Chapter 3
It did not take Ralph long to get naked before us.
But, as he took off his clothes and as I thought about what he wanted us to do, a million jumbled thoughts ran through my head. I resigned myself to fucking him, to doing what I had to do to make Ralph keep my secret. I knew what the girls at Victory High School would do to me and Kim if they found out about our secret little lust for each other. Most of them would never admit that they had feelings for other girls too, although I was sure that the idea had probably crossed the minds of most of my friends. They would throw us out of their social clubs and treat us like outcasts and call us filthy names. Even if I could take that, I thought, I knew that Kim could not and I knew that my parents and Kim's parents would be hurt if they thought that their daughters were not any good any longer, if they thought that their daughters did not belong to the best set any more.
And I thought that Ralph was not all that bad. He was handsome and he had a strong, young, sexy body. And he had been gentle with me that first and only time that we had fucked. Even if he had not fulfilled me, he had not hurt me the way that I had heard that some boys hurt girls when they fucked them, especially if the girls were virgins.
And I did not really need him to fulfill me now, I remembered.
Now I had Kim and Nancy too for that fulfillment, that special lust that worked against my emptiness and left me satisfied.
I could just fuck Ralph again and moan my way through it and make him think that he was very special, a very great fucker of a man, and then he would keep my secret and Kim's secret. I planned it all out very quickly as I watched him strip.
And I also thought that it might be interesting to fuck-him again, to see if I had changed now so that I could be fulfilled by a man. Perhaps I could take a man and like it now that I really knew how it felt to have the emptiness in me filled.
It might not be so bad after all, and it would prove something to Ralph about himself and about us. It would prove to him that we were not just dykes.
So I gently pushed Kim away from me and moved up on my knees and watched as Ralph took off his shorts and stood there in the sun naked. I smiled at him and asked him the sexy question.
"Do you want to start with me, Ralph?" I asked.
But, as I asked that question, I moved my eyes down to his cock.
That thing was meaty and long and looked strangely clean.
That cock had been in my pussy, I remembered, and it had left me filling empty.
But that seemed like a thousand years before. So much about me had changed in the last few weeks.
I found myself actually anxious to experience cock again.
And I wanted especially to experience Ralph's cock. It would make it a perfectly controlled, almost scientific experiment that would teach me a lot about my own emotions.
I would fuck him and see if I liked it now, I determined.
And I hoped that he chose me for his first fuck, for I knew that I was better prepared for it emotionally than Kim was. As I glanced at her, I saw that she was still frightened and had not yet resigned herself to the fucking that she would probably have to take from that cock. At least, she would have to take a fucking, I thought, if I did not fuck him first and fuck him so well that I wore that sexy young man out.
"Do you want to start with me?" I asked again.
He was looking from one girl to the other. I could tell that he was having trouble making up his mind. That devilment that I had seen in his eyes as he had stripped was gone now, and it was replaced by the old, boyish anxiety of a young man who was still not sure that he was quite the man that he was supposed to be.
So I decided to make up his mind for him. I moved toward him on my knees and I touched his cock with my fingers.
He looked down at me and I smiled up at him.
When we had fucked before, I had not played with his cock. He had handled his own root while he sucked on my tit and got himself hard. And I had certainly not thought of doing for him what I was intending to do now. I was going to suck on his cock, I determined, because I knew that men liked that and I wanted to try it out. I had had my mouth on two pussies since that afternoon that Ralph and I had first fucked and I felt that my mouth was more experienced, more ready now.
I looked back at the prick and closed my fingers around it.
I stroked that meat and felt it grow hard in my hand as it began to stand up from his muscular, boyish boy.
And I thought that it could be worse. I looked at his cock and thought that it looked very clean and fresh. And I remembered that I liked freshness. I wondered if Ralph had ever had his cock sucked on before, but I did not want to break the mood of that sunlight moment by asking him. I just hoped that he had not had his cock licked and sucked before. I hoped that this would be as new to him as it was to me.
And, thinking that, I stuck out my tongue and licked the pink head of the hardening prick.
And the way that Ralph reacted to that lick told me what I had wanted to know. He groaned and twitched with such a fury that I knew that he had never had his cock sucked before, had never felt that delicious feeling that I knew that I was giving him at that very moment.
So I licked his prick-head again with a slow movement of my tongue and felt his body tense. I raised my other hand, the one that was not holding his cock, and I ran my fluttering, girlish fingers up the back of his leg and touched his buns as he twitched and tensed himself and moaned.
"Yeah," he growled manfully, "that is what I want."
And Kim asked him the question, wanted him to make his vow to both of us.
"If we do things like this for you this afternoon, Ralph, will you promise not to tell anyone about what you saw us do, Ralph?"
"Oh, God, yes, I promise, Kim. I promise, Terri. Oh, God, yes. Suck that prick, Terri. Put it in your mouth and suck that thing. I have never been sucked before."
Once I knew that, it was easy to work up my girlish courage.
I opened my lips and moved them over the cock and then pressed my mouth tightly around his meat. The dark-haired boy convulsed and I felt his cock quake in my mouth. It got harder and harder as I sucked on it, as I moved my head back and forth on that rod.
If making love to women was the sea, I thought then this was dry land. This was a hike up a mountain peak. And the peak was his cock and I sucked on it and felt the thing throb and grow in me and I felt proud again because I knew that I was doing that to Ralph, turning him on in that way with my good and soft and sucking mouth.
And I liked the idea that I was turning him on and making him feel better about himself that way. I sucked on the cock with all of the relish that I could feel in my girlish body and I touched my own tit as I felt the hard thing jab against the back of my throat.
But I was afraid that Ralph would come in my mouth.
And I knew that I did not want him to do that.
So I took my mouth off his cock and I moved back on that concrete at poolside and I spread my legs and fingered my snatch. I was ready to fuck him then.
My pussy had started to flood with juices when Kim had fingered me there.
And it was quaking now with the pride and the tension and the excitement that I felt as Ralph lowered himself onto the concrete and moved between my legs. I remembered the first time that I had fucked him, and I thought that this time would be much better. It was already much better. I was turned on to this fucking as I had not been to the earlier one.
And, even if it did not fulfill me, even if it did leave me a little empty, I would be able to handle that, I determined. I looked at Kim. She was up on her knees just a few feet away and she was watching me and Ralph with her eyes blazing with sexy interest. I smiled at her to let her know that she was still included in my lustful thoughts, and she smiled back.
Then I turned my attention to Ralph. He was the important one now, I thought.
He was the one that I had to please with my cunt.
If I pleased him and made him feel like a man, I reasoned, he would keep our secret.
And he was a nice boy and I did owe him something for all the harm that I thoughtlessly done to him when I had turned him down on those later dates.
I felt that I owed him a fucking, a good, solid and sexy fucking that would please him even if it did not please me.
Nancy and I had talked about men one time after we had made love and she had told him about things that she had discovered that men liked. She had spoken about it with disgust, but, now, as I watched Ralph move between my legs, I understood why men would want some of those things and I remembered that Nancy had said that men liked it when girls talked dirty to them, said things that you did not normally hear a female say.
So I said those things to Ralph to please him and turn him on even more than he already was.
I fingered my pink snatch and I sighed to him.
"Oh, fuck me, Ralph. Fuck my cunt and make me feel good. I know that you are man enough to make that cunt feel great, Ralph. Fuck me. Tear my pussy open with your cock."
And he grinned and moved closer and I lifted myself up on the warm concrete and I reached out and took his cock gently in my hand and guided him into my warm and sweet cunt.
I felt the cock-tip move into me and I liked the filling that it gave me as it spread my pussy-lips.
And then I let go of the cock and lifted my legs and leaned them against his body and I sighed to him with more truth in my voice, than I had really expected to have.
"Oh, fuck me, Ralph. Show me what it is like now. I want to fuck you now and see how it feels."
And Ralph grinned and leaned forward, pressing my legs back against my body.
And he shoved his cock deep into my snatch.
I squealed when he did that. It was not a gentle movement into me, but I found myself enjoying Ralph's new roughness. I pressed my legs against his body and let him lean forward as my cunt tightened around his cock and as my body tensed as if it were about to break into two sexy parts. I sighed to him with that new feeling that invaded me, just as his cock was invading me.
"Oh, fuck me, Ralph," I moaned. "Fuck my cunt. That feels so good."
And I was not lying, I was surprised to discover.
This fucking did feel good, hard where girl-love was soft, fast where girl-love was slow. But the fucking was very meaningful for me at that moment. As Ralph fucked my hot, teen-aged pussy, as he worked his prick in and out of me with his strength and his hardness, I turned and looked at Kim, who was watching it all with such excitement and desire in her blue eyes. I reached out to her and she came to me and held my hand tightly in hers while Ralph fucked me.
"It feels very good," I moaned to her, knowing that Ralph could hear me too, and knowing that the words would make him feel good and proud of his masculinity. "Ralph fucks like a young god."
And the boy who was ramming me with his organ growled and laughed in a guttural way with his pride.
As the ramming continued, I knew that it was not going to be as fulfilling as girl-love was for me, but I also knew that it did feel better than it had the first time. Ralph had not really changed that much, except that he was a little rougher now. I knew that the real change was in me. Now that I had tasted the fruits of lesbian love, I thought, I felt better about myself and I knew more what to look for in fulfillment. I sighed as Ralph leaned closer to me, bending my legs back against my big tits and I kissed him as he dropped his head between my legs and I worked my pussy onto his cock as I stretched my legs over his body.
"Fuck me, Ralph," I moaned to him after that kiss. "Fuck me and then come all over Kim."
I don't know why I said that. I guess I wanted the blonde who was holding my hand so tightly to understand that she was part of this sexy action too. And I did want to see him shoot his load of man-cream all over the girl's body. It would be like a new kind of sea, a new kind of flood, a molten-lava flood and I wanted Kim to drown in it as I had drowned in the sexiness of her orgasm when I had sucked her to the peak and then sucked her while she came.
I looked at Kim, wondering if she would go along with this new plan in my head.
She smiled at me and took my hand and put it on her tit and I knew that she was going to go along with it.
She wanted to be covered with Ralph's cream when the time came for his great, manly eruption.
Ralph saw me squeeze on Kim's breast and then I thought that I should explain something to him, something that had just come to me very clearly.
"Ralph," I said, "I want you to know that a girl can have fun with boys and girls too. There is nothing wrong with that. Some boys even like to watch two girls do it. Would you like to watch that sometime, Ralph?"
As he fucked me, he did not even pause to think about it. He was a normal, healthy, American lad and he wanted to experience as much as he could. As long as he did not feel left out, I thought, as long as he did not feel like something less than a man, he would go along with anything.
"Sure," he growled. "I would like to watch you two sometime and then fuck both of you."
I giggled and nodded my head. Then I looked at Kim. She nodded her head too.
The blonde would go along with such an idea, because she could see that I was having fun doing it with Ralph, fucking him as his cock ran deep into my snatch. She could see that things were different for me now and she sensed that they would probably be different for her when she next felt Ralph's cock in her juicy, little cunt.
Ralph worked his prick into me, filling me and fulfilling me just a little bit too.
And I thought that it would be fun to perform for Ralph with Kim and then share him with my blonde lover. She would be my major lover, I thought, the one that I enjoyed the most, but a little cock from time to time never hurt any girl, even a girl-loving girl like me.
And I decided to give Ralph a little preview of what lay ahead for all three of us.
I pulled Kim down and kissed her with passion as Ralph fucked my pussy.
"Wow!" he said. "This is great! You girls are great!"
And the kiss was great too. As Ralph fucked me, I opened my mouth and Kim shot her tongue into me, so that I was invaded by both of them at the same time. And that seemed only natural for a girl like me, I thought as I shivered with the sexiness of that moment in the sun.
And then Ralph groaned to me and to Kim with passion deep in his manly throat.
"I am gonna come," he growled. "Gonna come."
And Kim knew what she had to do to get ready. It was her turn to receive something from Ralph at that moment.
The sexy, cuddly, little blonde with the big tits moved down and lay beside me and waited for Ralph to pull his cock out of me and aim it at her. She took a lesson from the way that I had reacted to him and she spoke to him, saying those dirty things that boys like to hear girls say.
"Come on me, Ralph. Come on me with all of your good, hot juices."
And that was all that Ralph needed to get him off.
He yanked his cock out of my snatch and moved quickly to Kim and I reached out and grabbed his cock and stroked it and aimed it at the same time.
And a few seconds later he started to come, started to shoot his goo all over the little blonde.
Kim felt the first bits of warm liquid hit her and she sighed and started to squirm there on the concrete and I continued to stroke Ralph, continued to milk him for all the semen that he had in him.
His cock was like a hose, I thought, and he was spraying his come all over Kim. But he was not putting out a fire in her. He was causing the fire to grow in her with all the come from his big, clean, young fireman's hose.
The stuff landed on her stomach and on her tits and she sighed and churned there on the concrete as the stuff struck her and stayed with her and made her happy with its heat.
And I was happy too as I thought about the way that we had ushered Ralph into our little game and made everything better for both of us and for him too.
He would definitely keep our secret now, I thought, for he had become a part of our secret, our sexy, bi-sexual secret.
When he was dry, his cock began to wither in my hand. I took my hand off that piece of sweet meat and looked down at the come that lay on Kim's body and then I did something that I did not really even think about. I just found myself doing it out of girlish lust and excitement and a spirit of adventure that only comes to teen-aged girls who are still new to sexual things.
I lowered my head over Kim's body and I stuck out my tongue and I started to lick the come off the girl.
I had wanted to know how it tasted, and I was surprised that it was sweet and good tasting.
It was not at all like the juices from a girl's cunt, I thought, not at all like the sea. It was something different, more salty and firm to the tongue. But it tasted good too.
And, even though I knew that I was basically a lesbian, even though I knew that I would never be able to give up the sweetness that girls and women gave to me, I knew that I was happy that I had tried this kind of good sex too.
And Ralph was happy too, amazed at the feverish way that I licked the blonde right there in front of him.
His masculinity was probably growing a thousand feet at that moment, I thought, as he saw how eagerly I licked at his come, his warm fluid.
"Wow!" he said loudly. "This is great! I never thought that I would see anything like that! You girls are wonderful!"
I took my mouth away from Kim's body and looked at Ralph.
I wanted him to reassure both of us that he would not tell anyone about our special lust.
"And you will keep our secret, Ralph? You will for certain?"
"You bet I will," he said with a grin. "Most of the ' kids at school just would not understand how much fun this kind of stuff could be."
And I was glad that he understood that, that he now considered himself more manly and more experienced. As long as he felt that way and as long as Kim and I let him join out little sex parties from time to time, I knew that we had a perfect co-conspirator in Ralph.
Kim raised up as I moved my head away from her and she giggled as she said it.
"Would you like to join us for a swim, Ralph?"
Both Ralph and I knew why the blonde found that suggestion funny.
It was funny because he had already joined us for so much else, so much that pleased all three of us.
"Sure," he said. "I would like that. I need to cool off."
And he was the first one in the pool, jumping up and diving naked into the water and started to swim with boyish glee. Kim joined him there.
But I stood up and waited for a moment. I looked at the sky. The sun was going down, and the day was ending. But, with my new friends, I knew that I would have other days of lust that would be magnificent.
And I knew that I wanted to find other girls just like Kim, girls who liked girls too. I thought about the summer to come and I resolved to find as many girls as possible during those lazy, sexy, summer months.
I would not try to find other guys, I thought.
I had Ralph and he was all that I needed really. He was enough to please that part of me. But the girl-loving part was a bigger part, a deeper cavern, and I would need as many girls as possible to help me find my pleasure there, to keep me sweet and fulfilled during the summer.
"Come on, Terri," Kim chirped. And then she squealed with girlish glee as Ralph touched her tits there in the pool.
And I wanted to join them too.
I dove into the water and felt the coolness wash over me. I swam toward my new friends, my young and lusty lovers.
And Ralph and Kim and I played together in that pool like silly, naked, sexual children.
We had a lot of fun together as the sun went down and the night came upon us.
But that was not the real change in my life. At that time, I was still dealing with people who were wealthy, kids who had money just as
I had money.
I did not become a revolutionary, did not really understand what the people could offer to a girl like me until later that summer, when my sister came home and when Nina-
That is what I will tell you about next, I guess.
I will tell you about my relationship with Nina.
She was the first lower-class girl I ever made love to, and she showed me just how much fire there was down there in those lower classes.
Once I had felt Nina's fire, I could never go back to the rich, even the sexy rich like Kim and Nancy and Ralph.
Once I had felt Nina's fire on my own body, I knew that I had changed forever in a way that would make me an outlaw from my own social class.