for damn sure."
The boys were all hysterical with laughter as they watched the big black prick slip in and out of his blonde ass. The expression on the black youth's face was one of high excitement and sensual ecstasy. Contrasting was the terrified look on the blonde kid's face as he arched his ass helplessly while the black cock rammed in to the hilt.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck it," he gloated.
"Yeah," the kid replied, throwing his ass up to meet him.
Harry got me aside.
"Better cut out of here before they think of anything more nuts than that."
"You better believe it," I assured him. "I've had it."
"Yes," he grinned. "Every which-way."
I nodded.
"When we were driving back to my place I was too shook up to say anything.
"What did you think of the frat party?"
"Wild," I said quietly.
"I hope I didn't get you angry," he said softly.
"No."
"You weren't in love with me?"
"No. I just dig sex."
"Same here. That's what I figured. That's why I thought you'd get a kick out of having all those cocks."
"If I hadn't had something to drink I couldn't have done it," I assured him.
"That's why I got you drunk," he chuckled.
When I got out of his car I thanked him and he tapped my hand gently.
"You're a good sport," he smiled.
"Thanks," I nodded.
When I finally got to sleep I had a lot of thinking to do. It bugged me to think I'd actually eaten all those guys. So many I lost count. Was I a twisted, warped, sex fiend? I looked in the mirror. My eyes were red and swollen, my expression one of shock. I thought I better sleep it off and think about it in the morning. Tonight, too much had happened.
All night long I had nightmares. Peckers were pointing at me from all directions. Huge cocks, with their swollen heads ready to engulf my mouth. I awoke in a cold sweat. I wanted to mention it to my Mom. But something held me back. Perhaps it was because I had to be honest with myself and the truth of the matter was I'd enjoyed the whole affair. Each cock tasted different. Each guy had a different way of ramming his pecker to me. I enjoyed sucking each and every one of them. Was I an oral nymph? This haunted me. I didn't dig having them hammering their rods up my ass. It hurt like the devil when the first guy drove his pecker up there. But I knew I had to do anything they demanded. After he got it past my hole it didn't hurt so much but I still liked cock-sucking much more.
The next evening I got a real surprise when Harry dropped by.
"Hi," he smiled.
"Hi," I laughed. "Didn't expect to see you for awhile."
"I want to talk to you," he said.
"Okay, talk ... "
"Let's go for a ride," he insisted. I hopped in his convertible and he drove around without saying much for awhile. Finally he parked the car and told me he had an idea.
"What kind of an idea?"
"A good one," he smiled knowingly. "One that will pay off."
"Okay, tell me."
"Last night I got a bright idea," he went on. "You were a real hit with those frat brothers of mine. They said they never got such a head job before. Some of them begged me for your name and phone number."
"You didn't give it to them, I hope."
"No," he smiled, "because I had some great ideas."
"Like what?"
"You like dick, don't you?" he said softly. "I mean you get turned on eating guys peters?"
"Yes," I nodded, "I do."
"Well, why not make some money. Dick lickers get paid a lot of money to take on a crew of horny college guys."
"I should have gotten paid last night," I snapped. "I ate a lot of cock."
"I'm sorry I didn't charge those horny bastards," he smiled. "Today Ted, that's my roommate in the dorm, told me you should work some of the college sex clubs."
"How much do they pay?"
"Five bucks a guy."
"Beautiful. Twenty guys would make it a hundred bucks."
"That's a lot of dick ... "
"That's a lot of loot for just enjoying myself," I told him.
"I have to get a small fee," he smiled, "for arranging it, like your agent or manager. Say twenty per cent?"
"And free cocksucks?"
"You wouldn't charge me for a head-job, would you?" he asked, anger flaring in his face.
"No," I laughed. "I'll always eat you free."
"Good," he smiled.
"What do you think of me?"
"What do you mean?" he asked sternly.
"I bet you think I'm a sex fiend, taking on all those guys last night."
"Oh, no," he said emphatically. "I think you're just a nice hot chick who digs fucking."
"I'm glad you said that Harry, because, I was beginning to wonder about myself. I'll admit I'm a hot chick and I'll admit I like multiple sex."
"Multiple sex!"
"Yes," I told him flatly. "I like group sex. Why settle for one cock when you can have ten?"
"That's what I like about you," Harry chuckled. "You're so damned honest."
"When do you think we can start rolling?"
"Saturday night," Harry beamed. "We have a little sex club get together. About fourteen or fifteen guys. They usually hire some local whore. It's cheaper to have one or two chicks take care of all of us."
"I'll be damned," I broke up laughing. "I should have thought of the economics of it. Of course. One chick has a three way hole setup whereby she can accommodate a crew of cocks. Makes sense to make the most of what you've got."
"How about letting me eat you Saturday night?"
"Will you get paid?"
"Your pussy is pay enough," he smiled. "I dig eating cunt."
"You've eaten a lot of girls?"
"Some. Enough."
"Tell me who. Any cunt I know?"
"Oh, a couple of older women. I got a go-go dancer who likes to have her pussy eaten. Sometimes she spreads for me and I lap it up."
"Is she a hooker?"
"Not exactly."
"Look," I told him frankly, "You're either a hooker or you're not a hooker. I'm a hooker when I get paid for it, a pro if you please."
"When will you be ready on Saturday evening?"
"Anytime you say."
"I'd say about eight o'clock."
"I'll be ready."
He drove me home and when I went to bed I couldn't help thinking about Saturday night. I liked the idea of making money with my body. I figured I had a talent. I knew how to suck. Why not use my hot mouth to make money? I took my exercises to keep my body trim and made it a point to take a long time in a hot bubble bath before I went out with Harry. Making sure to use plenty of deodorant and body cologne I guess I smelled like a French whore when he arrived to pick me up. Mom kissed me sweetly and complimented me too.
"You look good enough to eat," she giggled. I almost told her that eating me was exactly what Harry was going to do, later.
"Take good care of my little girl," she admonished Harry.
"Oh, sure. You brought her up right."
"I tried," she smiled, oblivious to what was going on. Harry and I had a good laugh thinking of how downright stupid some parents can be.
"What age do they think we live in? Neanderthal Man?" Harry chuckled. "Today, if you don't make it, you're way out, outside the action."
"I know," I told him, "but you know some people. They want their little girls to be pure and their boys to be virgins."
"Not my old man," Harry grinned. "Dad says get it where you can."
"I wonder what people used to do for sex," I asked him.
"Go to marathon dances," Harry laughed.
"Now we have marathon fucks, right?"
"Right!"
When we pulled up to a big old motel I was completely surprised.
"Why are we stopping here?"
"This is our fuckin' headquarters," he laughed. "It's the only safe place to fuck. The Frat party last week leaked out to the Dean of Men and he's put the lid on orgies."
"That's too bad," I said sadly, thinking of all the wholesome fun the boys would be missing.
"So, we just changed our operation orgy location. We took a couple of connecting rooms and we can't make too much noise."
"I think it sounds real exciting," I told him.
"We'll make it exciting tonight," Harry said patting my leg and slipping his hand beyond my white leather micro-mini I'd worn for the occasion.
"You sure think of everything," I sighed.
"I try."
We found the two connecting rooms and he gave a rap signal they repeated from the inside. They opened the door cautiously and as soon as I stepped inside the place I knew we were going to have a wonderful time. Everyone was bare assed naked.
"Am I the only girl?" I giggled.
"Sure," one athletic looking, long-haired young man answered. "Harry said you could handle all our business."
"Pecker business!" I exclaimed, reaching out and gripping his hard dick.
"Yeh," he laughed. "Hey, that hurts. That's a cock you've got in your hand, not a hunk of baloney."
"I hope so," I told him. "I'd hate to suck on baloney." The boys broke-up laughing.
"When you gonna undress?" a brown-eyed, brown-haired, trim young man demanded.
"I've only been in here a minute. You that horny?"
"Yes," he said, removing his hands from before his penis. It stuck out and again I gripped it.
"Mmmmm, good. I hope you haven't been playing with yourself and using up all your love juice cause I've got an awful thirst."
Again the boys laughed. Harry was down to his shorts.
"Make her pull your shorts off Harry."
Dropping to my knees I pulled his shorts down, pulling his body toward me. "Hi," I smiled, speaking to his penis.
"Hi yourself," he answered.
"Want me to suck it?"
"You bet I do."
I got up and told him, "Later!"
"I'll help you undress," one smooth-skinned kid offered. He resembled an Indian with his tall, lean frame.
"Oh, thanks so much. Thanks, but, no."
I wanted to tease them. They were so anxious to see me stripped, but, I didn't see any reason to rush things. Perhaps I felt like a sex star putting in a personal appearance.
Carefully I slipped out of my white leather micro-mini, making sure my panties remained tantalizingly tight. When my white leather blouse came off my titties jutted out. They didn't sag. They grew together. The boys gulped.
"What's wrong?" I asked coyly, watching their watering mouths with enormous satisfaction.
They just shook their heads. When I slid my black nylon brief-panties off slowly they began vibrating.
"First, Harry and I are going to put on a little show," I smiled.
"Yeah, Harry, you told us you'd eat her pussy. Eatin' time Harry."
Harry walked towards me.
"Sure, I'll eat her pussy. Who wouldn't?"
He dropped to his knees and kissed my pussy-lips. The tantalizing touch of his tremendous tongue made me shake with passion. He was quivering himself. He slipped his tongue inside. He found my erect clit and licked it like a small penis. When he washed me with his tongue inside my box it was beautiful.
"Put some honey in her box and eat some nice sticky honey," the athletic, curly headed young man suggested, stepping forward with a yellow plastic container Harry took it from him and brought the head of the container to my cunt. He slipped it in slowly and I began getting moist. All the excitement was making me start to come. For one mad moment I thought I was in love with Harry. What a childish thing to imagine. But that's what happens when you get all twisted.
He squeezed plenty of honey in my box. He put the yellow honey container down. One boy suggested, "Why don't you two sixty-nine?"
Harry looked up at me. He flashed a broad grin. "Okay with you?"
"Sure."
Harry got a couple of towels and spread them out on the floor. We laid down on them and he straddled me. His penis straightened out and he aimed it for my mouth.
"Give me a good blow job," he smiled, bending over my pussy.
"Eat my pussy out," I winked.
His tremendous tongue licked along my slit. I reached for his penis, toying with his balls.
"She's in love with you, Harry," the muscular blonde kid laughed.
"She's in love with my cock and your cock and all you horny stud's cocks."
I pulled back and forth on his rod. Then I slipped my mouth over it and slowly sucked. His tongue dipped deep in my cunt and soon we were enjoying sucking sex.
"Ain't that honey good?" one kid asked Harry.
"Mmmmmm," Harry slurped, licking his lips. "Pussy honey always tastes the sweetest."
Eagerly I licked on his long dick. I saw him watching me eat his prick while he ate me. He looked at me with a stern, steady gaze as if he was trying to hypnotize me.
"Take him all in," one boy insisted.
Slowly I slid his peter in my mouth. He was very hard now. I ran my fingers through his hairs and pulled on his nuts. He was turning on.
"Fuck her."
His huge pecker came plunging down my throat and he slammed home.
"Ohhhh, watch him fuck her."
"Look at her eat dick," one kid chuckled. They were all eyes and comments as they closed in to watch us sixty-nine. Harry's mouth fastened on my pussy. Anxiously he sucked away.
"Suck her cunt out ... eat that pussy ... lick it clean."
His tongue stiffened and he drove his tongue in like a long hard dick.
"Suck it, suck it ... keep it moving. Suck that dick. Eat it. Eat that pussy," the boys called out while we ate each other.
I felt him coming. Faster and faster he thrust. I felt the crown of his cock reaching to the back of my throat. It was a fantastic sensation.
"Ohhhhhhh baby, eat my prick," he called out, taking his mouth from my pussy for a moment. "Eat it ... ohhhh, I'm coming in your mouth. Eat me."
Putting his mouth back on my pussy he shot his load. I sucked and gulped, gobbling him down.
I gushed in his mouth and he lapped away like a hungry hound dog. Loud smacking sounds came from his mouth as he devoured my love juice. Slowly I slid his pecker out and he finally took his tongue out of my twat.
"How's that for a sex show?" he asked his buddies.
"Not bad buddy, not bad at all. You deserve a medal for pussy eating."
"Thank you, hang it on my dick," he laughed.
"Who's next?" I demanded.
One thin, long-haired young man got down on one knee and held his hard dick out for me. I licked its head.
"How about some fun and games first?"
"Sure, sure, why not?" they chorused.
I got up from the floor and stretched. It felt good to be off the hard, fuckin' floor for a minute. "You guys line up," I suggested. They did. I counted fourteen of them. "Now, turn around and do some exercises for me," I commanded.
They all turned away from me and stood with their asses facing me. "First," I commanded, "Reach up as high as you can." They all strained, reaching up.
"Now, bend over." They bent over. Seizing a handy belt, I thought I'd teach them a little discipline. I cracked the belt over the first guy's butt. He howled.
"Aw, that's nothing. That was a love tap," I laughed. This comment reached the guys. They chided him, "Don't be a sissy. No girl can hurt you. Be a man."
They all remained in the same position. Swiftly I went down the line whacking their behinds with my belt. When their asses were all sore and red I stroked them gently.
"Lie down," I ordered them.
"What you gonna' do?" Harry asked me.
"Suck ass," I told Harry. "You wanna' have me suck your ass first?"
"Yeah, yeah, eat my ass first," he begged, flipping swiftly to the floor and arching his buttocks up for me. I stroked him gently, massaging behind his balls. Then I put my face between his butt and began licking. He twisted his butt like he was going out of his gourd.
"Like that?" I said, taking my tongue out for a second.
"Most fantastic thing anybody ever did to me," he sighed. "Get your tongue back up my ass and suck on it."
The boys all watched as they lay there waiting for me to eat their anxious asses out. I don't know what came over me. But this I do know. I wanted to eat them up, their asses and their cocks, I couldn't get enough of them.
When I'd washed his ass out with my tongue I went on to the next fellow. He was a wiry, short, blonde kid whose blonde ass stood out against his tanned skin. His swim-trunks had kept his buttocks white. Lapping away at his ass tickled him so much he couldn't hold still.
"Hey you," I complained, "If you don't hold your ass still, how the heck do you think I can suck it?"
He quit laughing and tried to hold his ass up to me without vibrating his body so much I couldn't lick him.
A black curly haired kid bent way over and put his arms up for me to get down there and lick his butt.
"Thank you," I said, slapping his ass. "That's the way. Make it easy."
Feeling inside his thighs I gently pressed against his balls. He liked it. "Feels good," he grinned, turning around to watch.
"Spread your legs," I told him. "Good! Now bend just a little more."
Slipping my tongue inside his ass-cheeks I quickly began licking. He could hardly stand still it turned him on so much. Plunging my tongue up his asshole he wiggled around and grunted, "Ohhhh, I like it. Lick my ass, baby, lick it."
I tongue-fucked him long enough to make him anxious to have me eat his dick.
The next man was a huge guy. Must have been six feet. He was smiling and anxious to get his ass sucked.
"Got a sweet ass for you," he chuckled, arching his butt to meet my mouth.
"I'll know in a minute," I laughed. "Let me taste your ass." Dipping my tongue between his legs I sucked him. He was getting an enormous erection. To keep him content I stabbed my tongue up his tight asshole and screwed him up there.
"Ohhhh, that's beautiful," he groaned. "Uhhhhhh, why'd you quit eating my butt?"
Slapping the next upturned ass, I explained, "With all this ass-sucking I can't spend too long on any one guy's butt. We've got our cocks to suck too!"
All the boys laughed.
The next fellow was a broad-chested kid who stood straight.
"Bend over," I told him.
"Can't you suck it like this?"
"I can, but, I sure as hell won't get my tongue way up your ass," I told him flatly.
"This is okay," he said. I don't know what was wrong with him. Standing up made it much more difficult.
"At least spread your legs for me," I told him. He spread his legs. I reached down to his nuts and jiggled them while I licked his ass open. His body trembled and I could tell he was enjoying it.
"Why don't you bend over?" I begged him.
He didn't need much more encouragement. He was enjoying it now. He gently rolled his ass up to me and spreading his firm round cheeks I slipped my tongue up there and gripped his buttocks. He tightened his muscles as his body trembled in sexual ecstasy. Jabbing my tongue up there I know I turned him on.
The dark-haired fellow who was next had a neat trim body with a firm round ass. He threw a couple of pillows on the floor and said, "I'm going to make ass eating easy for you."
"Well, thanks," I told him as I began stroking his behind. He turned to watch. All of them wanted to watch. I licked his hairy butt and then he began pushing. The guys began laughing.
"Don't go off now, cat," one of them called out.
I licked all around his buttocks and then concentrated on his asshole. From the way he wiggled his ass I could tell the sucking sensation was driving him out of his gourd. Plunging my stiffened tongue up his asshole he thrust back. This cat enjoyed ass-sucking. He knew just how to match my tongue-stabs with ass thrusts. We did this for a while and then I knew I'd have to move on to the next ass.
The next boy was black. He was a strong, husky kid with a firm, muscular body. "Suck my black ass," he smiled.
"At your service," I laughed. He bent over and spread his buttocks for me. Licking all around his asshole I got him going.
"Ohhhhh, ohhhhh, I'm going crazy," he gasped.
"Hold still," I said, gripping him. "How can I fuck your ass if you don't let me."
"Okay, okay," he agreed, and he held still long enough for me to jab my tongue up his pivoting black asshole.
"Look at her go," Harry said, wide-eyed. "She's a real pro."
"Sure she is," the black man said. "Anybody can tell she's done a lot of sucking. And she's a young chick too."
"I taught her all I knew," Harry nodded proudly.
"You dirty-minded fucker," the black kid laughed.
Pulling my tongue out of his ass I finished off the rest of the boys. Now they were dying to get their cocks off.
"How about three-way fuck?" the black kid suggested.
"Three-way?"
"Up the three holes," Harry smiled. "Ass, mouth, cunt!"
"No," I almost shrieked. "You do it my way."
"We do it your way," Harry grinned. "I told you guys she likes sucking, she'll suck anything, but, nobody gets up her pussy."
"Except your tongue," one boy called out.
"I'm her lover," Harry smiled.
"You're her pimp," the black kid snapped.
Harry's fists flew up in a rage.
"You take that back ... "
The black kid laughed, "Oh, you know I was just kiddin'. You're a good rat, Harry. What would we do if you weren't around to find us groovy chicks."
"Okay," Harry said. "Let's get on with it."
"Why not eat his pecker first, it'll calm his hot balls down."
The black kid walked forward proudly, holding his cock in his hand.
"Go ahead."
Taking it in my hand I stroked it. I lifted his heavy balls and tickled them. He flashed an excited grin.
"Don't torment me anymore, baby. Eat it." I got on my knees and took its head in my mouth and sucked slowly. Twirling my tongue around his cock I stroked his nuts and sucked smoothly. He slid in and out calmly. I reached out to hold the firm globes of his buttocks in my hand while I sucked him.
He got so hot he whispered, "Let me eat your pussy!" I didn't want any more fighting.
"Sure," I smiled.
"Why don't you use the bed?" Harry asked.
"Why not?" he said, grinning at me and walking toward the bed. Hastily he pulled back the bedspread and opened up the sheets. I hopped on the bed and he jumped on top of me. I parted my legs and he straddled me. He held my head in his hands and looked into my eyes.
"You fucker," he laughed. "Let me shove it up your pussy ... please, baby ... I want it up there."
"You said eat my pussy, I agreed to that!"
"Okay," he grinned, flashing his white teeth. "But I can suck my way down there can't I?"
"Sure you can," I told him. He held my head and brought his face close to mine. The fellows stood by softly stroking. Maybe just seeing his black body arched over my white naked body excited them. He kissed my lips. His tongue slipped inside my mouth and we Frenched. He got on his knees and pushed down to my breasts. He began licking on them. The boys applauded. He began laughing and could hardly go on eating away.
"Suck her," Harry told him. But he wouldn't go down on me till he had his kicks from licking my titties. He liked to apply his whole mouth and suck and then nibble on my nipples till it hurt.
I pushed his fuzzy black head down so he would begin sucking my cunt He moved slowly, lifting my leg and holding it up with one hand. He diddled me while he licked at my tummy. I kept shoving him. When he got to my pussy he licked all the pubic hair and then slid his hot tongue inside my box and lashed away at my pussy. He pulled his tongue out and gasped, "Get the honey. I wanna' eat honey out of her box."
Harry gave him the plastic honey container. He quickly slipped its nozzle inside my slit and pushed. I felt the sticky thick honey squirt inside me. He pulled it out and gave it back to Harry. Burying his black head in my crotch he began eagerly licking. His long thrusting tongue was like nothing I'd ever experienced. Much as I dug Harry's tongue, it was no match for this black man's powerful tongue thrusts.
"Sweet pussy," I laughed., "I've got a sweet pussy."
He pulled his tongue out and laughed up at me. "I'm going to get you so hot you're going to gush in your honey pot and then I'll really eat me a nice meal."
"Sure you will," I said, wrapping my legs around him while his head went back to my pussy.
"Suck me, ohhhhh, suck me," I told him while he applied all his skill to eating me.
"Ohhhhhh, baby, that's it ... oh, I love it. I love it," I gasped as my body turned and twisted under the black magic of his thrusting tongue.
Throwing my hips in his face I continued to take his tongue farther up my hungry cunt. His lapping tongue turned me on.
"Ohhhhh, suck it, suck it out," I told him as I felt myself gush. His hungry mouth ate me, licking, lapping, sucking, devouring me in his frantic haste to eat cum and honey.
When he finished he was panting.
"I'll blow you later," I promised him. "Now, I'm just going to lie here and relax a minute."
"Make sure it's a minute," Harry laughed. "These cats will get so horny they'll be blowing each other if you don't get your mouth in motion fast."
"I'll be damned," I said, "I hope I'm not blowing a bunch of fruits."
"You're driving us up the walls," a blonde kid grinned.
"If it's that bad, straddle me luv and fuck me lying down."
The hard-cocked blonde straddled me and I reached out to grip his shining round buttocks. "My, you have got a big one," I told him.
"I eat my pussies," he smiled proudly, inhaling to make his chest bigger.
"Do you get big balls from that?"
"You can," he nodded, sliding his pecker into my mouth smoothly. He held my head at an angle where he could obtain maximum cock-thrust and began fucking.
I always marveled how these big-headed cats could fuck in front of each other without the least amount of embarrassment. If anything I think they felt more at ease with each other looking.
"Can you take it all in?" he asked cagily.
I nodded, gulping, gagging as he unreeled his peter down my throat. Gripping his buttocks I guided him as he built his momentum to unload his rocks in my mouth.
"Ohhhhh, that's nice ... smooth sucking."
He slid it in and out, raising his head and rolling it back and forth while I sucked him.
"Play with my balls," he begged. "Reach down and play with them."
I tickled them and teased them and then began thrusting. He dug it when I rammed back on his rod.
"A wild suck," he gasped. "I think she's as horny as I am. She digs cocksucking."
"I told you she's a natural," Harry laughed. "That's why I thought you cats would enjoy having her do her thing."
The boys watched as he let his jaw hang loose and drove it home.
"Beautiful, beautiful," he panted.
"Ohhhhhh, I can't stand it. Don't bite it." I nibbled easier and let him jab it to the back of my throat. When his head touched me there I knew it turned his balls on.
"Suck it ... suck my cock ... suck it ... ohhhh, ahhhh, there I go. I can't stand it. Fuck, fuck, fuck!"
His white-hot sperm flashed from his penis, hitting the back of my throat and he was off. Pulling his flaccid cock out of my mouth he complimented me, "You're a super-sucker!"
"Should I use that to advertise?" I laughed.
"No," he patted me gently, "We can advertise your blow-jobs, word of mouth."
The boys laughed.
"Let's have a drink," Harry suggested. "A suck break." He got out a bottle of vodka and began making screw-drivers. I needed a good drink. I felt like I'd been through a war, you know, like a whore through the war.
"I'm next," a brown-haired, freckle-faced kid said, holding his big old dick out for my inspection.
"Okay," I smiled.
He got on the bed and lay on his back. I scurried over and got down between his legs and got them apart. Resting on my elbows I swooped down on his dick and sucked it. He got harder and drew his legs up on each side of me. My head bobbed up and down swiftly as I sucked him in. I loved the taste of a man's tool and this fabulous clean cock was something to suck.
"Eat my prick," he commanded roughly. "Get your mouth on it and eat my cum. I got a nice load in my balls, just for you. Now open wider and let me ram it down your throat."
Opening my mouth I allowed him total entrance. Roughly he thrust his enormous tool down my throat, his balls bouncing on my chin as he held me in place over his prick.
"Dick-licker," he laughed. "How's that for cock. Enough meat to hold you awhile. Now, suck it."
Bobbing my head up and down I continued sucking on his beautiful cock.
He lifted his ass right up off the bed and hammered it home. Powerfully he thrust his hard cock down my throat.
"Suck, suck, suck it off," he gasped, "Ohhhhhhh, eat it ... you got it now, baby ... you got my nuts in your mouth, eat it up ... eat it," he begged.
He did have a good load stored up in his balls and I gobbled him down. His creamy cum thrilled me like an ice cream sundae, only this wasn't hot fudge, it was hot cum.
The boys lined up and I sucked each cock. When each man had had his blow-job Harry collected five bucks each. They gladly paid.
He took me home and handed me the money. I looked at it and was really excited. This kept up until I had earned almost one thousand dollars. I put the money in a bank account and hid the bank book. But one day Mom found the bank book. She confronted me.
"Where did you get this money?"
"None of your business," I snapped.
"Oh, yes it is," she barked back.
"So I got it whoring."
"Whoring?" she screamed, slapping my face roughly.
"Yes. I sell sex, so what? I like to fuck and they like me."
"Get out of here," she ranted. "Get out of this house."
"I'll be glad to," I told her angrily. "You never wanted me here, did you?"
"You were adopted and I might as well tell you what your mother did for a living."
"Don't bother," I snapped as I ran to the closet to pack my things. "I don't want to hear any dirt you want to dig up."
"It's just the truth. And the truth hurts. Your real mother was a hustler. Yes, just like you've become. A cheap whore who sold her body to men for sex. You were an unwanted child. I took you in because you were a beautiful baby. But, when I discovered your mother was a hooker I wished to God I'd never seen you."
"So that's why you and Dad have always been so damned cold to me."
"Yes," she snapped, "And this money in your bank account proves blood will tell."
"Blood will tell, hell," I lashed out, throwing my hair brush at her. She ducked. Then she ran out of the room and down the stairs.
I heard her call for my foster father, "Dave, Dave come here, she's gone crazy. That child has just gone crazy. She attacked me. Call the authorities."
She got me for that. It was her fault all the way along. They treated me worse than an outsider, they treated me like an outcast. I had the name so I figured I'd have the game. You know it isn't hard for a kid to sense what his parents think. And so help me God, when I stop and think it all over that is how I think I got hooked on cock. I was dying to find some attention, some love.
The only trouble is, it isn't as simple as all that. All the fucks in the world can't make up for lack of love in the home. I found out the hard way. But I still have this damned hangup. I mean I've tried, but, I still want to blow guys, as many as I can get. I want them to eat me. I don't want anybody poking his peter up my cunt.
I'm warped, twisted, confused, but, I'm not crazy. I know that.
SUMMARY
Joyce was an intelligent girl. Her high school courses in Psychology had made it possible for her to analyze herself. She is correct in realizing she is not crazy. Her problem is that of "sucking compulsion." Neuroses developed in early youth, when her lack of genuine affection in her foster home drove her to seek satisfactions outside the home.
The neighbor boy represented a parental attachment. His penis pleasure symbolized her opportunity to please her parents. This warped meaning thus developed into, for her, a natural normal outlet. The more men she was able to satisfy in this manner, the less hurt she felt for the lack of love in her home. However, it was difficult for her to recognize one sober truth; the contacts were limited to a purely physical attachment.
Outside of sex, Joyce never cared to deal with them at all. She found a kind of warped pleasure in not allowing the men to enter her vagina with their penises. By denying them this pleasure she was in effect compensating for them not caring to deal with her outside of a crude sex arrangement.
The money gave her further compensation as this allowed her to buy clothes, jewelry and other material possessions that very soon gave her the security she had lacked in her family life.
The prejudice her foster parents felt against her mother was instantly used against her. The idea of "blood will tell" embodies the "bad seed" concept, meaning that it naturally follows if the parent was no good. This thought, projected to her impressionable, sensitive mind was accepted. Having affirmed this negative thought pattern, she acted it out. Thus the foster parents were able ,to witness their predictions come true. Little did they dream they had been the major contributing factor in making their dire predictions surface.
When Joyce was informed of how foolish it was for her to feel any guilt or shame whatsoever over anything her mother may or may not have done, progress began.
From here we helped her understand that the ugly prejudices of her foster parents were being constantly projected to her young mind. With this thought in their mind, their actions followed. The lack of love she was forced to endure drove her to seek affection from any and all sources, including the neighbor boy's genitals. The neighbor boy, like most young men, was anxious to find outlets for his sexual needs. He wasn't concerned with the right and wrong aspects or the ultimate outcome of what their sexual expression would eventually do to his partner.
That being the case, Joyce developed a parent-crush on her young lover. Pleasing him sexually drove her to great lengths. The fact she could please someone was what drove her on. Even though the acts were humiliating and totally physical in nature, that was alright. The basic child craving to be accepted was enough to make her do anything; including have sexual relations with all the men he asked her to. She refused flatly to have normal sex relations as she abhorred the thought of having any children. Her own childhood had been so painful, she didn't want a repetition.
When Joyce understood her dilemma, she was able to master her "sucking compulsion" and widen her spectrum of sexual involvement and eventually was even able to marry and lead a comparatively normal life. Yet some scars will always remain locked in her heart.