Introduction
"I guess when the kids put me in this here old-folks home they figured that'd be the end of their problems, 'specially the problems they thought they was havin' with me chasin' women all over the place.
"They kept on tellin' me that I was too old to be actin' that way. that I should act my age, and all that sort of shit. Guess they just couldn't understand that old men get horny, too. I do, anyway. Always have. Ever since I was a kid, when Mary took me out into the barn on my tenth birthday to show me what it was all about, I been gettin' it regular, and I don't see no sense in stoppin' now, just 'cause Fm past my three score and ten.
"Well, I got some news for them kids of mine. They may think they've got me locked away where I can't get none, but I'm still doin' all right. Got to admit that, when I first got here I was a little worried about it, 'specially after seeks' all the old biddies they got livin' here, but it didn't take me long to find out there was pussy to be had, if you know where to look for it.
"I guess it was about the third or fourth night I was here, when I was getting pretty hard-up for some action. I was thinkin' about jackin' off, somethin' I hadn't done in a lot of years, when I got my first bit of action. And to this day I don't rightly know whether or not Miss Simmons, my nurse, knew about it or not. You see, it was her I got.
"They got us in little rooms,, with no doors so's they can hear if we fall out of bed or any-thin', and at night they have a nurse on duty. She doesn't have to stay awake, though. They got a little room for her; too, right up at the front of the hall.
"Well, like I said, it was about the third or fourth night I was there, an' I had to get up and take a leak about three in the mornin'. One bad thing about gettin' old is that my bladder isn't as strong as it used to be, nor my kidneys, and it seems like I have to get up two or three times every night to take a leak.
"The head was up at the front of the hall, right by Miss Simmons' room, and as I was on my way back down the hall I saw that her door was open a little bit. I guess so she could hear if any of us antiques needed any help durin' the night. Anyway, her door was open a little bit, so I just sort of peeked in, just to see what it looked like, you know?
"Well, maybe I was gettin' senile, like my kids think, 'cause when I looked in that door and saw Miss Simmons there, in that bed, the blanket down enough so I could see one of her bare tits stickin' out, I just couldn't help slippin' inside for a closer look.
"By the time I got up to the bed I was shakin' I was so horny, and without even thinkin' about it I climbed up there on the bed with her, moving slow and easy so's not to wake her up. My cock was hard and my balls was achin' from lookin' at her. I sort of straddled her chest with my knees, and she didn't even move when I pulled open my pyjama bottoms and let my cock pop out, the head of it goin' right up against her sleepin' lips like it had a mind of its own.
"Them lips of hers was real full and sort of poutin' like, sort of wet and shiny lookin', and in the light that was leakin' in from the hall I saw a little drop of wet on 'em, a drop that had pumped itself out the end of my cock. When I saw that I stopped worryin' about wakin' her up. I just didn't give a damn anymore. I had to get my cock into that sweet lookin' mouth of hers.
"All at once Miss Simmons began moaning in her sleep, and for a second I froze, thinkin' that she was gonna wake up and find me there. Her eyes stayed closed, though, and I watched as just the tip of her tongue came out from between them lips of hers to lick off that little drop on her lip, then make a swipe at the head of my cock to get another drop that had formed there. It sure did feel good, and I couldn't make up my mind whether she was asleep or not.
"Just sittin' there astride her wasn't gettin' much done, so I lifted up real slow, to keep from movin' the bed around too much, and eased the blanket out from under me, exposin' first them beautiful tits of hers, sticking up out of her chest like a couple of small mountains, with dark tips that looked like they was just achin' to be kissed, then the soft-lookin' mound of her belly. With one quick jerk I pulled the blanket clean off her, dropping it over the side of the bed. Miss Simmons, I'll have you know, slept in the raw, just like I used to, and in my mind that's nothin' more than a sign that she was ready for a little fuckin'.
"I settled back down over her tits again, feel-in' them pressin' at the cheeks of my ass, and nudged my cock against her mouth real gentle like. When I did I'll be damned if she didn't open them lips of hers, just enough so I could slide my cock a little way in.
"I knew that I was takin' some big chances on gettin' in trouble there in Miss Simmons' room, and that I should get my tail out of there right then, but I just couldn't help wonderin' just how far I could go. I was thinkin' hard that I should get out, but my body was tellin' me that I had to stay, that I'd be a double-damned fool if I left right then.
"I was sweatin' pretty hard while I tried to make up my mind what to do, when Miss Simmons made up my mind for me. My cock was still lay in' there against her lips, and she stuck her tongue out just a little bit to give it a lick, then kissed it full on the head, That was all I needed. I knew that I was pretty close to comin' right then, and that if I went and shot a load of hot cum into her mouth while she was sleepin' she'd sure as shit wake up, and I'd be in big trouble, but after she kissed the head of my cock I just didn't give a shit no more.
"While I was thinkin' all this she was gettin' busier and busier, polishin' away at my knob with her tongue and lips, and I was gettin' hotter and hotter. Then she sort of lifted her knees up off the bed and they fell apart, bringin' her cunt right out into the open. I damn near got a crick in my neck lookin' back over my shoulder at that sweet lookin' hole. It looked better than any candy bar, and I just had to get a little taste of it, so I eased my body around again, turnin' completely around on the bed, but keep-in' my cock right there by her mouth. I ended up straddlin' her shoulders, with my cock right over her mouth, and my head right down there between her legs, eyes starin' at that juicy smell-in' cunt of hers. I just sat there and looked at it for a couple of minutes, sort of teasin' myself. Then, even though I was pretty sure she was still sleepin', she took the lead again. Her lips came up and locked around the head of my cock, and I just sort of squatted down, slidin' it right into her waitin' mouth.
"She took it right in, about halfway, her lips locked real tight around the shaft, and the heat of her mouth and the busy end of her tongue started drivin' me right out of my head. I had to get somethin' going on my own, so I dipped my head on down towards that pink cunt of hers, and started lickin' away.
"I ran my tongue along her cunt lips for a couple of seconds, just tastin' her juice, then flicked the end of it against her clit, stickin' up outta her flesh like some kind a little prick.
"Miss Simmons started groanin' and moanin' again, really gettin' with it on my cock, like she was just achin' to get fucked in whatever dream it was she was havin'. I slid my tongue right on into that pussy of hers, as deep as I could get it, then started movin' the tip of it around, explorin' and tastin'. That seemed to set her off, 'cause she reached up and grabbed the cheeks of my ass and pulled me down tight on top of her face, takin' my cock all the way back into her tight, hot and lovin' throat. She was givin' me a blow job like I hadn't had in years, and I was lovin' every slurp.
"Maybe, I began thinkin', she was just pretendin' to be asleep. Maybe she needed a little lovin' as much as I did, but, since she was a nurse, she couldn't admit it. It was a nice thought, and I still think it at times, but the way she was actin' I was pretty sure she was actually sleepin', sort of having a wet dream, but with real action.
"Dream or not, she was givin' me some real good head. Her lips was slidin' up and down the length of my cock faster and faster, like she was tryin' to get me to match her motions, so I obliged her, rammin' my tongue in and out of her cunt, stickin' it deep, wigglin' it around, then pullin' it out to give a little lick to her clit. I had my hands under her now, a hold of her ass and liftin' her up off the bed so I could get a straight shot at her cunt, and she was helpin', jerkin' her hips up and down and back and forth and 'round in little circles like I was drivin' her nuts.
"She was givin' as good as she was gettin', workin' away on my cock like it was some kind of all-day sucker. She was puttin' so much suction on it that I didn't have to pump it in and out of her mouth. She was just suckin' it in, all the way back into her throat, so far that on every down stroke I could feel my balls bobbin' against her nose, the air whistlin' through her nostrils ticklin' the hairs I had growin' there so bad I almost had to start laughin'.
"I didn't laugh, though, 'cause I knew I was only seconds away from comin', and I sure didn't want to take a chance on wakin' her up right then. From the way her body was movin' around underneath me, her wet cunt slappin' against my face, smearin' her love-juice all over me, I figured she wasn't far away, either, so I just gave my tongue everythin' it had, stickin' it in and slidin' it out as fast as it would move. I pried the cheeks of her ass apart and slid one finger in until I felt the tight little pucker of her asshole. I could feel her muscles clenchin' and relaxin' as her body pumped away under mine, and I timed it, so that when it relaxed one time I was able to slide my finger right into her hot ass.
"That was all she needed, and when she went off she took me right with her. Her teeth bit down on the shaft of my cock so hard I almost yelled, then I was pumpin' a hot load of cum into her mouth.
"For a second, from the sounds I heard, I thought she was gonna choke from that hot load, but she got her throat workin' and swallowed every drop of it. At the same time her hips jerked upwards, pressin' her cunt tight against my face, lookin' my tongue deep inside it.
"I could feel all them little muscles in her pussy shakin' away, grabbin' at my tongue as a hot flood of juice gushed towards my mouth. That juice tasted like the sweetest honey and I sucked in every drop of it, at the same time pumpin' every bit of stored up cum in my balls, a whole month's worth, down into her throat.
"She just didn't seem to want to stop comin', her body thrashin' away under mine so hard I was sure she was gonna wake up any second. Then, with a little scream that vibrated around my cock, she collapsed back on the bed, her lips still suckin' the last drops of cum out of my cock. Her ass fell back onto the bed, and I was just barely able to get my finger out of it before she broke it off. I didn't really want to stop then, but I knew that if I tried anything else she was sure to wake up, so I let my tongue slide out of her cunt, gettin' one last little lick of that juice of hers on the way out.
"My cock was shrinkin' fast in her mouth, and she didn't seem to want to give it up any more than I had wanted to give up that sweet pussy of hers, but I managed to slide it out from between her lips at last, and climbed slowly, carefully off the bed.
"Tryin' not to make a sound I picked up the blanket from the floor and pulled it over her again, then I slipped out of the room and down the hall to my own little cell.
"About three hours later I was still layin' there, wide awake, thinkin' about what had happened, when I heard an alarm clock go off. A couple of minutes later Miss Simmons came by, makin' her rounds, and I couldn't help but notice as I laid there, pretendin' to be asleep, that she sure had a mighty big and mighty satisfied lookin' smile on her lips. Come to think of it, I guess I was smilin' pretty good, too."
Man's sexual behavior, at any age, is a highly emotional and ubiquitous form of human experience, and when sexual behavior involving older men is the subject, it is hard to make any evaluation as to sexual normalcy, since, even in our own society, a very wide variation in sexual practices falls within the limits of what is considered to be normal by psychiatrists, psychologists and sociologists.
According to Kinsey, et al., in Sexual "Behavior in the Human Male, male sexuality usually reaches its frequency peak in early adolescence and declines steadily from that time on, Kinsey estimated that the number of sexual acts performed by the average man may easily reach 10,000 in an average lifetime, a truly fantastic exhibition of sexual prowess.
This sexual functioning in the human male, especially when he reaches what has been called his "declining years," represents a dynamic interaction between mental, emotional and physical factors. It has been shown that sexuality is strongly influenced by complex conscious and unconscious psychic factors, by such physiological factors as neurological and endocrine status and age, and by such socio-cultural factors as income and education and the prevailing sexual mores and attitudes regarding women. The sexual process in the aged male is quite sensitive, and may be disturbed by any one of these factors, or a combination of several.
When considering the effect of aging on sexual desire and performance it is essential to consider impotence, so often associated with aging. Fears of it can lead to impotence, thus creating a vicious circle of cause and effect.
It is a common belief that the older the man, the less able he is to engage in sexual activity. Kinsey and his associates found that impotence does, in fact, increase with age, with practically no men in his sample reporting impotence at thirty-five, while 77 percent of his sample of eighty-year-old men reported that they were totally impotent, They noted, however, the phenomenon of wide individual differences in men under eighty and in the remaining 23 percent, and they reported erections and successful sex acts in some males of advanced age, some were over the age of ninety.
Although sexual activity, like most other male activities such as engaging in sporting events, shows a marked decline as the years advance, it is not correct to assume that sexual impotence is an inevitable function of advancing years. Psycho-sexual studies by Drs. Finkle, Moyers, Tobenkin and Rarg, in their article Sexual Potency in Aging Males (Journal of the American Medical Association, 170: 1391, 1959), and Drs. Newman and Nichols in their study of Sexual Activities and Attitudes in Older Persons (Journal of the American Medical Association, 173: 33, I960), indicate that the ready availability of a sexual partner, a wife or mistress, is more closely related to the continuance of sexual potency in the aging male than is age per sie, Drs. Finkle, et al., concluded that the older male who does not have a readily available sex partner:
... often lacks the drive and interest required to seek out a sexual partner, and thus reports that he is impotent, whereas the married older male is often able to continue coitus into advanced years, since his wife is available as a sexual partner.
In their article, Drs. Newman and Nichols stated: "One commonly recognized belief among younger people in our society is that older persons, especially their grandparents, have no sexual feelings."
After making this statement, they went on to give the data they had gathered, which agreed with Drs. Finkle et al., and showed how wrong those younger people were, They concluded:
In our society, the probability is that the amount of sexual activity engaged in by older persons is more a function of a readily available sexual partner than it is a function of age alone.
Even where impotence actually exists, psychiatric studies have shown repeatedly that, in many cases, psychological impotence in older men is selective in nature. That is, it occurs under one set of circumstances, but not another.
Thus, a man may be impotent with his wife, but with no one else, impotent with his mistress, but not with his wife, impotent with his wife and other women of equal social rank, but not with prostitutes, impotent with women in general but able to obtain an erection and achieve orgasm and ejaculation with masturbation, impotent with his wife but potent in sexual dreams, impotent with women but having morning erections, impotent with women but not impotent with other males, impotent with women but not with children or in unusual or deviant circumstances, and so on. There may be, and evidence indicates often there are, combinations of these circumstances in the cases we will be examining in this book.
To the aging person, retirement — for reasons of health, business policy, or desire for leisure — often means a drastic change in the sexual role and a decrease in both sexual activity and sexual/social prestige. With retirement and cessation of wages, self-regard and sense of sexual purpose may evaporate. Changes occur in sexual interests, attitudes and values as environmental demands, the newly ascribed role, and decreased sexual opportunities for individual achievement affect the person's status and activity.
Ideally, an aged person has confidence in his capacity to relieve his sexual tensions and obtain sexual gratification in a culturally acceptable manner, and he maintains a continuity with his past in terms of interest, goals, and gratifying pursuits of a sexual nature.
In contrast to the young adult, he may put less emphasis on current sexual performance and more on self-assurance that he has made an impression on the world in his lifetime, Review of his past sexual achievements can contribute greatly to his self-esteem. Unlike young people, he may show mellowness, a lack of haste, a patience with himself and others in sexual situations and a tolerance that has grown out of satisfied sexual curiosity.
Most important, the ideal aged person will have internalized the sexual values of his culture so that he continues to be capable of playing the various sexual roles required by his achieved status. Ideally, he has been and is a rational, considerate, cooperative, self-reliant, self-disciplined person, able to gain sexual pleasure through his own efforts and with others, and he has few complaints and is minimally complained about.
This ideal, however, is often not achieved. In chronological aging there is usually the before mentioned decline in sexual functioning, either because of physical or psychological factors, and there may also be changes in the environment or social role for which he is psycho-sexually unprepared. Such changes may reveal to him a paucity of resources for continued sexual functioning, and his capacity to react and adapt to this lessened sexual functioning may be so grossly inadequate that he becomes sexually inefficient, disturbed, and socially disturbing.
For an older man, the feelings of helplessness when he discovers that his sexual potency is diminishing is very unpleasant or even frightening. Helplessness and failure, real or anticipated, decreases self-esteem, sense of worth or dignity, and sexual confidence. Sexual activity becomes restricted, and sense of purpose decreases, Anger often becomes mixed with fear and is accentuated by limitation of sexual ability to achieve relief from sexual tensions and to provide oneself with sexually gratifying experiences.
Anger is often directed against oneself for being damaged, a failure, helpless and worthless, further decreasing self-esteem and self-confidence, and therefore sexual ability. Anger is also directed against, other persons as the individual becomes progressively weaker sexually. At times, however, this anger adds to feelings of strength and permits a short period of increased sexual functioning. Unfortunately, this expression of anger usually leads to increased fear because of guilt, conviction that one should be punished, and a sometimes realistic fear of retaliation.
With the advent of old age many persons begin to review their lives with feelings of regret at missed sexual opportunities. They begin to feel that they have failed to achieve their sexual goals in life, to make adequate use of their sexual assets, or to realize their full sexual potential. They are often grieved and depressed by the loss of a potentially sexually viable self, and the depression can, as we have noted above, often take the form of anger and psycho-pathological action as they realize that they will have no second chance. This can often lead to an attempt to force a second chance, through an affair with a younger woman.
The older man, entering the period of declining sexual prowess, often becomes obsessed with the sure knowledge of his approaching death, a death which he could not really envision when younger, and the awareness that he is being cast aside as "used-up" by his society, a reject who has outlived his usefulness.
Because of this, he will often seek out one last proof of his former sexual vitality and virility. The love-sex act, which has become the prime advertising factor in our culture, the central motivating operative in our entire social organization, leads him to the belief that only through a commanding proof of his continued sexual ability can he prove that he is still a man to be reckoned with and not yet a corpse waiting for burial. The affair which he will seek out, almost always involving a younger girl, represents his final chance for proving his manhood to the world. It is his attempt to turn back the clock to a period when he was still a whole man, a functioning, producing, valuable member of his society.
In both men and women, the change in appearance and loss of sexual value to the opposite sex that occurs in aging may pose serious problems. Men are often severely troubled by their loss of potency, which was not only a source of pleasure and a fancied way of rendering service to a woman and guaranteeing her continued interest, but also a symbol of his masculinity and worth as a person.
In both men and women, the decline of sexual interest and activity appears to be related to early acquired sexual habits and interests. The timid, prudish and inhibited tend to welcome the loss of sexual powers and drive and limit the activity of their sexual capacity earlier than those who have been active and relatively uninhibited. It is the man who enjoyed a full and completely satisfying sex life who is most often apt to become involved in an affair with a younger girl, or enter into the world of deviant sex acts.
Of course, a large part of the attraction that older men feel for younger girls has its basis in the desire for an incestuous relationship, either in fact or in symbolism. The daughter, loved by the man, is remembered as a highly desirable sexual object which he was never able to attain, and in his drive for "one last fling" he will often seek out a young woman who reminds him of his daughter in her most desirable period.
In some cases, the man, throwing all caution to the winds, will replace his incestuous desire for his daughter with an incestuous affair with a granddaughter. This is especially true where a young girl flatters the ego of the older man, either through desire on her own part or as a form of "teasing," in the belief that the older man is past the age where he is capable of sexual functioning, and is therefore "safe." This, in itself, is often enough to renew, for at least a short period, sexual vigor in the man, which sometimes comes as a surprise to the girl involved.
In our first case history we have a situation that is somewhat analogous to this, except that the girl involved does hope that her grandfather is capable of sexual activity.